very odd and tiring weekend
aloha
I hope you are all well. would love to write some positive and woohoo comments about how i have been this week. but i cant
I am slowly losing the will to live on this diet. i know it is my own fault that i am this size, but this week, i think i have hit the lowest point. if you have read the previous, you will know i had a tough week at work ( was told to concentrate more, i am 33, not 13) i work in a game show called ' who's blame is it anyway'. thankfully, i am off from Monday night thru to next tuesday. The other thing that caused problems for me last week was it i was my tom. which a little high five that I lost weight last week, but. When i get this, i lose all energy. this last week, i have felt , weak, nearly passed out in morrisons other day when i was picking up some cleaning products. I only want to sleep. so upped my coffee intake. :cry:i just feel like sh1t. Friday night, i was baking for a fundraiser. will power was strong until about 10 o clock at night. i had a biscuit with a glass of milk.this is when i jump on to the crazy ass train. i got so upset with my self, i actually made myself sick. now yes, i know that is bloody extreme and i have no intention of making this a regular thing. I was so angry and upset. i have ran out of ketostix so no idea if i am out of ketosis or not.
saturday, was good. watched a lot of rugby ( my club teams won). chatted to people and went home. friday night i was ok, cleaned my oven ( rock and roll lifestyle, i know)
Sunday. bloody horrible day this is
I went over to my parents with my partner. had a nice walk with the dogs, chatted with parents and sisters, but then ...... they had sunday lunch. I have never realised how lonely this diet is. they had a lovely sunday dinner with all the usuall trimmings and pudding. what did i have, two cups of black coffee adn two chuffing tetras
my poor partner is actually sitting beside me on the couch, eating sweets, i want to smack him. he is being supportive but .
come on world, give me a break i am so tired and i know i failed on stuff cos i got fat, but i am trying so hard, i am using so much of my hard earned cash to pay for these chuffing horrible tetras.
apologies. but your all the only people i can share this with. i am now realising how fake a lot of my friends are.
oh foxy, you dont need to lose weight, yoru lovely with such a great personality,
:sigh: i get it, i am fat, but dont give me that bs.
i am getting weighed tomorrow at 6pm. i am tihnking about taking a week off this diet as i cant cope with being this down
did anyone else feel like this ?:cry::cry: