Just back from another run (C25k Week 3, day 2) and man I'm shattered!! I keep upping my pace on the treadmill each time and it's really pushed me to the limit today. I got my first sub 15 minute mile time though - average pace today was 14 mins 53s a mile - which is amazing for me. When I started I was doing 20 minute miles!
Was going to push on and do another 5k but my left leg started to feel achey so I'm saving my weekly 5k run for Saturday after completing the final day of week 3. Hopefully I'll be able to improve my time on that too *fingers crossed*
The eagle eyed amongst you will have noticed I did my run on the treadmill. That's right, I bottled it! I want to run outside by the river in the park, I really do. But I'm scared to. I'm scared of comments and dodgy looks and people laughing at the fatty running. I know its completely in my head but after a lifetime of being morbidly obese and getting that kind of thing all the time its so hard to get out of that mindset. I know its daft. One of my friends is heavier than me and runs outside all the time and loves it, but I really don't have the confidence for it yet. I keep psyching myself up for it and saying 'sod what people say' and I honestly believe that, but I just don't want to have to face any negativity. I think it'd completely put me off something I'm growing to love - my running. It's so horrible admitting that to myself, let alone my diary. I really wish I'd got a bit more confidence, I'm sure it'll come in time. I hope so anyway, it's horrible to want to do something but be too worried and anxious to do it.
Anyway, on to more positive things! I cooked the most amazing lunch today. Decided to have my main meal for lunch to give me some energy for all the running, it worked too, especially after having a small breakfast. Still feeling pretty full now too. In the end decided to go for the pasta and give in to the temptations of EE carby goodness.
A few more syns but totally worth it! So foodage today is looking like this:
Day 3 - Wed 25th June - EE
Breakfast - Chewy D - hexb
Lunch - Chicken with peppers, onions, mushrooms, tomatoes, pasta sauce (6 syns), pasta and cheese (hexa) - 6 syns
Snack - Sugar free strawberry jelly
Tea - Strawbs, raspberries and Liberte yoghurt - 1 syn
Supper - Home made veggie soup
Total - 7 syns
Exercise
30 mins walking to/from work
30 mins c25k running/walking
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Kay - Thanks hun, hope you have too, sent ya a PM if you see it before you leave for your aunties xxx
Charley - Aww bless ya hun, thank you
It felt kinds surreal to hit all those goals in the space of a week - not quite sure what my body was playing at with that 6lbs loss, I couldn't even shift that much in week when I was 24 stone! WTF!
Ah well, if I gain this week I know why eh?
Glad you like the dress, I love it but the only thing I'm wary about is the fact you have to order it from the website and its made to measure. So if it looks crap on I'm buggered basically. Gonna see if I can try some similar ones on in wedding dress shops first. Hope you're doing well lovely xxx
Rae - Thanks hun I really hope so, sick of being sat miserable with a hot water bottle. I'm not expectin g it to be perfect but even 50% improvement would make my life so much better
Sugar fairy - hey hun, hope you're having a good day! We're off to the Beefeater pub in the country side. We absolutely love it there, great location and the food is gorgeous. I've already decided what I'm having and it'll be super naughty so I'm going to try and burn off loads of extra cals at the gym tomorrow to make up for it, lol. xx
Scarlet - Thanks hun, hope you've had a great day too xx
