Apologies for being pretty rubbish on here.
Today I'm in a very philosophical, almost contemplative mood. It is one year ago today, or the corresponding Saturday, we "buried" my best mate. It was at that moment I made the life-changing decison to change my entire outlook on life and lifestyle. Prior to that, my near-10 year relationship had ended so I was feeling low to start with. An unfortunate series of events around that time saw a terrible run of tragedies of losing very close friends. Five in all, and none of them natural, and all but one of them were young. The youngest left a widow and two kids under five!!
As a heavy-drinking, obese, insulin-dependent diabetic a few years back, I have now turned that around. 12 months so much has happened.
I don't even know what I want any more, I just know I have to become healthy, and it has now become an all-consuming passion! - My friends and work colleagues are worried about me as they say I've gone too far and lost too much weight.
How can that be so when I am at the high range of normal? - besides it is not merely the weight, but the fitness and well-being surely?
Why am I writing this on these pages?
Well, I know people on here "get it". People on here understand the struggle. Understand the obsession. I set myself a series of challenges. This month it is 200 miles walking. (ideally I want 300! - the rest I'll leave to The Proclaimers) I'M ALSO HAPPY TO LET THE BODY DICTATE THE WEIGHT AND NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
So long as I'm healthy, getting all my vitamins, proteins and following the plan with plenty of exercise, I'm happy. This month I have also decided to go without bread - whoolemeal or other for the month of August. This makes me think and plan ahead more rather than just knocking up a sandwich for work etc.
So apologies for the lack of posting, I do spend far too much time online - time I need to be spending getting fitter, planning that holiday to the F word (sorry Michelle lol).
I will eventually catch up with everyone and their diaries, but forgive me for appearing to be selfish at this time. No doubt Wednesday's weigh-in will probably have me back down to earth with a bump