O. M. G. How long has it been???
You have all heard it before I know, but here I go again - I'm back!
I just cannot believe its almost blinking November, reading back old posts from the summer holidays and how well I felt I was doing and how positive I was about the running and going to the gym and everything...well it's all gone pear shaped!! I literally haven't been back to the gym since the instructor was really nasty to me with his comments (yes, I'm still smarting lol) but I NEED to get back as the feeling of a workout is soooo good!
I also had a good old gain over the holiday away at my dad's (I totally blame my sister lol) and then when I went back to school my heart wasn't in it at all, and I kind of gave up, I guess.
The last 4 weeks I've managed to come up with every excuse possible not to go to group, as I've not been in the right frame of mind, but this morning my neighbour dragged me along and I was shocked to find that in the last 4 weeks I've actually lost 1.5lbs!!! That shut me up, I was expecting half a stone gain!!
Anyway, the main reason for my demotivation is probably how busy I've been at work lately; my promotion has meant I didn't get to sit down for lunch one single day last term, and as a result of all this stress I've now come down with this horrid bug that's been going round - of course I had to come down with it on the very first day of half term and have been in bed all week!! Probably why I lost the 1.5lbs to be fair!!
So I've come to the conclusion that next term must get better - I must make time to take a lunch break and eat something, as I'm fed up with coming home at about 6-7pm absolutely ravenous and eating everything in sight!! I must therefore learn to say NO to people, as if I don't start to do so I'll end up with another term of stress and no doubt gain. The thing is, I still absolutely love my job and doing the deputy head of house stuff is amazing, but at the end of the day I've got to look after myself!
I'm also taking the pledge to stop drinking, as I have been worrying myself lately. I never used to drink during the week, now it's become a habit. An expensive, calorific habit at that!! I haven't had a drink so far this week (as I've been too ill) and I think I might try and be without until Christmas now. That should help with the weight loss as well!
Oh dear, another long rambling post, well done if you got to this point, I didn't mean to post 8 weeks worth of stuff at once hahaha! And I haven't even got to the suspected lactose intolerance bit yet!!
Anyway, thinking of what targets I can set myself, the first one is to catch up properly with some of you lovely lot here!!
. Sorry for the moaning and feeling sorry for myself!!
Emz, xxxx