FunnyFarm
Silver Member
I'm new to Exante, but sadly not new to dieting!
I lost 4 stone on Lighter Life a few years ago, I kept most of it off and then returned to comfort eating, which has been my downfall. I'd gone up to a size 14 which I'd hovered around at, and then gave up smoking, changed my job (I used to be a dog walker which burned more calories than I thought!) and I'm now an 18. I was a 20-22 to before starting LL the first time, went down to a 10 and then settled at size 12 for 2 years. I feel like that's a natural size for my body to be, and I maintained that with no effort on my part.
I'm starting Exante because it's cheaper than LL and CD, and I know dieting isn't the solution for me, I need to reprogramme the way I feel about food. I need a couple of months break from eating so I can put those bad habits behind me, and replace them with better ones. I need practice at dealing with difficult situations (boredom, tiredness, sadness) without turning to food, and I also need a break of relying on alcohol socially.
I recently had an argument with my boyfriend, and thought we were going to break up. I couldn't help thinking if I were thinner he would love me more, and as much as I know that's utterly insane, it did make me realise that it's at the point where I'm desperately unhappy with where I am. He hasn't even noticed that I'm 2 dress sizes bigger than when we met a year ago, or that the jeans I was wearing 3 months ago no longer fit! He's part of the reason I want to do this. I don't want him to feel embarrassed when he introduces me to people, and while I know he'd never feel that, I'd love it if I could make him proud.
I can't track myself through my weight, because I can't bring myself to weigh myself at the moment. I'm going with clothes, and I've sorted out a few pairs of jeans in order of size.
The first pair are my 16s. I was wearing them every day a few months ago, and then when I tried them on the other day, I couldn't even get the button to meet the button hole! Horrible moment.
Day one of the Total Solution plan was Friday. This morning, I tried on those jeans again, and I can button them up! I couldn't go out in them though, it's less of a muffin top, and more of a bloomer loaf top, but it's still progress and that'll help motivate me.
I'm breaking my goals down into manageable chunks. I've only really got the next few weeks sorted out, but here they are.
WEEK 1 - Stick to it. This might seem like a silly and obvious goal, but I think the first week will be the hardest, I've already forgotten about it several times and thought 'ooh I fancy a...no I can't' so I'm hoping after a week my brain will have realised, and my body will have stopped asking me for food.
Reward: Pamper night (Lush bath ballistic, massage from the boy), film and sofa cuddles.
WEEK 2 - routine. I work from home and start at 8am, so I often roll out of bed and start work in my pyjamas. I think it's bad for my body, because it's hard to tell when the day has started, and bad for my mental health, for similar reasons. The plan for week 2 is to get out of bed at 7am, and walk the dog before work, and a longer one straight after. The benefits are two fold for this. Starting the day with something energising will help me feel motivated throughout the day. It'll be good for the dog, and it's a mood boost. A better mood booster than a bar of chocolate, too.
Reward: Mobile phone cover
WEEK 3 - Get out of breath. A direct follow on from week 2, during the dog walks I'm going to walk a little bit faster, or go a little bit further. Just enough to get me puffing a bit. Again, a very minor step but laying the way for a more demanding exercise regime later on.
Reward: A few second hand clothes, will probably be back in 16s by 3 weeks of the milkshakes, and I wasn't a 16 for very long on the way up so won't have much that fits then!
I've got a few other ideas for the future, but one step at a time!
I'm currently on day 3, and seriously considering eating the cat. She could live without her tail, right?
(I just tried to post this and it vanished, so now I'm worried I'll have 2 of these come up, if that happens, I'm sorry!)
I lost 4 stone on Lighter Life a few years ago, I kept most of it off and then returned to comfort eating, which has been my downfall. I'd gone up to a size 14 which I'd hovered around at, and then gave up smoking, changed my job (I used to be a dog walker which burned more calories than I thought!) and I'm now an 18. I was a 20-22 to before starting LL the first time, went down to a 10 and then settled at size 12 for 2 years. I feel like that's a natural size for my body to be, and I maintained that with no effort on my part.
I'm starting Exante because it's cheaper than LL and CD, and I know dieting isn't the solution for me, I need to reprogramme the way I feel about food. I need a couple of months break from eating so I can put those bad habits behind me, and replace them with better ones. I need practice at dealing with difficult situations (boredom, tiredness, sadness) without turning to food, and I also need a break of relying on alcohol socially.
I recently had an argument with my boyfriend, and thought we were going to break up. I couldn't help thinking if I were thinner he would love me more, and as much as I know that's utterly insane, it did make me realise that it's at the point where I'm desperately unhappy with where I am. He hasn't even noticed that I'm 2 dress sizes bigger than when we met a year ago, or that the jeans I was wearing 3 months ago no longer fit! He's part of the reason I want to do this. I don't want him to feel embarrassed when he introduces me to people, and while I know he'd never feel that, I'd love it if I could make him proud.
I can't track myself through my weight, because I can't bring myself to weigh myself at the moment. I'm going with clothes, and I've sorted out a few pairs of jeans in order of size.
The first pair are my 16s. I was wearing them every day a few months ago, and then when I tried them on the other day, I couldn't even get the button to meet the button hole! Horrible moment.
Day one of the Total Solution plan was Friday. This morning, I tried on those jeans again, and I can button them up! I couldn't go out in them though, it's less of a muffin top, and more of a bloomer loaf top, but it's still progress and that'll help motivate me.
I'm breaking my goals down into manageable chunks. I've only really got the next few weeks sorted out, but here they are.
WEEK 1 - Stick to it. This might seem like a silly and obvious goal, but I think the first week will be the hardest, I've already forgotten about it several times and thought 'ooh I fancy a...no I can't' so I'm hoping after a week my brain will have realised, and my body will have stopped asking me for food.
Reward: Pamper night (Lush bath ballistic, massage from the boy), film and sofa cuddles.
WEEK 2 - routine. I work from home and start at 8am, so I often roll out of bed and start work in my pyjamas. I think it's bad for my body, because it's hard to tell when the day has started, and bad for my mental health, for similar reasons. The plan for week 2 is to get out of bed at 7am, and walk the dog before work, and a longer one straight after. The benefits are two fold for this. Starting the day with something energising will help me feel motivated throughout the day. It'll be good for the dog, and it's a mood boost. A better mood booster than a bar of chocolate, too.
Reward: Mobile phone cover
WEEK 3 - Get out of breath. A direct follow on from week 2, during the dog walks I'm going to walk a little bit faster, or go a little bit further. Just enough to get me puffing a bit. Again, a very minor step but laying the way for a more demanding exercise regime later on.
Reward: A few second hand clothes, will probably be back in 16s by 3 weeks of the milkshakes, and I wasn't a 16 for very long on the way up so won't have much that fits then!
I've got a few other ideas for the future, but one step at a time!
I'm currently on day 3, and seriously considering eating the cat. She could live without her tail, right?
(I just tried to post this and it vanished, so now I'm worried I'll have 2 of these come up, if that happens, I'm sorry!)
