Ok guys
got home last night after having a grand day ss'ing and i just wanted something savoury... so i cut myself off by having another peanut bar and a cup of tea which i was very proud of but then the crisps that were hanging around after the weekend, which i should have thrown out, just hopped down off the top of the press and forced me to eat them
i wouldn't mind but it was pure boredom which had me there thinking of them. i also wouldn't mind but i had arranged a reflexology appointment last night to keep me busy but it wasn't until 8:30 so i had a couple of hours to play with. i know excuses excuses.
anyway i fought the whole way in this morning with myself whether to ss or not and then decided **** it, i'm not going to. i'm sick of food/diets/will i won't i do it... i'm on a merry-go-round of crap and in my big rush to lose weight i'm a stone heavier than i was at the beginning of august. now i'm sorry but that doesn't make any sense since the one thing all my energy is going into isn't working... there must be some reason why!
anyway i'm back doing 790, i did really well on that last week and enjoyed it. i wasn't prepared for the weekend that came around but this time i will be.
i'm doing this for me now and not for any function/xmas/knee high boots/short skirts etc... just for me because i want to be fit and healthy and happy and not always on a diet or other.
anyway thats me and i'm glad i made the decision this morning. its funny when i'm on 790 i don't want crap but when i'm on ss i am more tempted by it.
hope you all have a lovely day and thanks for reading my ramblings... i'm sure its getting boring at this stage, but i need to get it down! i even considered staying away from this site cos i thought i was such a failure but then i thought well is this not the purpose of the website???? and yes, yes it is!!!
love
Gen xx