Hello new weight loss blog :D

happy birthday bon! hope you've had a lovely time!

xxx
 
Aw thanks for the birthday messages :) very kind :)

And yes it was my birthday on Saturday the 29th :) although I did celebrate for 4 days... hee.

Alnwick was lovely :D we went to the castle there, and these huge gardens and then there is a restaurant in the treehouse there, so we had a posh meal :) was soooo yummy! and wine :D The diet went out of the treehouse window, hee.

See here: The Alnwick Garden also look at the photos at the bottom :) it is such an awesome tree house! huuuuge and with fairy lights in the evening :)

Then we had 3 days relaxing at home and watching looooads of David Attenborough documentaries :) A lovely birthday :)

So today it is back to strict calorie counting :S sigh. But I feel ready for it after a break :) I got all my cravings out of the way and now have lots of fruit and salad ready for the healthy me :)

Hope everyone had a lovely bank holiday?

Let's hope Abi's baby puts in an appearance soon! she must be so uncomfy, poor Abi :) can't wait to hear that she's a Mum :)
 
Hiya Bon, glad to hear you've had such a lovely birthday, and why not celebrate for four days?? It's good that you're ready to start being strict again, I would be tempted to keep going!

Hope you're having a good day xx
 
just popped in to see how you were (and to see if abz baby has put in an apperance yet!)

xxx
 
Hi Bon - So glad you had a great birthday - The place you went to looks really wonderful x
 
Aw well talking about dieting seems so boring after reading Abi's diary and seeing the baby photos :) aw, I am so happy for her and Thomas, am glad they are all well and I can't wait to meet Isobel :)

Well my dieting is going ok :) Been calorie counting again. Not been on the scales for a few weeks though, so don't know what the birthday damage is :S but i feel huge at the moment so I am sure there is lots of damage :S oh well, I am in determined mode :)

Hope everyone is well :) I have lots to catch up on people's diaries.
 
Hi Bon - You're doing good counting the calories with all the excitement going on x
 
Morning :)

Well I am starting to feel a bit fed up :S I keep catching sight of myself in the mirror, shop windows etc and i just look huge :( I have never been this big and I wanted to be thin for the summer and warm weather :( For years now i've been selfconcious in hot weather wearing strappy tops as I hate the tops of my arms and chest area, and it's worse than ever this year :( sigh.

I keep saying "next year it will be different" and it never is :cry:

Only I can do something about it though. I definatly need to buy another Wii Fit (the one we had was stolen :( ) then i need to force myself to exercise regular again.

And i need to cut down on my portion sizes again, I just feel hungry all the time so i pig out when it comes to meal times, so little and more often is the best way.

Soooooo I am off to the market at lunch time and I plan to get some strawberries, raspberries and blueberries :) and then to the Weigh Shop for some rice crackers, there's also a good Asian shop in the market that sells wasabi peas so they'll make a nice snack too. I need to find little things that are tasty and low cal so i don't get bored.

So that's the plan! and more cup a soups :) I will get back in to this and start feeling better about myself soon!
 
I know what you mean about shop windows and the summer Bon. I also get reminded at school in graphic terms that I am overweight. Strawberries are £1 at ASDA at the moment, so are blueberries x
 
I feel your pain about summer clothes, I never wear them because I'm too self-conscious, but I'm alwas so jealous of the girls in the strappy tops and flippy skirts! Next year though, the both of us will be looking freaking awesome!

What are wasabi peas? Just like normal peas in pods?

best wishes.
 
Good morning :)

Sorry I've been AWOL lately :S haven't been on here for a while, oops.

Well the diet's not going so well :( I can't get back in to the zone and feel really rubbish about myself :( It's just so stupid! i have the sense and the logic that I just need to eat less calories than i burn, it's easy, why do i need that big meal or Kit Kat in the afternoon... but I just can't stop myself :( :(

I feel so huge and daren't weigh myself at all :( I've been calorie counting for 5 months or so now and i've lost hardly anything :( It's so frustrating, esp when I've had health scares and know how important it is that i look after my body, but i just can't do it :(

So i am feeling miserable, which you can probably tell!

There's been an Eat Festival on here too, so at the weekend we went to a chilli and beer event, wine tasting, and then yesterday we went to a cheese farm to see how cheese is made and to taste lots :S Have enjoyed it :D but still feel guilty about the amount of calories i've eaten...

Gah I need a good kicking up the a*se! I want to get back in to it so i can feel happier and like i am doing something about my unhappiness. Hopefully today is the day then, I've had an apple for breakfast, but then i usually start well it's lunch time and in the afternoons that i reach for crisps and chocolates and big baggette sandwiches... i dont like feeling hungry so i tend to make sure i have lots of filling food for lunch to last me til tea time, which isn't the way forward!

See i know where i am going wrong! my head understands, it's just my hands that don't obey and reach for the bad things. Sigh.

Sorry for the huuuuge moan! but i need to be honest in here...

Hope everyone else is doing ok? I shall have to get round to people's diaries today :) Thanks for listening guys :)
 
Hiya Bon, sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I know exactly how you feel as my hands are very naughty too!!

Hope you're having a lovely day and the sun is shining on you. Big hugs coming your way xx
 
Aw thank you Nomad, you're lovely :)

Well I think my big moan on here yesterday really helped, and then I read through some diaries and threads on here too and I feel much better :) This place is brilliant for getting motivation and making me realise that I am not the only one :D

Soo I had a good day yesterday in the end :D wooo, am chuffed with meself. I had an apple for breakfast, jacket potato for lunch with filled me up til tea time :) and then for tea we went out for curry night at Weatherspoons but I was thoughtful and made good choices avoiding the Naans and greasy onion bhajis, even though they looked delicious! And i just had one glass of wine whereas before I would have moved onto the yummy cocktails :S

Today I've had Snack a Jacks for breakfast, and I am having a bagel for lunch, not sure about tea yet.

Buuut I do feel much happier with myself, although all that is not sterling it's a good start and i am making those right choices again. For example i went to the snack machine at work for breakfast and was gonna get a Kit Kat but i saw the Snack a Jacks and they were less than half the calories so i chose them and they were tasty and more filling :)

So phew! I am feeling much more positive today. Thanks for your nice words Nomad and everyone's diaries I red :) We all know this is a hard journey, I have so many food demons to face, but i am getting there.

Only I can change myself and make my body healthier.

Right, so the goal is the August bank hol, that's 10 weeks away, and we've said we'll go and see Jamie's Dad in the Lake District. Last year we went and I did some fell walking and really really enjoyed it :D but i found it very hard since i am so overweight and very unfit and also it was not long after finishing chemo so my lungs were still a bit damaged. Sooo I vowed that next time we went I would be fit and be able to do better and get up higher hills, I thought I was doing well with the Wii Fit but it all went a bit wrong :( So here we go! It's payday next Friday so I am buying a new Wii Fit then (our original one was stolen) and I am counting my calories again and cutting the wine down :)

Sooo I am aiming for a stone gone in 10 weeks. It shall be hard but it's doable :)
 
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