Hope you are having a good one! We have an annual beach holiday in September, and seriously for the past four years I have sworn that-in a years time- things will be different. Well, you know how it is, the old body in the bikini is still a sight, but in some ways, the results lie- I am generally eating much better. I hardly ever binge now, and if I do it is short and sweet, not three days in a row. If I don't look toned and terrific, well, I must be fitter, quite a bit fitter too. I've learnt a lot about diet and excercise too.
Really then, things are different. Perhaps what really does need to change is my attitude, and my priorities. No, I'm not going to pack the bikini, but I'm healthy, and have worked hard. I think about who I'm going to vote for, and I'm always polite to oldies!
Sweetie, don't be so hard on yourself! You are trying, and that counts for a lot. You are much more than your weight!