jenboo
Full Member
It's the 12th April...this is me....I have decided to begin to document what happens over the next few weeks. Todsy I met with my new cwp consultant and I will begin trying the plan on Monday. I am very nervous...nervous to fail....I absolutely have to do this...am so over weight and unhappy with myself. When I look in the mirror I feel so sad... I feel unattractive and that I am missing out on so much. I have made a list of things I want to do when I have lost weight. I have decided to keep a diary of how I feel in the run up to starting and during. I know I am going to hate this and find it hard...I have done nothing but eat in the last 2 week's and is beginning to spiral again...I can literally feel the weight going on but I can't stop. I think removing the food is the only way to tackle this situation . I have decided that I am so much more than my weight and I want to build my confidence to show the rest of the world what I am capable of. I often lack the confidence to speak up and give my ideas or opinions because my weight holds me back...it is time for it to go.
I am actually looking forward to starting ...I think this weekend I am going to indulge myself a little bit but not too much. I think my main challenge will be not to drink diet coke ...I am completely addicted to the stuff! I think I will get major withdrawal symptoms.
My consultant is really nice...she was really friendly and non judgemental putting me at ease. I was shocked at how much I weigh I didn't realise I had gained that much.. I am now over 19 stone which is so embarrassing ...however I feel that I have taken the first step to addressing this by 'owning up in front of the consultant.
I think I am going to use the diary as a way to keep a record that I can look back on but also to get some of the frustrations and achievements out there...and hopefully help other people by sharing my experience.
Much love x
I am actually looking forward to starting ...I think this weekend I am going to indulge myself a little bit but not too much. I think my main challenge will be not to drink diet coke ...I am completely addicted to the stuff! I think I will get major withdrawal symptoms.
My consultant is really nice...she was really friendly and non judgemental putting me at ease. I was shocked at how much I weigh I didn't realise I had gained that much.. I am now over 19 stone which is so embarrassing ...however I feel that I have taken the first step to addressing this by 'owning up in front of the consultant.
I think I am going to use the diary as a way to keep a record that I can look back on but also to get some of the frustrations and achievements out there...and hopefully help other people by sharing my experience.
Much love x