Just been reading through all these posts and some are so touching with things that have happened. Well done to all that are doing something
I have only recently started realising where things went wrong for me.
I used to do Majourettes, Dance clubs and Rythmic Gymnastics (RG) when I was younger, RG was my love, I was bloody good too, I was so flexible and able to do it all, One of the girls made it to the championships and I was better than her before I left, I remembered recently sitting in the changing rooms on the floor with my knees up against my chest and my arms wrapped round them, I even remember wearing this gorgeous yellow leotard, The trainer was talking to my parents when they came to pick me up and the trainer turned to me and said 'look at those rolls, you need to watch your weight if you want to carry on' this was probably around 8-9 yrs old, I then remembered my mum packing my lunch boxes with salads and saying I needed to diet, I could never understand it.
Then the 'goonies' film came out and one of the cast was nicknamed 'Chunk', my brother used to then call me chunk, then fatty, and then numerous other fat related names and I always used to shout ' Im not fat'.
During senior school, I would come home and eat 6 sandwich bars (like penguins) and then have more after dinner, but I noticed at this point that I always weighed 1 stone heavier than my age, so at 12 I was 13st etc by the time I left school I was 16 stone.
From 16-20 I didnt care I was bigger, I would try and diet but if I failed I wouldnt mind and was so confident with me as a person.
At 18 I got with a guy who I shall name Mr Evil

I was a doormat throughout the relationship, let him treat me like cr*p and I didnt really realise till towards the end when we went for a meal after being together 4 years (anniversary meal) and he said ' I need to talk to you' 'when we got together, you said you would lose weight, and you havent' then kindly told me how I repulsed him and so on.... about 6 months after we split.... On my choice of course
By this point I was 24stone!!! and 22yrs oldI then spent 1 year starving then bingeing sometimes going without food for days and managed to drop to around 17 stone, but over the last few years I have crepped back up to 20st 10lbs (currently in the 18's)
I am also with a fab guy (6yrs) and very happy with him and he loves me regardless of my size
Sorry for the long ramble but not ever put this much info out there, Im not really sure if there is any meanings behind it or not!
But soooo happy Im doing something, even if my diets are odd!! ha ha
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keep going everyone
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