I’m back again for the third time

[charlotte_k]

I lost 7lb this week! I’m so happy! I need to lock this feeling up to remind me how it feels if I’m struggling.

The hunger slowly went away last night but crisps did pop in my head as I was going to bed but I batted it away and went to bed empty handed.

Hope we all have a good day x

 

[littlemissnaughty]

I lost 7lb this week! I’m so happy! I need to lock this feeling up to remind me how it feels if I’m struggling.

The hunger slowly went away last night but crisps did pop in my head as I was going to bed but I batted it away and went to bed empty handed.

Hope we all have a good day x

Wow 7lb is amazing. Yes lock the feeling in the vault and remember it when you're having a bad day. Well done hun.

 

[ladyfelsham]

- cheerleader time, let's hear for Charlotte woohoooooooo!

Fabulous loss, hun, well done! xxx

 

[Mini]

Great result Charlotte

Well done

 

[charlotte_k]

23 and a half hour fast. New fast started at 7.30pm. I had chicken, mash, broccoli, cauliflower, peas and gravy. I ate too much today, I was full about half way done but I kept eating and left about a quarter. It really was a massive portion, half the plate was overflowing with veg and just too much of everything. Since then I’ve had a tummy ache and I’ve had a killer headache all day, so on top of my normal symptoms I’m feeling pretty awful tonight. It’s just come to me why I had such a big portion- because I had a bad headache and was feeling sorry for myself, like it’s a reward for putting up with it all day. I need to work on that kind of unconscious action to make it conscious. I’ve done that a lot in my life, start eating and not really know what I’m doing at the time or how much I’m actually eating. Lots of things to work on but at least I feel like I’m learning a bit x

 

[charlotte_k]

Thank you guys! X

 

[charlotte_k]

I wasn't OMAD yesterday but I was today(so far). Fasted for about 16 hours. I had omelette and a big salad for dinner tonight x

 

[tipperary]

Well done on the loss Charlotte, you are doing great.

 

[charlotte_k]

Hi guys

I’ve been struggling a lot lately. I’m trying to get my head around this addiction and not do what I normally do, binge and starve, binge and starve. Firstly I’m learning to try and stop black and white thinking, allowed and can’t have, good and bad foods. Also cutting down my portion sizes. I know this isn’t going to be a quick process and it’s not about losing weight, that might happen anyway but that’s not the goal for now. I’ve got 30 years of this to try and untangle and having a healthy relationship with food is something I can’t ever remember having.

I’ll still be about and I’ll keep track of my weight but I’ll have to see if being on here is helping or not in relation to my compulsions and amount that I think about food. It’s all new and weird and hard.

Hope you’re all ok x

 

[tipperary]

You are doing well Charlotte, you have identified the issue and are tackling it well

 

[ladyfelsham]

Yep ditto to what Tipp said, Charlotte - i somethings think that while it's so brill to share our food dramas here, it does focus the mind back on food.

Re unravelling years of bad eating behaviours, I'm finding the slimpod podcasts really interesting - and you get 10 days free. Might be worth a listen?

 

[charlotte_k]

Thank you ladies

That podcast sounds good, I’ll give it a go. I’ve been watching videos on YouTube about food addiction, binge eating disorder, emotional eating etc. If my health was better then I could get professional help but I’m still house bound and emotional stress is very draining so for now thats the route I’m taking as well as medication for depression and OCD. I’m not calorie counting and I’m adding foods that I wouldn’t normally eat in front of the other half.

It’s a very strange feeling eating more in front of someone as I always ate as a dieter when around people and I’ve had issues with people watching or seeing me eat, if they see me eat bad food then they can see a fat pig stuffing her face. I get that from my mum, she has battled anorexia for as far back as I can remember. When she got married her dress was a size 6 and it had to be taken in. I’m sure that is a factor to my problems and my eating issues started at around 5 years old so I’m sure that’s around where it started.

I’m feeling more positive in a different kind of way to before x

 

[ladyfelsham]

I love that you're feeling much more positive, Charlotte, our state of mind is key in all this - it's just getting therev that can be a pain, but you're on it! x

 

[charlotte_k]

My god, this is hard x

 

[ladyfelsham]

Ypu can do it hun! xxx

 

[charlotte_k]

Thanks hun

I’m going to keep updating my figures and doing the challenges but I’m finding reading people’s posts with food in them triggering at the moment. It’s the same with the tv, seeing food makes it so much harder.

Take care x

 

[tipperary]

Thats completly understandable Charlotte

 

[charlotte_k]

Hope everyone is ok in these unbelievable times x

 

[tipperary]

Hi Charlotte, i was wondering how you are keeping. Glad to see you back

 

[ladyfelsham]

Hi Charlotte - all good here - well, the usual ups and downs, including being made redundant - but bouncing back .

Hope you're well love and getting on ok xx