If at first you don't succeed try, try, try and try again....

LOVE the hair colour El, I bet it looks amazing and really beautiful!

Also love the sound of your waffles - how do you make them?

And will join you on the no wine for a bit - got a dry house at the moment and it's going to stay that way for as long as I can! :)
 
Thanks Susie! I'm loving my hair :)

For the waffles, I cheated. Sainsbury are currently going through a gimmicky veg phase, and they have butternut squash shaped a bit like potato waffles. They also have cauli rice, as well as beetroot and broccoli versions, courgetti and butternut squash lasagne sheets.

I have fallen off the no wine wagon! My excuses this week involve TotM. I think food wise, I have had one good day this week!! I'm still expanding the waistline, instead of decreasing! I think it may be time to go see the doctor, or someone, as it is my head that is sabotaging me. I know I can do it, but for some reason getting control of myself feels impossible.
 
Oooh wish we could get made up cauli rice etc here - broccoli rice sounds fab!

Hun I wish I had some words of wisdom to help you get back in focus - but from my own experience, it has to be when you're ready - so maybe just have good days when you can and don't fret about the not so OW (on wagon) days? xxx
 
In an ideal world, I would have a lovely farm shop nearby, that just sold fruit, veg and meat! With a small selection of bread and cheese. I think I should try and find one. Eat healthy, while supporting local business. There is a lovely one near my Gran, but unfortunately I can't justify the 2 hour round trip :D

You're so right Susie. This isn't going to happen until my brain falls in line. It will, happen, as usual I need to stop putting so much pressure on myself.
 
Just weighed myself. It was worse than I thought it would be!! Up to 18st 6lbs! Right, today needs to be the day I get my lazy backside into gear. Off to the shops in a bit. Need bigger trousers for work, and also going to buy a lot of veg!
 
Soups is a good plan! I'm thinking, maybe I can leave veg and stock in the slow cooker all day, so that it's ready when I get home. But it would be a good 12 hours in the SC. Then again, it only takes 20 - 30 mins to cook, so either way it works :)

For lunch I am having a quiche, all 892 cals of it! Then, that's the only temptation in the house gone. For some reason I can never just eat quarter or half a quiche. Then dinner is salmon with Mediterranean veg. It's 132 cals for the whole pack of veg (there's olive oil in there too), not sure on the salmon, but I'll work it out later.

It's all good! This time I am going to get somewhere!
 
You can put soup in with the meat and vege in the slow cooker which works well!
 
Oooh yes the turkey chilli I made the other night in the slow cooker had loads of 'juice' left - so I drank that as soup. Lush!
 
Hi hun,

I know what you mean about farm shops. There is a lovely one near me, but then I need to go to the supermarket for all the other household stuff.

I have no idea why but I am always inspired to eat more healthily when I shop in Waitrose. I went today, and for some reason the fruit and veg just looks so much more appealing - totally psychological!!
 
So, the broken record is back!! I haven't felt like posting for the last couple of weeks as I haven't had anything positive to say. But here goes....My eating is still out of control. I have been having the occasional healthy dinner, but not often enough. Plus, my wine consumption is far too high! I really need to cut down, before I end up relying on it.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I seem to be maintaining around 18st 5lbs to 18st 7lbs, but I really don't want to hit 19st!! The weather is really hot at the moment, and I am definitely feeling it.

I am considering going back to a SW group, more for the support than anything. At the moment I am feeling quite alone, and like I don't have anyone around me that understands and will encourage me. My social anxiety will go into overdrive if I do go back, but in the long run it could do me the world of good. It's just walking through the door again.

Sorry to sound like a whinge bag. It always seems to be the same old story with me.
 
Sweetie you are so not whingeing! It's great to be able to hear how you're doing and see if we can help - this losing weight thing is not easy, we all know that! And in any case this is your diary and you can say whatever you like on it!

I think going back to SW class is a fab idea - everyone is in the same boat and having the same struggles, and is there to support each other - so do it, find a class now, contact the consultant and you will feel much happier. If the consultant is a good one they will help you get through the door. If not, find one who will.

I'm guessing there are other things going on that are making you feel so anxious and turning to food/wine for comfort? God knows, I have been there many times - but it did help me to try and break the problems down and see what I could do about sorting out each thing. Sometimes it's not possible to do that, I know, but dealing with them as separate issues was much more doable than seeing them as one big problem that can quite frankly be terrifying and overwhelming.

Big big hugs, El, we're all here for you, love xxxx
 
Wise words
 
Thank you Susie. I was going to reply last night, but reading your lovely words got me a bit emotional.

I need to wait for pay day, but I am going to find a SW group to join. I was considering the one I used to go to, but I'm thinking a proper fresh start might be in order. Plus, it starts at 5:30, and if I am on the rota to finish work at 5pm, I am definitely not going to get there on time.

I have a few things going on at the moment, and I am getting more and more aware that the first anniversary of my Dad passing away is approaching faster than I would like. It's not until August, but it keeps creeping into my mind.

I'll get there. I always do. The difference this time is that I know I can do it, and the only person holding me back is myself.

Today has be horribly hot! Only benefit is that I haven't felt like eating, I've had lots to drink though. Food hasn't necessarily been the best choices, but there has been less than usual. I did enjoy my cornish pasty though!

Thank you Susie xxxx
 
Yes it is hot, cutting down does help. You dont have to completely stop eating certain foods even if its chocolate or something. You could cut down and see what happens. Yeah I know what you mean about feeling alone, no one really understands. I feel alone in some aspects not weight related. If you think a group would help then that would be good for you. Just don't give up and you will see results.
 
I know what you mean about the heat, for the first time in about 3 years I has a sparkly sugary drink....and didn't even like it. Fingers crossed that you have a good week.
 
Happy to help - although I didn't mean to make you cry! :).

Re your dad's anniversary, the first one is always the hardest, so why not plan for it. You could tell people you're going to stay at home and keep to yourself; but maybe try and use the day to celebrate his life by doing something lovely? A picnic somewhere beautiful; or doing something challenging, like water skiing, or a hill walk. That way, each year you can plan to do something a bit zany and get some great memories from it, rather than being held captive by the grieving? I really wish I'd done that every year after my mum died.

Great news about SW. I used to go to a 7.30pm class - mind you I was ravenous by the time I got out! :D. But it was great fun and I'm still in touch with a couple of other 'classmates'.

Later - tell you what El, when you join SW I'll do it with you - and you can help me keep on the straight and narrow! Also have a read of Vintage Girl's diary, she has done incredibly, amazingly well on SW - and we can too!
 
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They were good tears :)

Lovely ideas Susie. Doing something fun and positive can only make the sadness easier to deal with.

I tried a 7:30 SW group once. I just couldn't wait that long to eat! I'm going to see if there is a convenient group close to work, as that would save me having to travel too far. I will let you know once I am all joined up :)

I've been doing ok the last few days. Eating still isn't perfect, but wine consumption has decreased, and there have been some good choices. Still a lot of bad ones though. So plodding on as always :)
 
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