Hey everyone thanks for lovely comments thanks for sharing your story it's good to know we're on a similiar plain welshtigger!
Well we were until my little hiccup last week... I'm here now to get back on track it's been a very bad week tbh! Had a week holiday from work so thought i'd take 3 days off diet 7 days later i'm still off diet... had takeaway 5 days out of 7 and went out and drank 3 nights (two of which I got very drunk and can't remember how I got home... I so need to just give up drink once and for all I think... that i can go two months without drinking and then second day i drink i get drunk is so infuriating...?!) I mean this is a different subject really apart from my diet, but FOR SURE it's something I need to sort just as urgently as my diet. I need to stop drinking once and for all i've proved to myself time and time again I can not drink moderately. Drinking has caused me so much pain in my life, yet I let the habbit of getting completely aniliated about 6/10 times I drink perpetuate............... anyway flag to self sort this out - probabally best to go t-total.... if you can convince yourself of the reality of the fact that drinking does you no good despite how you feel for the short time you do drink before the consequences of excess drinking kick in (both in terms of health... mental well being.. and social consequences) - ahem! Thanks for putting up with that personal rant, readers...
Yesterday I made a goal formyself just stick to 100% plan for 3 months and then weigh myself... today I have 1 shake in morning then buy chips on way home.. wtf?!!!!!!! then i've had chips so might as well enjoy a chinese for a late main meal... at least i resisted urge to drink today too - It's all very interlinked, you feel that you're not on diet so can drink if you want, drinking makes you feel low the next day when you're sober, feel hung over, feel the natural depressed mood following sobriety from alcohol.. and also in my case feel the odd bruise you have somehow contracted from the night before.... and that makes you want to comfort eat. Such a bad cycle.
I mean don't get me wrong luckily i'm not feeling depressed or anything, just completely cheesed off and want to feel better and in the short term eating food i like and drinking alcohol does that for me even if it doesnt in long term...... anyway enough recapping sure you get the idea of how the past week has gone!
Just weighed myself and I've put on 6ibs... I'm not surprised tbh, i've weighed myself after my chinese meal and also been drinking full fat fizzy drink.
No more stupid goals of 3 months without weighing. I'm simply going to restart now (which eerily will mean I'm starting on a Tuesday again, my original WI day) - and go for another 2+ months solid on the plan and see how we go from there.
For now, it's one day at a time. Toughest part is going to be getting through tomorrow I think (as i've tried twice in last week to get back on it and not managed a day!). I will be back tomorrow night to update on having completed the first full day back on plan. This will push me to make sure I manage it when I feel tempted to eat junk tomorrow.
Luckily I've still lost 40ibs on exante in last 2 months and 1 week. I'm not prepared to let any more of that fall by the wayside. This is a disciplined regime here, and I'm getting back in marching formation.
Wasn't very enjoyable writing this entry but it had to be said. For 3 very good reasons. One to make me accountable because I know I need to get thigns back on track now having written it out it seems more real how veery (i think I just invented a word.. you know like veering...) this diet was getting. Two for a personal record for myself so I can remember what may happen next time I decide to take a 'couple' of days off plan, and - very importantly. Three so that in the future when I reach my ideal weight if anyone is reading my journey they can see it wasn't all plain sailing, and if I can do it, so can they!
On the plus side I've done well to get a grip and get back on track now. Maybe subconsciously my mind waited until I had a substantial loss before entertaining idea of this happening. I mean, if I had been on diet 2 weeks and this had happened, I think it would have been my ruin as far as exante's concerned but at least this way I've still got too much progress riding on not getting back on track.
GL all, will let you know how my first WI back on goes NEXT tuesday. Off to update my stats with my +6 pounds now!