Soo glad you're feeling better and you sound much more positive today, that's great!
It was lovely having some food, i had chicken and courgettes, i did add a little curry paste (weeny bit, less than a half a tsp) and some water and cooked altogether with the courgettes. weighed it out and hubby ate the rest, it felt really indulgent and afterwards i felt full up but not at all bloated. i still then had to have another shake before bed which was a struggle as i was full but fitted it in and this morning i feel fine and dandy, i've have a porridge so far and loads of water, going to have another SS+ meal this evening too, fancy some tuna or salmon...oops just checked the book no salmon on the list so Tuna it is!
Don't feel too bad about going behind your CDC's back (sorry to hear about her baby too!) maybe she's not quite focused at the moment and you know that you can trust the CDC's that come on here they seem so much more well-informed.
Take care and have a great day!
xx