egbert said:Well - today I have just taken a bite of my sons crumpet, dripping with blueberry conserve - but after getting the taste in my mouth I did then have a serious mental debate with myself about whether to spit it out
But - yesterday I was 100% good and so far today I have been good again. And I am feeling in the right frame of mind now - because my scales are playing up and adding 5 pounds on randomly - I think because I was weighing some goods for posting and confused them (electronic scales) but when I stood on them and saw 11.4 - I almost cried.
Luckily I reset them and was back at 10.13 but I do not want to see an 11 again. So - I am on it, I am in the mood, I am going to be 10 stone!
Off to get me some water!
egbert said:I know what you mean. I am determined today too - 10.12 this morning and I intend to be 10.11 tomorrow. Mr Tesco just delivered all the chocolates and biscuits for the kids lunch boxes and I have had to put them away fast!
When I started this diet my SIL was a bit unbothered, said she had tried it etc. Then after 2 stone and with everyone commenting on how I had done, she started to do Slimmin world - now I am not saying it as because of me, but she is the most competitive person I know.
Now she is almost at 3 stone down and looks great I am really proud of her. But she is starting to get all competitive with me, saying things like she has almost beaten my loss and then maybe Ill be spurred on to get back on with this properly. I know she cant help being competitive but it is really starting to p me off - I usually ignore her or have to point out that she is bound to lose more than me - she had more to start with. She is 3 stone down and now the same size as i was when I started. Bu I am trying not to say anything, I want her to keep going, she is doing so well. But arghhhh - shut up!
Anyway, refusing to be competitive!
Other than that - things are going well I guess. Work is coming in, I am enjoying working for myself - and should point out that it is all down to the same SIL who has trained me in her job, got me work and is mentoring me. I am feeling good back on the diet. I realised after so much that was said before our wedding, that my in-laws will always be obnoxious and I find many of their views repellant, I hate the way they put down their own kids, the things they say behind their backs, and about SILs partner. So - I no longer care about what they say.Best to ignore them.
Hmm - this diary update has turned into a bit of a rant - but never mind.
egbert said:Well it has all gone horribly wrong again. I went to meet a friend for lunch on saturday - its the first child free, girly time I have had in ages and to be honest it did me the power of good, today for the first time in weeks I don't fee stressed, fed up, grumpy with OH and the kids. . . BUT we did end up having lunch, 3 bottles of wine between us, then back to mine for another 2 or so. Which of course means today I have had major munchies although I think I have kept it to a minimum. Dreading getting on the scales though- its not going to be pretty and of course Ill just be right back at the beginning yet again. My restart is on boomerang.
However, I think my sanity and my relationship needed the break more, so not kicking myself too hard. No more though, its on wards and downwards from here on!
OMG -- I thought I was the only one who could kill a half of dozen bottles of wine with a friend!!!
WATER, WATER, WATER, WATER, WATER...
egbert said:
I do a dog walk 5 days a week - 2 miles - which is a start I guess. More than I used to, being a desk jobber.
The sun has gone in now, rain is pouring down, I am definitely a fair weather exerciser.