I couldve wrote that myself, totally get it. I hope we think like that at the end too. This is only part 1, lasts a few months. Then part 2.. lasts the rest of ur life. The mind has to catch up or ur back to square 1. When I think about it, am I actually crying about food? No one died. My child is healthy. My partner loves me. I have a home albeit rented. I'm crying about food? Really? Its not right. Listen, thanks so much for even taking the time to really read and paste that for me. Ur so obviously a nurturing person. Ur a gem altogether. Ur family and friends are lucky. U look after yourself. Get to the end of this. We need more like u around. X x thanks again