Jayne's Lipotrim Diary - New Beginnings!

[Jayne33]

Ooo, just spotted this section, after posting in the other bit of the Lipotrim Forum, and thought I'd start up a little diary to keep track of my journey

Well, first (strawberry) shake down, and it was fine In fact it was a HUGE relief this morning to wake up and not have to worry about what to eat, and for the whole overeating, guilt cycle to start all over again for yet another day

I work part time, so hopefully the distraction of that will carry me through the difficult days and into ketosis for the weekend. Just plan on taking it easy really for a couple of weeks until my body gets used to things, and then will get back to my usual gym routine (about 3 sessions a week of weights classes and incline walking on treadmill).

xx

 

[Jayne33]

Quite enjoyed the soup for lunch, and I have one pack left to have, but I am really hungry. Am keeping the water going in and have just had a black coffee, which has helped a bit. Will save the last pack until about 8ish this evening, and have it with some of that fibre stuff in it, which may help fill me up a bit before bed.


xx

 

[Jayne33]

I'm only day one, so feel like a right wimp at the moment, but I just had a bit of a row with hubby and so the emotional need to eat has kicked in, and that along with the fact that I'm soooo hungry (not to mention due on in the next couple of days!) has just made me :cry: slam doors and have a full on childish tantrum

Now I'm just feeling really overwhelmed as to how the heck I'm going to not eat until Christmas time at the very earliest. Ideally I need to stay on the plan for longer as I have 7-8 stone to lose!

I guess one day at a time is the key
xx

 

[missy3]

Hi Jayne! don't panic, things will get easier, i know it doesn't help right now, but it really does. Im going to be on this to Christmas time too and it does seem daunting, but try not to look at it in that way, just take the diet day by day and week by week and before you know it Christmas will be here and so will the slimmer you! Once you reach day 3/4 ketosis will help you not to feel hungry, and you'll find that you could almost feel as though you could do without having all your packs (but make sure you have them anyway) Of course your gonna have tough days but once you weigh and see how much weight you've lost it will really spur you on to the following week. It may be advisable to take your measurements too.. cause its such a great incentive when you see the inches going too. Make sure you stick to the diet 100% cos if you cheat, your only cheating yourself and its a slippery slope (trust me, this is not my first attempt at this). They say it takes 26 days to break any habit.. so just work up to that and it should become second nature. Imagine yourself at Christmas time, and if your having hard days, go online and pick out nice outfits in a small size and imagine yourself in them. A few months is nothing really compared to a lifetime of feeling bad about ourselves.

Sorry for moaning on there! but i know how good this diet is!

 

[Jayne33]

Thanks for those kind words Missy. They've helped a lot this evening. You're right, the time will pass quickly enough and in comparison to the rest of my life, it is a short period of time. One day at a time, and roll on ketosis!

Great idea about the measurements. Had forgotten about doing that. Will take some in the morning

Am off to bed now (feeling very hungry indeed), and it's been an up and down first day (I remember having a much easier first day on LL 5 years ago!), but I've been 100% and I've made the first step to a slimmer, healthier me. That feels good

xx

 

[Jayne33]

So, day 2!

Had several dreams last night where I ate, and woke up in a panic. Knew they would happen, but didn't expect them so soon!

Very hungry again this morning, but no more so than yesterday really. Have had one shake and going to have a coffee in a bit. Am getting the water down, but not finding it particularly easy. I'm not a big drinker at the best of times! I also think I have a bladder the size of an egg cup as even small amounts of sipped water seem to go right through me once I pass half a glass full. I'm like this even when not on Lipotrim. I was also up and down during the night about 3 times (usually once is my norm) which drove me crazy!

Hopefully the sleep I did get, was good sleep though as my body wasn't having to deal with and digest the rubbish it normally gets put into it before I go to bed

I hope ketosis hits tomorrow!

xx

 

[Jayne33]

Warning - I'm going to mention food below (cravings, not actual eaten food )


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Really craving salty, spicy, snack type foods today, and also Smash mashed potatoe, which is odd as I've not eaten that for years! Can almost taste them in my mouth. It's odd!

 

[Jayne33]

Day 3

I've made it into ketosis! arty0011: Woohoo

Not feeling to well at the moment as have had an ear and throat infection for a few days, but emotionally today I feel very calm I guess that could've been helped not only the arrival of ketosis, but also TOTM!

Feel quite hungry still today, but the edge is gone from it. Hopefully as ketosis gets more established over the coming days it will go away completely.

I'm so pleased with myself for getting just this far. I've tried VLC diets a few times on and off over the years since 2005's success, but never lasted long. I always thought it would be a one time thing for me and I'd never manage it again, but I feel very positive at the moment that I will do it this time, and this time I will do it properly, I will do it 100%, and I will make sure I never have to do it again, because quite frankly it's flipping awful! (not as awful as being as heavy as I am though!)

xx

 

[missy3]

Glad things are going better for you, you seem really positive which is great keep at it xx

 

[SandraB]

Day 3

I've made it into ketosis! arty0011: Woohoo

Not feeling to well at the moment as have had an ear and throat infection for a few days, but emotionally today I feel very calm I guess that could've been helped not only the arrival of ketosis, but also TOTM!


Feel quite hungry still today, but the edge is gone from it. Hopefully as ketosis gets more established over the coming days it will go away completely.

I'm so pleased with myself for getting just this far. I've tried VLC diets a few times on and off over the years since 2005's success, but never lasted long. I always thought it would be a one time thing for me and I'd never manage it again, but I feel very positive at the moment that I will do it this time, and this time I will do it properly, I will do it 100%, and I will make sure I never have to do it again, because quite frankly it's flipping awful! (not as awful as being as heavy as I am though!)

xx

Nothing can be anywhere near as bad as the self-hatred of being overweight.....

 

[Jayne33]

I think you're right Sandra

Well, it's been an up and down day, but mostly up Was fine until I had a big wobble a few hours ago, where I felt SO hungry I wanted to chew my arm off, and started doubting myself and my ability to do this, and even if I wanted to really All the self pity started, in terms of what a state I've got myself into that I now have to eat no food for months on end to get some sort of health back, and poor me, I'm so deprived now I can't eat, blah, blah, blah. Sorted myself out now though and put it all back into perspective - well for a few more hours anyhow lol. I think it's just going to be one big ole roller coaster, and I'm only just leaving the start line. God help me! lol. I hope I'm okay at the end!

xx

 

[SandraB]

When we start out on this I think we totally underestimate the psychological effects that this diet has as well as the obviously physical ones......I think that anyone who can do this and stick to it has an enormous amount of inner strength and deserves to succeed.

I've always thought of myself as a very strong person and, indeed lots of things have happened to me over the years that have tested it, but this diet? Whew!!! It's a bugger.....

 

[Jayne33]

So true Sandra. I am very positive and determined about doing this diet, but I'm most certainly not finding it easy. Am hoping to go camping next weekend (weather permitting) and am already a bit sad that I won't be able to enjoy meals with the family, breakfast outside the tent, etc. I know I can enjoy other things and put a positive spin on it all, because it will all be worth it, but even so :sigh:

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Day 4

Hunger pangs are coming and going, but I feel so empty and miss food LOADS. I don't want to break the diet (and I won't), but I'm just really cross with myself that I've let myself get into such a state that I have to do this type of diet in the first place I'm only going to do this until Christmas though. Even though I know I will have several more stones of weight to lose. I will look and feel heaps better than I do right now. I've spent to many Christmas' on a diet of some sort or the other, (one of those on Lighter Life) and was thoroughly miserable, and still am not thin! lol. I swore years ago that I'd not spend another Christmas on a flipping diet! So, going to re-feed mid Dec and then either re-start Lipotrim in Jan or start Weight Watchers or something. Will decide nearer the time.

xx

 

[scarlettcloud]

Have enjoyed reading your diary so far Jayne
Keep up the good work you are doing GREAT!! xx

 

[SandraB]

Hi Scarlettcloud, I've just read it too......god men can be basta8ds can't they?


I wish you all the very best of luck babes and I'm sure you'll succeed because you haven't been overweight for your entire life, just struggling with it, like a lot of us, and also trying to cope with the sh8t that life throws at us....

Be strong, in the not too distant future you are going to look and feel totally brilliant and there will be some totally gorgeous man out there who won't be able to resist you! They're not all the same, whatever anyone tells you.....my OH has stuck around for nearly 20 years through thick and thin, so to speak, despite him being absolutely fabulous and never having put on a pound in all that time...god I hate him for that!

 

[scarlettcloud]

Thanks Sandra B xx

 

[SandraB]

My pleasure, believe me I've been there and come through it, plus I'm old enough to be your mum so feel 'qualified' to give you advice!

Chin(s) up sweetheart, you will be thin and happy again soon xxxxx

 

[Jayne33]

Sandra, my hubby's the same. He's had a BMI of 22 since I met him 19 years ago! I've fluctuated anywhere between 12 stone and 19st 13 (never quite gone into the 20 stone). Mostly though I've been around the 17 stone mark. Both my boys are very average weights for their heights also. It's just me!

Megan - I'm not sure what you've gone through, as not had chance to do much reading today, but it's not sounding good I will catch up with your posts elsewhere in a bit x


Just wanted to post some thoughts that have popped into my head throughout the day ......

It has felt really good not feeling guilty about what I have or haven't eaten.

It has felt really good not to be bloated and uncomfortable.

It has felt really good to have stable energy, as opposed to sugar highs and lows.

I have had hunger on and off throughout today, but it's been very bearable and short lived

A couple of hours ago, my 250ml of chicken soup made me feel FULL. What's that all about? lol Not complaining though. I felt very satisfied at the end and almost couldn't finish!

I have so much extra time on my hands now I don't have to worry about buying food and eating it! lol

I miss food, but I don't want to be reaquanted with it for a good while to come.

I can't understand how some people doing the diet adore being around food and cooking. That to me is just pure torture! I can't even look at it or allow myself to think about it. If a thought of a food item comes into my head, I immediately have to dismiss it and not think about the taste, smell, or anything. I do wish I could be that way though as I think it would make things a lot easier when going places where food is unavoidable.

That spider that just crawled accross the floor scared the c**p out of me!

Still 100%. Day 5 tomorrow

xx

 

[scarlettcloud]

Megan - I'm not sure what you've gone through, as not had chance to do much reading today, but it's not sounding good I will catch up with your posts elsewhere in a bit x


Just wanted to post some thoughts that have popped into my head throughout the day ......

It has felt really good not feeling guilty about what I have or haven't eaten.

It has felt really good not to be bloated and uncomfortable.

It has felt really good to have stable energy, as opposed to sugar highs and lows.

I have had hunger on and off throughout today, but it's been very bearable and short lived

A couple of hours ago, my 250ml of chicken soup made me feel FULL. What's that all about? lol Not complaining though. I felt very satisfied at the end and almost couldn't finish!

I have so much extra time on my hands now I don't have to worry about buying food and eating it! lol

I miss food, but I don't want to be reaquanted with it for a good while to come.

I can't understand how some people doing the diet adore being around food and cooking. That to me is just pure torture! I can't even look at it or allow myself to think about it. If a thought of a food item comes into my head, I immediately have to dismiss it and not think about the taste, smell, or anything. I do wish I could be that way though as I think it would make things a lot easier when going places where food is unavoidable.

That spider that just crawled accross the floor scared the c**p out of me!

Still 100%. Day 5 tomorrow

xx

Hi Jayne
I have started a proper diary in the weight loss diarys section. its all in there

I agree with everything you are saying. it does feel good to not feel guilty about having eaten badly. it does feel good to not feel bloated. i feel thinner already and i can notice in the mirror that my stomach has gone down
my jeans feel looser!!

Whilst this diet is hard work i believe it will be worth the effort for us

 

[Jayne33]

Day 5

Been a really good and easy day in terms of not eating. Hunger has been minimal and I've felt good.

However! Hubby has just come home from work and it's Sat evening and Sat evening usually means (as if I need an excuse) eat anything and everything you like! He's brought home some yummy stuff for him and the kids. No idea what it is, because I've not gone downstairs to look, but I can smell something. He's also said out loud some food words (healthy food and not so healthy) to the kids, and it's setting off my cravings and upset at not being able to go down and join in I'm not going to mention the types of food as don't want to set off anyone else's cravings who may read this diary. Having a really snappy and irritable moment, and thought I'd best type it in here as opposed to take it out on the family lol. Deep breaths!

xx