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We'll see. Then she said Eileen and friend Fodge were organising a night out in Swansea on November 29th and could I make it. NO! If you can all go out in Swansea, come and visit me and Hen you James Blunts! They are all dressing up as Where's Wally apparently, sounds very lame and they will probably go clubbing and all sorts of crap I don't like. When I finally have some spare cash (god, is it EVER gonna happen?? even if I get this law job there will be a gap in payments between m&s and first pay so that will suck again, then xmas.. arrrgh), I'm going to buy pretty clothes and go to some nice cocktail bars with Hen, then another time we're going to go to the alternative/metal pubs/clubs in Camden. 
I do feel quite positive about it. I'm clever and I'm going to work my little bum off because I really want it, can't do more than that bar killing the competition. If I don't get it and I worked my hardest, I clearly wasn't really suited to it. It's hard, cos we used to be very close and I think because I have no one else it's hard to cut loose.Squeazy hugs! I too get a bit pee'd off at "friends" - I have lived in London for 10 years and only one friend has come to visit me and the only other person in my ex and his wife. I always do the running up to the Midlands and then when I'm there I seem to have to go around theirs, stay all day, go to another, stay all night, go out for coffee, do lunch - They get pretty ar$ey if I tell them that I'm too tired; once I had "Why even bother coming up here if you are going to stay in?" - Well... Because I am also hear to see my family and I have a daughter who my Mom doesn't want to look after every night FFS! One friend!! So I know exactly how you feel!
As for the money situ, God, you have probably heard it so many times, but it will get better Jess, I pinky promise
Law job - My crystal ball is sending out good vibes
Must be a damn lazy midlanders thing! Can you get your crystal ball to send out some money too? Its rubbish that its all getting on top of you Jess but hopefully things will start to fall into place soon, you've not been in your new home and job that long yet. I've got a good feeling about that law job too. I'm sure you'll get it.
Anyway, sod your friends and their selfish ways - just think....a few more weeks and you'll be drinking cocktails in Glasgow with the minimates
Hey jess sorry to hear things are a bit rubbish lately
As kals says think positive thoughts cos negative ones will only bring negative stuff back at you!
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I do have good stuff to focus on. I'm lucky I really enjoy Adam's company and that he's a bit poofy and girly. He was really into the *****ing and gossiping. They just go on and on about how amazing their child is. One status - "is wondering if child going to have a nap today?" Really? No one else is! Shut up! Adam's workmates and friends are about a decade older than me but I have more in common with them. But most people that age have kids and I find it really hard to meet people my age that are like me, as I'm a bit old souled for my age, without the responsibility and a bit geeky and girly at the same time.
Thanks everyone, me and Hen had a good ***** about them last night and we're going to write a joint facebook message to all of them explaining how we feel etc. As my FB buddies will know, I wrote "I need better friends" and I think Sarah knew that was about her and she started a facebook chat asking me if I got her text message "no, but Adam did, it's been his number for a year now". She asked when she could see me instead
I'm just feeling pretty fed up really, I don't have any friends around here and I don't know how to make any that are my age-ish. I don't think I will be making friends through work any time soon. I'm sick of barely having enough money to get by on, I hate the stupid home counties and the expense. I'm so tired as my body just can't used to getting up before 6am. I'm working overtime today, on my day off 5-10pm, then have to be in work at 7am tomorrow, then going back in at 6pm-10pm again, then in for 7am the morning after that. This weekend I am going to eat pie, drink lots of alcohol and watch X-Factor. It's especially hard as I always thought "once I get a good job, get some money, settled down everything will be good" but it never seems to come, and there is no "once" anymore, this is actually my life now! If I don't get the law job (4 people, 2 places) I will cry!
Thanks
I have a good feeling about it!!!!xxx
Families, eh! I am lucky that there isn't too much distance between here and there, but I'm just having it whereever the nicest venue is, be it here, Worcs, Scotland, Ireland (though perhaps they don't do civil ceromonies there?), Devon.. whereever! I have a big idea of what I want and I'll go whereever I can get it
You do what you want missy, I listened a lot to others and really wish I hadnt but still had a great day..xxx
Yes! So looking forward to Glasgow. I'm hoping that I get the job and start at the beginning of November then get paid at the end of the month so I can treat myself to a nice outfit and a few wee cocktails! Well, even if I don't, I'll just do lots of overtime!
Woop Woop!!!! Bring on the cocktails..xx
It's not so much age really, as similar personalities I'm looking for. I had a great friend in college who was late 40s, but then there is a friend of a friend who is just slightly older than me but has a one year old.. sooo dull. There are people like Nikki, who happen to be a mum and then there are people who are just mums! Every single facebook status - no lie - every single one is about her daughter. She was at a BBQ with the sprog and ohh my goood, so dull. When Nikki talks about Ee it's funny and interesting.. most mums wouldn't admit they, for one second, thought they loved a cat more
Hehe, love Nikki's comments too....much better than the usual sh!te mothers post on FB!!..xxx
Anyway, the facebook snipe seemed to have got to them! I got a FB msg and a text from Eileen and Fodge trying to arrange a weekend to come down. They were very adamant they will make sure they can come down the second weekend of December.
Hope they do start to make the effort chick.....they need to realise what they'll be missing...you're a star Miss Jess..xx
And I still have little moments when I think "For eff sake Eesha, eff off, I'm giving the cat a tickle"
