Hiya sweetie, how you doing this morning? Are you feeling better after getting everything off your chest?
I think you have made a great choice to continue with SW and not go on to a VLCD or to change to WW. You know SW works and you are losing - albeit not at the rate you would like to see but you ARE still losing. It is mega frustrating when you "only" have say 1 or 2 lbs off a week (you should have heard me on Tuesday when I only got 2lbs....) BUT that is still a great loss, and as Emmey pointed out it is a sustainable way to lose weight. You could have chosen to go to WW, but tbh, what will that teach you that you dont already know? Portion control? You can do that, just ensure that your plate has 3rd superfree at minimum, maybe try serving food up on a smaller plate so you don't even think about the portion size - you are already controlling it without making it look like a tiny meal on a big plate.
The title of your diary says it all - you will not yo yo any more. So stick at it! I see people on here that lose the same amount of weight that I need to within a year and that makes me sulk sometimes but then again I think to myself, hang on! I am now 5.5 stone lighter, its taken me some time BUT have I still had a life and gone out drinking occasionally and had holidays where I have made the best conscious effort to eat on plan but not jeapordised having a good time? Hell yeah! This is meant to be a change for life and I believe it is.
Maybe give your C a call and have a chat with her about your concerns? Or there is a couple of people on here that lose below average every week and they still have the motivation to keep going so maybe grab them and ask them how they keep at it? You do sound like you are ready for action and back on the motivated wagon but you need to keep that with you all the time. Just think how great it feels to see a loss, that should be what keeps you going.
As for the pictures, pfft, give it a couple of months and you will be saying who is that girl? Its the things like that, that should spur you on even more if you don't like what you see! I found some pics at my mums at the weekend and I felt repulsed by them to the point where I was like " I AM NEVER GOING BACK TO THAT!!! " I will be putting them up on my diary soon so you can SEE for yourself (I trust you guys not to laugh or mock or feel as disgusted as I did
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Just remember, it is only you that can do this, but WE can support you and help you along the way. If you need anything sweetness, just scream and we can be here to kick your ass or give you advise. You aren't alone in this so please don't ever feel like you are xxx