kingleds
Gold Member
See here's the big problem. I have NEVER, even as a kid, been slim. I always had puppy fat, and as a teenager I was abit overweight. The only time I was even remotely slim was when i was 16, after my dad died, and that was because I lived on a can of diet coke & an apple a day for 6 months. My mum took me to the docs when she saw me after those 6 months as she thought I was anorexic. I wasn't, i was still a size 14, and a 16 in most shops. I pretty much went from kids clothes to a size 16. By uni I was a size 18 & by the time I'd left I was a size 20, and I stayed that way all through my 20's until I gave up smoking, eventually ending up in a size 24.
So, I have never been thin as an adult. I have always been overweight, and so I cannot imagine myself that way.
But first, I need to get my head round how I look now!
I want to be healthy. I don't want to focus on how I look on the outside because frankly, that's the bit that scares the **** out of me. I hope I can adjust to looking okay at some point though.
So I would like to be 11st 7. That's a healthy BMI.
But mostly, at the moment I want to stop being a pathetic bird about the whole thing! There are seriously better things for me to be wasting my tears on!
So, I have never been thin as an adult. I have always been overweight, and so I cannot imagine myself that way.
But first, I need to get my head round how I look now!
I want to be healthy. I don't want to focus on how I look on the outside because frankly, that's the bit that scares the **** out of me. I hope I can adjust to looking okay at some point though.
So I would like to be 11st 7. That's a healthy BMI.
But mostly, at the moment I want to stop being a pathetic bird about the whole thing! There are seriously better things for me to be wasting my tears on!
