Kitty's journey to size 12

[kittykat77]

Hello

Here I go again.....

It seems like I'm always on a 'diet'. It's really starting to drive me mad. I'm really glad I've found somewhere where I can post how I feel about the whole weight loss roundabout I've been on for the last 20 years. I've probably done at least one diet a year since I was 14 years old. I always felt like the fat one, though I know now that I was actually thinner than I thought I was and on looking at photos from that time I think I actually looked too thin - I never thought I'd hear myself say that

I have decided that once and for all I am going to lose this excess weight (almost 5 stone) !!! I can't believe I have actually done this to myself. Every time I go on a diet a lose weight then put all the weight back on plus some

At the moment I am the heaviest I have ever been at 14 stone 11lbs. For my height of 5" 4in it is far too heavy and puts me firmly in the obese category. My weight is now affecting my health and I am suffering with my asthma more than usual. Walking upstairs can even leave me out of breath. I am only 34 and am determined to sort this out now, I dread to think how much I might weigh in 10 years if I don't. I don't want to end up with diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol. As a medical secretary I really should know better. Unfortunately, sitting at a desk all day I tend to snack on sweets and chocolate a lot, which obviously doesn't help me.

I realise that calorie counting alone won't help me shift the weight and inches and I need to get moving. I have a Wii and a few dance games, which I have got really bored of. A friend has lent me her copy of Wii Zumba and I tried it out last night, it seems like it could be more fun than just dance and I am going to give it a try.

My vital stats:

Weight: 209lbs
Height: 5' 4"
Waist: 42 inches
Hips: 48 inches
Bust: 46 inches
Arms: 14 inches
Thighs: 28 inches

I am posting these stats for my own record.

I am also going to do a food diary starting tomorrow.

I apologise for the total blah I have been spouting but it really does help to write everything down.

With the help of this site I really do hope I can conquer my food demons and start on my journey to be a size 12 again.

Kittykat77 xxx

 

[mcv]

Hi, of course you will conquer your food demons, and there are entry of friendly pole here to help.
We sound alike, I've always battled to be my goal weight but I think at times we can be abit delusional I remember several years ago being mortified that I was 10st 4 lb, god I do wish I were that now. When at my fittest and lightest I have been as an adult @ 9st 2lb I still felt as though I had a disgusting spare tyre, now I wish I only had the one lol.
The thing is a diet doesn't work, weather it's weight watchers, slimming world, calorie counting it has to be a life change and something that is sustainable.
Wii Zumba sounds good, went to my first zumba class last night and realised I have very little rhythm or co ordination lol.
Hope you have great success with your life change
Claire x

 

[Legomom]

Hi kitty welcome aboard and good luck!

Wii zumba is a fab way to burn cals at home. I use it a lot I'm utterly RUBBISH but as I'm at home I dont really care.

 

[kittykat77]

Well today has gone better than I thought it would. So far so good

Claire - You're totally right. I am done with being delusional about my goal weight and I know that I'll never be the 8½ stone 18 year old I was when met my husband 16 years ago. My goal weight at the moment is 10 stone as I know I am happy at that weight and I feel a lot fitter and healthier. The problem I have is no matter how much weight I lose I can still only see a 'fat' girl in the mirror. I haven't tried zumba classes - not yet but I might do if I enjoy the wii zumba.

Legomom - I dragged myself out of bed early this morning to do some wii zumba. I only managed to do 15 minutes before I felt like I was gonna collapse. It's really hard work and I am glad no-one was watching me as I am sure I looked a complete loony jumping around trying to copy the moves. Just Dance is a lot easier as is the Michael Jackson Experience for the wii.

I plan on doing the zumba or one of the other dance games each day for at least 15 minutes and try and build up to doing an hour every other day.

Food Diary:

Breakfast - Porridge & semi skimmed milk 330
lunch - Cheese sandwich and packet of snack a jacks 403
dinner - 2 sausage
mashed potato / swede & carrot
peas and sweetcorn
gravy 475

snack - orange 45

Total - 1252

Hopefully I can keep this up and stick to 1200-1300 calories per day.

Kitty xx

 

[mcv]

It just goes to show how our brain sees what it thinks it should be seeing not what's actually there!
I've read many weight loss stories where a person has dropped several dress sizes yet still pick up their original size and being surprised when it doesn't fit!
Have you measured yourself? Personally I think it's a great idea to do this not only to show yourself you have actually lost inches, but it's like a back up, because sometimes a good week calorie wise doesn't always reflect on the scales,
Well done on your successful day hope you enjoy many more x

 

[kittykat77]

Well another good day for me.

I have measured myself - I didn't like what the tape said, just like I don't like what the scales say, but I do know that if I keep up watching what I eat and trying to a do a little exercise every day the weight will start to come off. I have lost weight many times in the past (and gained it all back), but I have never had quite so much to lose as I have now. I hope to get to 10 stone by xmas this year, don't know how possible that it but I am going to give it my best shot.

Food diary:
Breakfast - fruit and fibre & semi skimmed milk
Lunch - Ham & mustard sandwich
Dinner - Mushrooms in garlic and herb light philadelphia on toast
Snack - McCoys cheese and onion crisps & 2 oranges

I've walked home from work today and have done 30 minutes combined on just dance & wii zumba. I feel very proud of myself having gone from no exercise, not even walking the 15 minutes home from town. I can be very lazy when I want to be and I totally understand how I have put on all the weight I have in such a short time. I used to go to Body Pump 3 times a week and do swimming and aquafit as well. I stopped when I had to have surgery and never got back into the swing of exercise.

I WILL get there and get to the weight and size I want to be, it might take a little longer than I would like but I can deal with that.

Kitty xx

 

[mcv]

Does anybody like the figures on the scales or tape?
I know I don't, I am the heaviest I have ever been and that Includes when I was 9 months pregnant
We have to focus on the positives and be very very proud of what we are doing, we are changing out lives around for the better in a way that we can keep it up even when we have reached our goal weight.
Keep up the good work !!!!

 

[kittykat77]

Well spent all day wanting a bar of chocolate I satisfied my craving by having a small teaspoon of nutella when I got home lol. Other than that I have had a good day food and exercise wise, despite being extremely stressed all day with my job. One of the consultants I work for is retiring and his patients are not happy about it at all. I have spent all day consoling them as they all love him so much, though some of them are nasty and abusive on the phone and I have had to refer them to the complaints department. He hasn't even left yet and the nightmare has started..........it's a long process to replace such an excellent consultant who is loved by everyone.

My food today has been good:-

B - Banana and a cereal bar
L - Ham and mustard sandwich, snack a jacks and an orange
D - Chicken and veg pie with potato/carrot and swede mash, sweetcorn and gravy
= 1141 calories

I do need to eat a little more, I have under eaten every day this week so far except monday and MFP tells me I have to make sure I eat all my calories even from exercise, which I have always been told before is a personal choice. If I feel a little more hungry than usual or am attending a party etc then I will use them, but otherwise I won't.

I have walked home from work again today which takes about 15-20 minutes and have done 45 minutes on a combination of wii zumba and just dance.

I'm going to go catch up on some programmes I have sky+ and just relax before bed ready for another long stressful day tomorrow, made even more stressful by the fact I know I am off next week for half term and I have to get as much done as possible before I come home.

Until tomorrow

Kitty xx

 

[kittykat77]

Not been well enough to post for a couple of days. Woke up on Friday feeling like c***. Hot then cold, shivery, snotty, generally flu-like. But not even that stops me eating lol. Just really pleased and surprised that I have lost 8lbs in my first week. I know a lot of that will be fluid as well, but I like to think that all the exercise and careful eating had something to do with my weight loss as well. I am aiming for 2lbs next week anything more than that will be a bonus. I got the week off work for half term with my son so food will be a challenge, he can eat absolutely anything he likes just like his dad

See you later with my food diary

Love Kitty xxx