merrrrr definitely not on my diet. STS for 3rd week in a row, which is sooooo much better than a gain but feeling very fat and lazy and sorry for myself.
It was getting silly. I wasnt having shakes but there wasnt any normal food to eat in the house so I was just eating takeout/co-op crappy food once a day. So I gave in and did a food shop 2 days ago. If Im going to eat Im going to be sensible while I sort out my little wobble. So today I had a granola bar for breakfast/lunch because I didnt get up til 12 - sensible! Then I went for a swim - happy about that, been 10 days since I left the house for anything but booze. Then for dinner I had wholemeal pasta, low fat pesto, 2 bacon medallions, mushrooms (do they count as 1/5 a day?) and 10 asparagus spears.
Then this is where is went wrong lol 4 mini brioche and apricot jam - about 550 cals! and a belvita biscuit just for good measure. Now Im sat in bed, doing work and I still want to stuff my face. Ive roughly counted cals all day and Im around 1700-1800. Not little enough for me to lose weight.
I am really annoyed. Its like I cant be trusted around real food. Its all or nothing. I cant do my bloody shake diet cos Im too weak, so I give in, cos otherwise Im going to just eat fastfood and takeaway. and I cant even just have normal portions of things. and to top it off, because I feel like Im back to eating normal foods I feel really fat and out of control, so I want back on shakes, but Ive got a fridge full of bleeeeeeding fresh food.
Motivation is no where to be found, not for the diet, or the gym or the dissertation. I am now a full month behind on my dissertation deadlines, not to mention not going to uni twice this week for my electives and all the work I need to do for them. Yet every day, Im just sat here watching telly, pretending like it isnt happening to me. Then I go to bed and Im awake all night, worrying about this insurmountable pile of work I have, then I wake up at stupid o clock annnnnd do nothing. Its just pure lazy.
There are lots of things I want in my future that rely on me losing weight - I want to meet my friend who is traveling, but I dont want to go when Im fat, I want an amazing graduate job - which I wont get without a degree/dissertation! I also know my chances of getting a job are much better if I am slimmer. I want to meet a man, no one can love me until I love myself, I cant love myself unless I prove to myself I am worth it and loose some weight. Lastly, I dont want my Dad to die while Im still fat, I want him to see me succeed. Why is all that not enough? Why is all that not more important than stupid food?
blaaaaaaaahhhhh
Where are you motivation? I need one hell of a kick up the buttttt.
I swear my dissertation tutor is going to have a nervous breakdown, and hes not a young man, I dont want to be responsible for his death.
I think you are putting too much on yourself in one go and that's a lot to be going around your mind.
I suggest you make a list (answer to everything) a list of the reasons why you want to lose weight, I have mine written on my phone. Dieting hasn't clicked for me so I'm going through a stage of dipping in and out it's a massive struggle that some people don't understand.
For uni Id do the same. It's the starting that's the toughest. It's the biggest hurdle, until you start it's far too daunting x
I was like that, nothing got done, I ate anything and everything in sight. I was miserable, but it didn't stop me. I was making myself miserable, I have no idea why, but I was in a cycle I didn't know how to get out of, I don't even think I wanted to get out of it.
However, something must have clicked, and I decided to do this diet - And I stick to it because it's costing me a lot of money, money I can't really afford to spend.
I am doing it for ME - if I did it for anyone else, I would probably fail.
As I see the pounds go, it lifts my spirits and motivates me THAT is what keeps me focused and determined.
I want to be a yummy mummy, not the fat one at the school gates!
Once you decide that you need to get on with your work, and are going to stick to this regime, you will start to feel a whole lot better. That's how I feel anyway, it's really boosted my mood and motivation.
It's a vicious circle you're in, but once you break it, you WILL feel so much better.
I am doing the S&S diet, for one reason only - I can't be trusted around food either. I know if I was calorie counting, it wouldn't work, because I did that through Jan and most of Feb. I managed to lose 10lbs with a lot of exercise, but then plateau'd, and gained a couple of pounds. I was eating less than I needed to per day, but would think to myself at the end of the day, 'I've only had 1,000 cals, I can have a box of Maltesers.' - So, I was on 1,500 cals per day, BUT eating that amount of 'bad' food was enough to stop weight loss. Fat calories are a lot harder to lose than protein or simple carb calories.
I broke that cycle with S&S - yes the first few days were tough, but if you can get past that, it soon becomes quite easy.
Once you're in Ketosis, you do actually start to feel really good.
You CAN do it - I know you can, because I was stuck in the same cycle. Once broken, it's a whole new ball game, and will lift your mood, sluggishness, and you'll start to see a difference in weight too.
Hope I'm not telling you how to suck eggs! I just wanted you to know I was exactly like that too, but I soon broke the cycle once I decided enough was enough, and only 1 week and two days later, I feel great about just about everything!
You'll do it, I know you will! xxx
I don't want you to take this the wrong way! But I disagree with you 1600 calories IS low enough for you to looser weight. It will be lower than your basically basal metabolic requirement and less than you would eat on your worse day. In fairness, you will still loose but maybe not as much or as quickly as you would like.
In my opinion, you are being much to hard on yourself. You have cut back to almost a vlcd which we all know as foodies is bloody hard!!!!! Be kind to yourself sweets and stop beating yourself up about it. Try and set yourself achievable food targets that you are happy with that allows you some flexibility. You are in a difficult place with work and dissertation stuff. You need some brain food and you need not to e thinking of food all the time- be good to yourself. Plan it. Know ur calorie allowance and have food in that allows you to achieve it.
You can and will do this. You are so determined, I think you might just be being a bit mean to yourself and dieting doesn't mean depriving yourself. Love ya chick! Be strong!!! I lost 16lbs in 4 weeks on 1600 cals a day if that helps? Xx
I think you are putting too much on yourself in one go and that's a lot to be going around your mind.
I suggest you make a list (answer to everything) a list of the reasons why you want to lose weight, I have mine written on my phone. Dieting hasn't clicked for me so I'm going through a stage of dipping in and out it's a massive struggle that some people don't understand.
For uni Id do the same. It's the starting that's the toughest. It's the biggest hurdle, until you start it's far too daunting x
Agreed! Start small! One step at a time! Make it realistic! It's not that you can't be trusted around food! I've become fixated with the foods I won't allow myself- so to change it I've worked what I want (ASK tonight) into my allowance.
I think I need tough love now!
I am the same with tough love - i dont think I could handle it! maybe break your goals into smaller - more managable peices... for example 5 pounds. then treat yourself with something non food related like a hair treatment, manicure, peice of makeup - then bigger rewards for say 10 pounds - like clothing, shoes, handbag etc. and so on... in between you can go window shopping and figure out what you want - and then set your mind on that item? Just a suggestion. you have done so well - dont be so hard on yourself
i love the idea of the treating myself when i lose weight
i treat my self too much already (in my bfs opinion lmao)
but i think i will set mini goals because if i just think ooh i'll lose weight for my holiday i will just keep thinking i have plenty of time