Let's try this again

Day 25!

It's funny how fast you can ease up a little on the rules for yourself as soon as you give yourself a little leeway! Yesterday I had 100g prawns, ice Berg lettuce, FAR too much reduced fat cheese a little extra light mayo and Frank's hot sauce. The scales this morning acknowledged that this was not part of the plan :eek: Can hopefully pull back for official weigh in on Tuesday! I think subconsciously it's because I'm having my dental implant tomorrow so will have no choice but to be 100% on plan! Also made a months order yesterday and I've noticed a pattern whenever I order, I tend to give myself all these extra little allowances because when the new order arrives it seems like a new chapter or something.

Anyway I'm not riddled with guilt or anything but also recognise it's definitely not a road I want to start going down again, what ever about being out and about and making a smart choice for lunch or something but just at home with loads of packs here there's no excuse!

Challenging myself to a 100% simplicity September!!
 
Still Day 25 and I've messed up :(
Raging with myself!

This WILL NOT be the start of a downward spiral, I'm choosing to learn from this. Learn that ANY deviation away from the proper rules makes me feel like crap and makes choosing the wrong way too easy a second, third, forth time etc. The rules are actually there for a reason, slim and save is the one vlcd that actually wants us to be aware and take advantage of all the little extras we can.

Tomorrow is my implant so no choice but to be 100%, then on to a simplicity September. I'm toying with the idea of not weighing until 1st October.
 
Day 26 and every little bit of my motivation has returned, phew!

Yesterday when going to get my binge stuff from the shop, I caught a glimpse of myself in a window and felt proud of how I looked. Size 16 jeggings and faux leather jacket. I couldn't have even dreamt of feeling so good about myself a few months ago and sitting down with my cheat foot (ice cream and tunnocks tea cakes) made me feel like absolute rubbish. I enjoyed ONE tea cake, the rest was horrible and I soon binned it all.

I'm straight back on it now and vow to myself to be 100% until October, when I might switch to lifestyle etc for a while.

I trust myself this time, to put myself before food and greed.x
 
Day 28 and going strong!
Let the September Simplicity challenge commence!

I'm really tempted to try not to weigh for the month but as a daily weigher it's probably impossible!
 
First day of September! First day of simplicity challenge and my little ones first day of full time playschool!

I've finally started lashing cvs out, fingers crossed!! And I've also started internet dating :eek: the reason I've always been reluctant is because of the "body type" part but I sucked it up and said "a few extra pounds" which I think covers it and at least this way I'm only getting guys who are okay with that!

Lots of firsts today! Weigh Day tomorrow won't be good after my stupid little pre op binge during the week but I have a consultation with the kidney specialist on Thurs and way back when I got the appointment I had a mini goal to be 15st 7lbs by then and I think I may well just get there!
 
Day 29, Day 2 of September challenge!

Weigh Day: 2lbs GAIN!! :thumbdown:

Not a bit surprising really considering my cheat, really goes to show you can't get away with messing around on this diet! Not worth it, financially or anything. Feel so bloated and constipated though so I'm going to really work for a good loss next week!

New order arrived, first shake Lemon yogurt, it's nice but not as spectacular as everyone made out on the fb page!
 
Day 30 and Day 3 of September challenge!

Scales showed another 1lb gain this morning :confused: really going to have to start getting some exercise in, did a fair bit of walking this morning handing out cvs etc! Also really need to get things moving in the poo department (sorry there's just no polite way of putting it!)

Otherwise feel good despite this seemingly massive stall, I know I'm due a whoosh and it's getting over these little slumps that bring you to the next success! If I gave up at every little hurdle I'd get nowhere!
 
Also time for a reality check!!

This time 30 days ago I was in the 17st bracket (even though I lied to myself and said I was 16st 13lb, we all know!) and today I'm in the 15st range! I'd imagine 3 weeks maximum until I see the 14s!
 
Oh I'm so fed up!

Had consultant appointment about my kidney today and it looks like best case scenario I'll need an operation, worst case scenario I'll need it out :( I don't know what I was expecting but I feel so sad about it, putting on a big happy head to everyone because I don't want to worry anyone but it really hits home just what little support I actually have. Ugh!

Just had Linda Mc sausages chopped up in a bowl with lettuce, sauce and cheese so safe to say today isn't going to plan. I will exercise later hopefully not cause too much damage.

On the plus side, the diet has absolutely NOTHING to do with anything, this is something I was born with so that puts my mind at rest and when my head is back in the game (please be tomorrow), then I can put my head down and get on with it!!
 
So today is a write off. But a low carb write off so hopefully getting back on it won't be too hard!

Had my Linda Mc, saucey, cheesy salad bowl for brunch.
Just made some low carb peanut butter cookies with my little one, they were surprisingly lovely! Will have one or two more later then another Linda Mc saucey, cheesy salad bowl this evening.

Kind of over the shock of the consultation now and want to get on with losing weight now, it was a really hot day here and I caught a glimpse of myself in a window earlier and really didn't like what I saw. Must not stop now! Must see those 14s!
 
Well here I am after what turned out to be 11 days off!! :eek:

Really good news though, I got a job!! Started last week, I absolutely love it!

I won't lie, I've been terrible food wise and ended up back up at 16st 1lb as of yesterday, on Day 2 now and eager to start seeing the pounds melt away!!
 
Still haven't managed to get back on and I'm feeling a bit despairy now!!

Tomorrow 9 weeks will be my birthday and a year since I started this diary :(
I really need to do this!!

I have to really try give it my all now and start updating here etc!
 
I think along a commitment to something you can do like updating here is a good thing. I'm struggling but I'm here and I'm sure I'm doing better than I would be otherwise. I was feeling really down about it all on Sunday night but I had a good day yesterday. 9 weeks could be 2 stone but only you know if you'll respond to the pressure of a goal like that
 
Day 1 finally finally finally DONE!!

Not ideal but I've decided to take a more laid back approach for the next few weeks and ease myself back in.

Ended up having 4 cheese strings (yuck what the hell?!) and 2 packs. Not brilliant but it's a start!

As I say, I'm going to be a bit more easy breezy with myself and try for some 100% simplicity days in the week but will also allow myself a couple of low carb/low cal meals during the week, lunch on Mondays and Thursdays for example as I work full days. I'm off Wednesdays and really like taking my little girl for lunch but we shall see, don't really want to link "treats" and "good times" with food but in saying that, eating a meal together is quite normal isn't it?

If I find this isn't working for me I'll adjust things as needed.
 
Hi HappyBunny, how are things going? I'm back for a while and have noticed the forum is really quiet. I hope this is a good thing and everyone who was on before has left to maintain. Are you back on plan? How have you done the last few months? x
 
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