Diary entry for Thursday 30th May 13
Well I certainly hoped but NEVER believed i'd be writing this but I am ......... I am just completing my 7th day without eating, sucking, chewing, licking or nibbling ANY food WHAT SO EVER yay me (0:
I have been having visions of me laying in a bath full of chicken ( cooked ) and I am just turning my head to each side and just eating it then using my hands to grab it from behind my head and down sides etc and just munching away lol - at least its a healthy vision if you consider chicken is protein and its not a bath full of chocolate !!!
I am not feeling to bad - no headaches, sickness or serious hunger pains and to be honest I think I have got away with it all pretty lightly ! The hardest thing for me is the constant battles in my head about eating food - I have thought about just having one meal of protein a week as a reward well over 100 times today !!
My other issue is that its my friends birthday next weekend and I have absolutely no idea how I am gonna go into a pub and not drink and when I am drunk as a skunk on just the one half of lager god only knows how ill make it past the kebab shop !!! So I have spent hours wondering how much damage a pint of lager and a bit of grilled meat will do to my weight loss ? I am pleased to say that I have also considered not going but I will feel awful for letting her down - its a long story but I really need to be there ! I will have done 2 weeks by then so I'm sure I will have lost some weight - I guess the issue is how much damage will I do ??
I hope everyone else is doing really well and getting good losses and are not not having these awful battles in their minds - I think im going a little insane - I just keep thinking about eating - I miss it so much ! I have changed though - I respect food now and I see where I went wrong - grabbing treats and eating too many takeaways so there has been a lot of positives about this diet even if I don't loose a pound I feel I have been on a journey and also learnt about self control .... it is possible lol xxxx
I wonder if half the problem is that I have not had a weight in yet so no proof of my loss - maybe my attitude will change on Sat when I have been to my first weigh in ?