xMariex
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My current BMI is 27 down from nearly 51. Yes I had to get new clothes, yes I still have weight to lose but I still feel fat. I look in the mirror and I see no difference. Others have commented but I don't see it. I used to hate having my picture taken as I was so fat, but I still feel that way. I am considering losing more if I can when I get to my goal BMI of 25 as I know others have goals less than that. But my weight loss has slowed, I am still losing but I am worried I will always feel and look fat. And I wont get under once I do reach my current goal, that I will always be this way.
I have health issues both with PCOS and thyroid cancer which I am sure affect my mood and I know my weight loss. But I have tried not to use them as excuses. I remember thinking when I first started this, I would feel so much better when my BMI was below 30 but it was a long way off. Well I got there and I think how fat I look. It is so depressing. I have a big build and my dr said I could easily be in the upper ideal BMI section or a little above and in her view be healthy (weight wise). She was amazed I managed to lose so much considering my thyroid levels (controlled by drugs as my entire thyroid was removed) have not settled, still having underactive symptoms and still in treatment (sadly it has gone into my lymph nodes). Many on my treatment gain, some with thyroid cancer lose but it depends on the treatment you need. Mine tends to be one you gain on.
But its all getting me down. Being ill is part of it. But feeling so overweight is also there. I feel like a failure and ashamed of my body
I broke up from my ex last year when I was much bigger but the thought of anyone seeing my body terrifies me. Anyone else who has lost weight feel this way?
Sorry for rambling
I have health issues both with PCOS and thyroid cancer which I am sure affect my mood and I know my weight loss. But I have tried not to use them as excuses. I remember thinking when I first started this, I would feel so much better when my BMI was below 30 but it was a long way off. Well I got there and I think how fat I look. It is so depressing. I have a big build and my dr said I could easily be in the upper ideal BMI section or a little above and in her view be healthy (weight wise). She was amazed I managed to lose so much considering my thyroid levels (controlled by drugs as my entire thyroid was removed) have not settled, still having underactive symptoms and still in treatment (sadly it has gone into my lymph nodes). Many on my treatment gain, some with thyroid cancer lose but it depends on the treatment you need. Mine tends to be one you gain on.
But its all getting me down. Being ill is part of it. But feeling so overweight is also there. I feel like a failure and ashamed of my body
Sorry for rambling