Hi Soraya
I'm sorry you're having a hard time at present. You seem very confused and I wish I could help you.
You've said that you panic when over a certain weight (I know that feeling well:sigh
and that cutting back strictly makes you rebel, again I am the same.
I really would try and avoid doing a strict vlcd at the moent as this will just reinforce your old habits and you have said you don't want to do that.
How would you feel about following alow gi 1200 cal a day programme? You shouldn't feel hungry on this and although the weight loss wont be great each week, you may find it easier to do.
I have had problems with overeating then abstaining and this has not been good for me psychologically at all, in fact I have sought help from hypnotherapy and CBT which I have found has been a god send. I am now only 2lb over goal weight but would like to lose an extra 7lb on top of that and have found that following a 1200 cal plan quite doable.
I am off on a camping trip tomorrow (could possibly turn into a water rafting trip if the rain continues
). I get back next Monday. If you would like we could try to keep each other motivated, maybe having a diet buddy would help? If you'd rather not I fully understand, or you could join the spring trimers thread, they're a great bunch on there and all have about a stone they'd like to shift, you'd be more than welcome
Tracey
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