AnnaMrie
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So. Think I'm currently at a low point. I weighed myself on sunday and at 17 st 4- offically the heaviest I've ever been. I've attempted weightwatchers, slimming world..and just 'being sensible' and only ever lasted a week or two on either since january 2012.
Worst year ever for my weight and I have felt so low about it recently to the point where it's brought me to tears, can't stand to have sex with my partner and the idea of him seeing me naked terrifies me. I'd avoid seeing my reflection and have felt like i've had a massive denial with my weight and weight gain and only really made half arsed attempts.
I lost 2-3 stone in 2011 and felt so AMAZING. I was single, fun and really feeling positive about my weight and felt like I COULD do it. I've felt in a sense I've blamed my 'situaition' for eating, I have a number of excuses...
1. I'm In a relationship. Since February I've been with a wonderful boyfriend who's said he doesn't care how I look and at 6ft 6 he eats an awful lot- and me alongside him. We don't have much money so instead of going out we eat together at home- and an awful lot of a rubbish. If I was trying to eat healthily he'd go pop a bag of cookies for himself in the trolley- and eat them infront of me, not offering them to me but it would be difficult.
2. My dad passed away in May. I feel I totally lost control- not just emotionally but physically. Anxiety/panic attacks returned, I felt low and therefore my (already existing) emotional eating started. It would make me feel better, end of.
I want to loose weight. I realise I need to loose weight for health- physical and emotional, fitness and for ME. I KNOW I'll feel better. However I feel after having stupid half arsed attempts this year with WW/SW It'll just happen again. I feel so ashamed I'll go to a WW group- 1st week would go fine, I'll have a loss. 2nd week- I'd go through a blip and be terrified to return to the group again and not go back, and voila- I'm in my old ways.
I want to go again, i want to do this again. Am I ready to loose weight, or should I wait till I have that 100% motivation- someone even told me that right now I could be too depressed to loose weight?
Help. I want to do this- I want to do this right, but there must be a limit on how many times you can keep going back to weightwatchers right?!
Worst year ever for my weight and I have felt so low about it recently to the point where it's brought me to tears, can't stand to have sex with my partner and the idea of him seeing me naked terrifies me. I'd avoid seeing my reflection and have felt like i've had a massive denial with my weight and weight gain and only really made half arsed attempts.
I lost 2-3 stone in 2011 and felt so AMAZING. I was single, fun and really feeling positive about my weight and felt like I COULD do it. I've felt in a sense I've blamed my 'situaition' for eating, I have a number of excuses...
1. I'm In a relationship. Since February I've been with a wonderful boyfriend who's said he doesn't care how I look and at 6ft 6 he eats an awful lot- and me alongside him. We don't have much money so instead of going out we eat together at home- and an awful lot of a rubbish. If I was trying to eat healthily he'd go pop a bag of cookies for himself in the trolley- and eat them infront of me, not offering them to me but it would be difficult.
2. My dad passed away in May. I feel I totally lost control- not just emotionally but physically. Anxiety/panic attacks returned, I felt low and therefore my (already existing) emotional eating started. It would make me feel better, end of.
I want to loose weight. I realise I need to loose weight for health- physical and emotional, fitness and for ME. I KNOW I'll feel better. However I feel after having stupid half arsed attempts this year with WW/SW It'll just happen again. I feel so ashamed I'll go to a WW group- 1st week would go fine, I'll have a loss. 2nd week- I'd go through a blip and be terrified to return to the group again and not go back, and voila- I'm in my old ways.
I want to go again, i want to do this again. Am I ready to loose weight, or should I wait till I have that 100% motivation- someone even told me that right now I could be too depressed to loose weight?
Help. I want to do this- I want to do this right, but there must be a limit on how many times you can keep going back to weightwatchers right?!
