Mich Diary....

Hello Mich,

Hope today has been brighter for you. I was thinking about you all last night.
You are so strong sticking to the diet even after such a rotten day. Let that give you comfort.
At the moment i too hate being on the diet - actually i hate myself more for having to be on the diet because i'm overweight BUT we can change that.
Put this all behind you now and lets focus on the future. :)
 
Just a quickie.... oooh errrr missus....;)

Thank you all so much again for all your kinds words - I can't believe I'm sooooo loved.....:eek: :thankyou: :thankyou: :thankyou:

Anyway, I had a good nights sleep and woke feeling better than yesterday - although my eyes are still a little puffy and I have had an outbreak of zits .....mmmm I never had them as a teenager....:(

Been in town most of the day with my friend doing a bit of 'retail therpy' - I didn't actually buy anything but it was nice to browse......

Fell off the SS wagon again today.....:eek: won't go into detail but didn't go too mad..... back at it now.....

Still haven't heard from the 3rd job I was interviewed for.... I have 2 apps to complete tomorrow and I am also asking my friend to make tentative enquires about becoming an auxilary nurse in maternity at the local hospital (10 minute walk from mine).... just an avenue I thought I may look into for a complete change of career..... mmmmm we'll see....

Anyway, off to spend some time with my lovely OH who has been to karate with the boys.....

Isobel - me thinks my blurke and your's were from the same shop......;)

Catch you all tomorrow and thanks again soooo much you are all just SIMPLY THE BEST (sung Tina Turner stylee.....:D )

Lots of love
 
glad to see your feeling a little better :hug99: :hug99: :hug99: hope that made you feel better keep that chin up get back on it hold your head high and who knows what is round the corner xxxxxxxx
 
Hi Mich,

just caught up on your last weeks worth of events!

Sorry that you didnt get the job you really wanted, they obviously didnt see your wonderful potential.......so as every one else has said ...their loss!!!

Well done on keep on bashing with the CD, even when you have had a blip you keep getting back to it, which shows your determination and bloody mindedness.........CB will not get the better of you honey!

Well done on surviving another karate night........weird how we can cope all day by ourselves and then struggle in the evenings!

thanks for your msg on B2B boards....good to know there is always support!( and from you too isobel(if you are reading this), all support is wonderful!;) and greatly appreciated)

off to bed now.....need to make sure I get loads of beauty sleep over the next few weeks!:rolleyes:

Hugs, have a good day tomorrow

Lou XX
 
Glad your feeling better. Retail therapy works wonders!! :)

Have a serious think about being an auxillary nurse, it's great fun, varied and good fun!! I think you'd be great at it!!!

Good luck with filling in the applications - i hate it - so tedious!!

Dont worry about the little slip up with CD. Your back on it now and thats what matters. Aim high girl. :)
 
Mich said:
Isobel - me thinks my blurke and your's were from the same shop......;)
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LOL - that's tickled me. You could go get a young fella from BoysRUs, a whole heap of one-nighters from Next (!) and our blurkes would have been sold by Top Man hehehehe!!!
 
NooNoo1970 said:
thanks for your msg on B2B boards....good to know there is always support!( and from you too isobel(if you are reading this), all support is wonderful!;) and greatly appreciated)
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No problemo, Missus! I'm hoping to be joining you over there soonish! lol


(not soon enough though!)
xxxxxx
 
So glad to hear you're feeling more upbeat, lady!!

Rockin and rollin again, arntcha!!!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Mich said:
Hi All!


It's been a strange ole day and I feel physically and emotionally drained.... my eyes sting from crying so much and even now typing this I can feel myself welling up again....:( I have never ever had a job outcome affect me so much..... I feel like complete and utter shite......:(

I think the uni guy thought he was doing me a favour when he said I was shortlisted from 120 to 8 for interview and was only pipped at the post because the other person had legal experience..... doesn't make me feel any better whatsoever that I came fecking 2nd - no one want's to be the runner up do they? Also, I don't know why he bothered telling me the other person had legal experience because this was not a requirement of the job and wasn't on the job spec..... to be honest although it was a brill job it's only a glorified receptionist type role so why they would need legal experience is beyond me....:confused:

I am feeling really sad, down, worthless, usless and like a big fat fecking failure....:( :cry: I have managed to be 100% on the diet today but I fecking hate being on it..... I hate myself for putting weight back on and I hate that I am doing this diet to get it back off.... I hate that I overeat - I shouldn't really call it binging cos I'm not sure it is..... I don't sit with loads of stuff and stuff it in... I graze continually over the course of the day instead of eating a 'proper meal'..... so is it a binge or overeating?

I know this is self-pitying and I really need to get a grip on reality - far worse things are happening in the world and to others around me.... but for now it feels my world is falling apart.....:( I cannot see past the negatives and just feel a failure in all areas of my life..... I don't think I'm a good wife or mother although my OH tells me otherwise.... I am angry and stroppy most of the time and alot of this is due to my weight - I take my stroppyness out on my kids and my husband.... I am negative about so much at the moment...... my mum thinks I'm a complete basket case and she's probably right.....:rolleyes:

Anyway, I am going to get off to bed in a bit - tomorrow is a new day etc..... sorry for moaning and groaning on - I don't expect anyone to reply to this self-pitying, wallowing shite..... and hopefully tomorrow I'll stop acting like a spoilt brat and be grateful for what I've got and get on with it.....

Love
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I'm SO sorry I didn't get to this when you wrote it... sending mega mega :hug99: :hug99: :hug99: :hug99: :hug99: :hug99:

You're a fantastic wife and mother - I know -I've met your gorgeous family and seen your stunning home!!! :D

You aren't behaving like a spoilt anything! "It's good to talk" (imagine Bob Hoskins).. ;) and this place is the best for offloading all our emotional crap and daily grind!! So.. very very proud of you for acknowledging how you're feeling and having the sense and courage to share it with those who love and care for and about you too! So ner! :D

Hoping today was a load better!! xxxxxxxx
 
Hello Mich,Ive just started reading your diary.Instead of being systematic i've read the end first.
Like every one else I'm really sorryabout the job & wish you the strength to pick yourself up ,getback on track & GO GET 'EM.

I think you are starting to feel a bit better,so I want to go back to what the interview man from the Uni told you:
Mich said:
Hi All!
I think the uni guy thought he was doing me a favour when he said I was shortlisted from 120 to 8 for interview and was only pipped at the post because the other person had legal experience.....
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I know you are angry- who wouldn't be,BUT

1.He didn't need to tell you what he did.He could have left you wondering if you were actually up to the job.
2.What he told you was that you were an excellen t candidate,Easily capable of doing the job & that he would have appointed you if there hadn't been another candidate with just a little unexpected extra.
3.Of course we hate coming second.But if you are choosing an apple from a bowl & there are 2 perfect ones, you still only pick & eat one.it doesn't mean the other is not perfect ,it just means that it'll be chosen next time.

please try & see his comments as a pat on the back even though it wasn't the reward you wanted.
The Next job may be better,more exciting,better paid-you never know.
Head up.Take pride,not shame.
 
HEY MICH WHERE ARE YA GIRL???????????
hope you are ok, so sorry about the job i just caught up on diary and was upset for ya!!
check in when you can let us know how you are going!
nat xxxxxxx
 
Still here, still trying.....!!

OK I'm hear just keeping a low profile......:eek: :eek: :hide:


Last week ended in another food fest.....:eek: :rolleyes:

Yesterday I was 100% and I am planning on being 100% for as many days as I can...... my clothes are tight, I feel crap, the sun is shining and it's only 70 days till my holiday.....yikes:eek: I have absolutely nothing that fits.....:eek:

Scales were obviously up again yesterday morning but were 4lbs down again today - I really need to push it along now and get into the 15's by the BHam meet - which is possible....

Had Lucy's dance show all weekend - see pic she was sooo good and looked sooo adorable (but don't be fooled....:rolleyes: )

Didn't get the other job I was waiting for a reply for so back to the drawing board....

Anyway's, thanks Isobel for bumping me up ;) I will crack this, I WILL, I CAN, I WILL, I CAN.....

Size 16's here I come.....LOL I am aiming to be 13.7lbs by my holiday which is approx what I was last year - that's 3 stone in 70 days - can I do it? Bluddy gonna give it my best shot......

Thank you to everyone who posts - and Jane thanks for your comments - in the cold light of day a week on from my 'rejection' I fully understand what you are saying - and believe it too.....

Have a good day all - sun is shining and I've loads of washing out and loads of stuff to do....:D :D

Lots of love
 
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Good on ya Mich... well done on getting to day 2... not easy but well worth it :D :D :D

love

Gen xxxx
 
hi hun,
glad to hear you're doing ok, had been wondering where you were !
here's to day 2, 3, 4 ......................... to holiday & slim
you can do it
xx:)
 
good on ya mich,
you can sooooooo shift that weight in 70 days , but you have to really keep that holiday in mind now so you will feel great about yourself.i think i read you are going for 3 weeks , wow what a treat that will be, and really something to look forward to!
I go away in approx 70 days too and need to loose about the same to feel better about myself, [21st may i go]
so we both have a great goal to aim for!!!!!!
so sorry about other job ,that is so pants,
hope some good news comes your way!
ps lucy is a little doll!!
nat xxxxxxxx
 
Mich said:
OK I'm hear just keeping a low profile......:eek: :eek: :hide:


Last week ended in another food fest.....:eek: :rolleyes:

Yesterday I was 100% and I am planning on being 100% for as many days as I can...... my clothes are tight, I feel crap, the sun is shining and it's only 70 days till my holiday.....yikes:eek: I have absolutely nothing that fits.....:eek:

Scales were obviously up again yesterday morning but were 4lbs down again today - I really need to push it along now and get into the 15's by the BHam meet - which is possible....

Had Lucy's dance show all weekend - see pic she was sooo good and looked sooo adorable (but don't be fooled....:rolleyes: )

Didn't get the other job I was waiting for a reply for so back to the drawing board....

Anyway's, thanks Isobel for bumping me up ;) I will crack this, I WILL, I CAN, I WILL, I CAN.....

Size 16's here I come.....LOL I am aiming to be 13.7lbs by my holiday which is approx what I was last year - that's 3 stone in 70 days - can I do it? Bluddy gonna give it my best shot......

Thank you to everyone who posts - and Jane thanks for your comments - in the cold light of day a week on from my 'rejection' I fully understand what you are saying - and believe it too.....

Have a good day all - sun is shining and I've loads of washing out and loads of stuff to do....:D :D

Lots of love
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Hiya Mich - just catching up on ya hun....

It's great that ur back on course and put the last few days behind ya :)

hope you had a good day....I'm sure there's a fab job out there just waiting for a great person like you to snap it up !

love

Debz
xx
 
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