Hi everyone.
Have you been in situation where you have been hiding under the stone for so long, that stone feels like home ?
I have. I am doing in right now. I have been silly, silly woman. Well, what can I do? Admit that I'm in trouble? Ask for help and then ignore the advice and hide again?
Yeah. Seems like me.
Deep breath in … and let the stone go.
Anyone who have read this thread, knows that I have lost 8,5 stone doing SW. Amazing achivmnet and should have been success story, but is not.
I gained it all back. All of it. Every stone, poind, gram. All of it.
How? Why? - I'm not sure myself. Ofc I know it's because I do like to eat and I have done lot of that. Why did I slip? I guess because I felt I could get away with it. Why I didnt get back on track ? I did try, but my heart wasn't into it. I have been telling lies to myself over a year now. I am OK, I can pull back any time I want, I am stressed and tired and deserve treat… Lies go on and on. What I did deserve was being slimmer and not gaining back the weight.
3 weeks ago I was visiting my sister in Norway and OMG - flying is horrible. I cannot fit the seat anymore and I feel so uncomfortable.
After coming back to UK, I have had problem with my knee. It's been swollen and so sore, that I havent been able to work. Its my second week on sick leave and I dont know when I am able to go back.
So. I joined SW again. First week is behind me and I did lose 7lbs. I am not happy. I hoped for more but then again I wasnt on plan 100%
I am sabotaging myself. I was on plan with flexy syns. Only good thing about my first week.
There is so much more to tell and I will tell it all, but not right now.
Will finish this sad post with reminding myself- I have done it before and I can do it again.
This diary helped me before and I have big hopes that this will be the case again.
Smiles,
Moo