Moo's year - 24 st start and restart

[Destamia]

Hello all.
So been so smart pants around but very quit in my diary. And thats because Im been very very very naughty. Very. Lol, dont think Santa will stop in my house this year

But serious. Im eating non stop. Im full and Im looking around what to eat more. And here is always something to eat. Deem you kitchen.

Dont really know what to do. How to stop. Yesterday I eat miljon syns. Honestly. You know how bad it was … I was drinking toffee sauce from jar. Thats right. Im messed up so badly right now and its all because of the job.

Yesterday was disaster after disaster. Mistake after mistake. We all did mistakes. Me too and Im not very good with mistakes. Im rarely mistake and when I do I get so stressed that I want to cry. And then I eat. To cheer myself up I eat. Then I have eaten way to much and I think - ah I ruined this day already and keep eating. " I ll start tomorrow "
Only tomorrow is just all over again.

So you see why Im not here so much. I dont want to admit Im failing so badly. But I MUST. Because I cannot hide my head under the sand anymore. I need to deal with it and kick myself into soft spot. Tho if Im honest I dont think it would help atm.

So I was speaking to sister today and I must say for the first time I noticed that shes wise. Lol. Shes my baby sister so Im always the older and smarted - you know what I mean

She told me that its all from overworking and Im missing vitamins. That I should get myself vitamine D and C for sure and even maybe floradix. Thanks to fitbit I know I dont sleep so well. I sleep less then 6 h and then do long days. Wake up at night and restless too. She said its all because of sugar Im eating. ( smart arse , what does she know - I nees my toffee fix … right ? ) she probably right tho. I know that chrome takes away sugar need. I have been using it before and I know it works. I just forgot.

So what is my plan.
Go to farmasy and get all that. And then eat all of em... Lol
But yeah. At least I feel hope now. And where is hope there is will.
I need help or this will end badly ( and by that I mean I will be back to 120 kg in no time).

Other thing I was thinking is to get food diary. I cant use phone at work ( when boss is around) so keeping food diary on phone is not option atm. When xmas is over. Then maybe but there is still about 5 weeks to go ( xmas partys I mean )

Anyway - now you know I keep you posted
Have a gread week everyone. Hugs and smile to all xx

 

[AngelicBee]

That's a great idea to get back on track moo! I take a bioavailable range of multivitamins and minerals, EPA oils omega 3,6,9, rosehip vitamin c - high doses and I know it if I miss them x x

Hope tomorrow is good for you x c

 

[wafflewaffle]

That's a great idea to get back on track moo! I take a bioavailable range of multivitamins and minerals, EPA oils omega 3,6,9, rosehip vitamin c - high doses and I know it if I miss them x x Hope tomorrow is good for you x c

What does rose hip do? And do u take the vitamin c along with the multivitamins?

I take multivitamins & iron coz my iron levels are awful after having Maisie xx

 

[Destamia]

Morning
Thank you hun xx

Starting strong. For now at least. Got multivitamins but chrorium was not on sale for itsown. I will order from ebay tonight, hope it gets here fast

Fingrs crossed. I have choise power, I have choise power …

Have a nice day everyone and smiles

 

[AngelicBee]

What does rose hip do? And do u take the vitamin c along with the multivitamins? I take multivitamins & iron coz my iron levels are awful after having Maisie xx

Rosehip is a great food source of vitamin c it's 1000mg I take two aday along side the multivitamin - it keeps me going through winter

 

[PrincessSparklePants]

Looking after yourself more is a great idea Sadly it's easier said than done especially in your profession but I will be keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you hun that you can and it'll work with the combination of that and vitamins too.

Sounds like you're definitely missing something and your body is trying to compensate x

 

[timmieatimbo]

You can so this lovely moo. We're all behind you. This is just a phase - probably because of your vitamin deficiencies but it will pass and you get right back on plan. This won't stop you getting to your targets. You're superwoman! Xx

 

[Blondcat]

We all have wobbles like that. On Saturday I had the following in the space of 6 hours:

- quarter tub Haagen Dazs cheesecake ice cream
- block of cheddar
- 5 digestives
- 2 finger twirl
- Belgium bun
- packet of raisins
- 6 celebrations mini chocolates
- chocolate mousse
- 4 tablespoons peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon.

I don't think I'm bragging when I say most people think I'm pretty disciplined. And I've been successful and managed to keep all the weight off despite doing this (regularly). I'm not proud of it and so far the only progress I've really made is to limit it to one day per week instead of 2 or even 3.

BUT - it is part of my nature and I can't feel bad about it. What I can do is realise I have not sabotaged my hard work. I haven't spoiled my "diet". Because what I have realised is we're not on diets. Eating healthily and making good choices is forever if we don't want to be overweight. That is the reality. So if you have a massive binge, don't beat yourself up but try and make healthy choices the next day. It's not going to be the last blow out you have. don't plan the next one, but know when it happens that it is a temporary blip and not who you are.

You can do it moo xx

 

[Destamia]

Thank you all for suport. Means a lot. I dont think I ever been so honest about my weight loss as I am here. Its all because of you.
Even tho I want to hide my head in sand and look like everything is alright Im tring not to do it.
So today I knew I wont be on plan but I will try to do my first steps and I will try not to snack. I did try to have meals that will fill me up for longer and I did not count any syns. I did try to make best I could.
So here what I had today.

Breakfast
4 crisp bread with soft cheese and salmon. Cucumber. Coffee.

Lunch
We had xmas buffee and I had one plate for myself too. Had to say it was so big that I did not even finished it.
Roasted potatoe. Steamed veggies. Turkey , stuffing, sausages in beacon. Red wine jus. Bread.
And it was so good


Tea
Vegetarian stew with mackrel and creamy mushroom sauce. Had only spoonfull of sauce but still ...

Dinner

Everyone had sw and fries so I was thinking - that I will have the same. Then I maybe wont be looking for snack later.


Now I had some sugar too ofc. Little cut of chocolate tart. Some other tart I cannot name. 2 spoonfull of caramel ice cream. Maltesers.

I did drink 1 l of water and 3 cups of green tea.

I will not count syns. There is no point atm. I hope my hubby did order me chrorium and tablets will arrive soon. I will get back but it will take time. At least I did not eat non stop like last days. So first steps are done.

Will go shopping tomorrow. And stay away from kitchen. I have day off. Will go to cinema alone and I will enjoy it. Maybe I will have popcorn. Dont know. I will try to cheer myself up with something else then food. I need winter cloths. Maybe that will make the magic

So again my belived friends. Thank you all I know some of you have very hard time but still come here and suport me ... i have no words to say how much it means. Thank you from my heart.
Hugs and best wished to everyone. Xxx

 

[Destamia]

Hello hello everyone hope everyone are well.

Im ready. Today I will start again. On plan. Yesterday I give myself a freedom to eat what I want and finished it with chocolate tart last night. Today Im ready to start again. Feeling strong. I think I know what pushed me. First I have taken vitamins for 3 days now and maybe thats helpes too. As I dont want something all the time and you all know Im big believer of what will have to happen will happen. So what happened yesterday open my eyes again and even tho I did try not to see the sign I cannot forget it. Lol.

So as I was out shoping and I did get few great things I wanted to have pizza before movie. So I desided to get pizza instead of popcorn. Got pizza from asda and I need to remind you few things. First I dont have pizza so offten. And it was first time I got it from asda. Second Im a chef. Lol. Thats important. You will understand in sec.
I open the box , checked for time 10 -12 min and noticed pizza comes with paper plate under it. Great I was thinking. I dont need a paper for my try. Pop pizza in and run upstears to try all the things on I got myself. After some time I went down to get oizza out and on my way to kitchen I can smell it and right away I knew what had happened. The paper plate was not paper. Oo no. It was plastic. That melted down ofc. On my tray and my pizza was ruined.

Needles to say I was not happy but I could not close my eyes. While I was cleaning the tray I was trying and believe me I was trying not to see the sign but it was not meant to be. This pizza was not meant to be. And at that moment I knew I will be back on plan today. That moment I knew why I started... But I wanted my treat so I had large popcorn at cinema ( BTW - I did fit to chair comftable - yeyy win win win ) back to popcorn. Half way tro it I felt sick. It was way to much but I kept eating some more. I could not finish it tho. But right now there is no way I get one any time soon. Thinking of it makes my face to same thing when I think of almon or soya milk. No thank you face. You know what I mean. Hahah

So after movie I did not had anything before evening. With tea I jad my last chocolate tart and I finished the eating non stop for this time.

Back to scale today and it 114,0. Same as it was on Saturday. So Im ok with it. For now.

Got myself a nice winter coat yesterday and matching bag. Feel guit happy with it.


Pic dont do any favors for coat but its very very lovely. Size 20. I got it from charity shop for 30£. Dont want to spend much more for one winter as I know I will wear this only one year.

And I got xmas gift for my hubby , lol
He always get same gift. I give him myself every year but this year He can unpack a gift. Hahahah
This is so lame I know but I like the idea so much. Not to mention I look hot in it , hahah
For first time I cant wait xmas. Over many many years. I want to see hes face


Back to food diary from today too. I will do my best to update it.
Day 1
Lunch
Vegetables stew with fry eggs. Fresh salad. Mayo 2 syn. Crisp bread and soft cheese (he). Coffee 1 syn

Total 3 syn


I will be on plan today. First day again. I remeber why I started. I know pizza was not for me. And I accept it. Life is beautiful.
Hugs to all. And smiles. Xxx love you all

 

[wafflewaffle]

Hello hello everyone hope everyone are well. Im ready. Today I will start again. On plan. Yesterday I give myself a freedom to eat what I want and finished it with chocolate tart last night. Today Im ready to start again. Feeling strong. I think I know what pushed me. First I have taken vitamins for 3 days now and maybe thats helpes too. As I dont want something all the time and you all know Im big believer of what will have to happen will happen. So what happened yesterday open my eyes again and even tho I did try not to see the sign I cannot forget it. Lol. So as I was out shoping and I did get few great things I wanted to have pizza before movie. So I desided to get pizza instead of popcorn. Got pizza from asda and I need to remind you few things. First I dont have pizza so offten. And it was first time I got it from asda. Second Im a chef. Lol. Thats important. You will understand in sec. I open the box , checked for time 10 -12 min and noticed pizza comes with paper plate under it. Great I was thinking. I dont need a paper for my try. Pop pizza in and run upstears to try all the things on I got myself. After some time I went down to get oizza out and on my way to kitchen I can smell it and right away I knew what had happened. The paper plate was not paper. Oo no. It was plastic. That melted down ofc. On my tray and my pizza was ruined. Needles to say I was not happy but I could not close my eyes. While I was cleaning the tray I was trying and believe me I was trying not to see the sign but it was not meant to be. This pizza was not meant to be. And at that moment I knew I will be back on plan today. That moment I knew why I started... But I wanted my treat so I had large popcorn at cinema ( BTW - I did fit to chair comftable - yeyy win win win ) back to popcorn. Half way tro it I felt sick. It was way to much but I kept eating some more. I could not finish it tho. But right now there is no way I get one any time soon. Thinking of it makes my face to same thing when I think of almon or soya milk. No thank you face. You know what I mean. Hahah So after movie I did not had anything before evening. With tea I jad my last chocolate tart and I finished the eating non stop for this time. Back to scale today and it 114,0. Same as it was on Saturday. So Im ok with it. For now. Got myself a nice winter coat yesterday and matching bag. Feel guit happy with it. <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=160823"/> Pic dont do any favors for coat but its very very lovely. Size 20. I got it from charity shop for 30£. Dont want to spend much more for one winter as I know I will wear this only one year. And I got xmas gift for my hubby , lol He always get same gift. I give him myself every year but this year He can unpack a gift. Hahahah This is so lame I know but I like the idea so much. Not to mention I look hot in it , hahah For first time I cant wait xmas. Over many many years. I want to see hes face <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=160824"/> Back to food diary from today too. I will do my best to update it. Day 1 Lunch Vegetables stew with fry eggs. Fresh salad. Mayo 2 syn. Crisp bread and soft cheese (he). Coffee 1 syn Total 3 syn <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=160826"/> I will be on plan today. First day again. I remeber why I started. I know pizza was not for me. And I accept it. Life is beautiful. Hugs to all. And smiles. Xxx love you all

I love how you tell a story moo, sometimes it is hard to comment as you speak so nicely and then I think what rubbishy little reply can I put to this lovely story hmmm lol!
I like your sexy outfit for husband I might follow suit but mine will have bigger knickers to hide ugly stretch mark belly! Lol!
Also don't worry about the pizza incident we have all done that at some point! But it's good it was a sign for you to be good I am not feeling like being good right now lol xxx

 

[Blondcat]

Well done for restart today. You sound really determined.

Also I agree with Waffle, I love your stories so much and wish my replies reflected how much they make me smile! I had a similar incident a couple of weeks back when I was in total binge mode in the office. I had eaten cake, bread and 2 chocolate bars. I went back to the vending machine to get another chocolate bar and it got stuck. I then went down to starbucks and their payment system was down (I was going to buy a cake). So I took that as a sign. CAT STOP!!!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF ??? And I did stop!!

The coat looks lovely and I love the saucy outfit for hubby. I love your confidence and sense of adventure Moo. You must be a really awesome wife

It's nice to have you back in the zone - I'm totally on it too. We can be focused together!!

 

[wafflewaffle]

Oh and I love the coat I have always wanted a purple coat x

 

[Blondcat]

yup me too - coat looks great - you look smaller than what you weigh Moo xx

 

[Destamia]

Hehehe girl you make me laugh
Coat is really very nice, got lucky with that.

I think Im just look good at photos Cat. Always have been. Tho some photos are not so nice, lol. And when I wear items that go with my shape I look smaler then I really am. Not complaining lol. I always had small waist compear my hips and that gives better look
People never can guess my weigth. But its all smartwear

Update for my lunch
Had pea and mint soup with bread roll. Now if I had look before how much is breadroll i would not had it. But will be smarter next time.
Total 8 syn

Coffee 1 syn

Have to say bread was nice but not worth of the 6,5 syn for sure

Have used 13 syns today already. But I will do my best to stay as close as possible for 15

 

[AngelicBee]

Soup sounds yummy moo - I have been thinking about a soup not sure which to go for x x

 

[Destamia]

Soup sounds yummy moo - I have been thinking about a soup not sure which to go for x x

It was heaven
I made it because its so fast to make. feeling little lazy today

 

[Destamia]

Dinner today

Boiled potatoes, piri piri chicken, tomatoes and apple jus 2 syns. Melon for dessert. So I have used all my syns now. If I want something more I will choose free food.



Waffle - maybe its something for you, but I was searching vegetarian foods today to put on daily special and I found this fain artischok pasta recetp.
I dont have a pic of it yet but I will try to copy link here if I can

http://veggieandthebeastfeast.com/2014/06/30/15-minute-lemon-artichoke-spaghetti/

This is so good. The sauce at least. As I only prepared sauce for servise for now, but If you like artiscoke check this out. Its very very nice

 

[Destamia]

So glad to report day 1 was good. I did not go over with my syns and I did not had any sugar. Only fruit.
Im proud of myself.

 

[Blondcat]

So glad to report day 1 was good. I did not go over with my syns and I did not had any sugar. Only fruit. Im proud of myself.

Very well done moo - very impressed although when you're in the zone you can do anything xx