Hello hello.
Been so busy at work for last two days and to tired ( read ; ashamed ) to come and update my diary.
So lets do the painful part first. Yesterday everything was ok until it was not ok , lol
Again when I get upset I eat. I may have mentioned before that I know my hubby is hiding candy and chocolate in hes desk. Well - I had on plan day. I was really proud of myself. Had 5 syn left and when I got home I expected to get a mail and I didnt.
5 syn left I can have some treat. right ?? Wrong. Because I cannot stop. Im like bin. If I start there is no stoping before everything is in me. I started ok, banana and another one and orange , but it did not help me. I still wanted something "good" i had one hi fi bar -6 syns. And I wanted just one more candy … well
I eat all the candies and all the chocolate he had. About 30 syn worth.
Fell a sleep and was thinking - its not so bad. Right ?? I was good all day long, right ?? How much the candy weight s anyway - nothing ( i did not cound that I had pack of candy and half a chocolate ). Then I was doing deals with myself.
If the scale is nice to me I will let it go. If not, I will face it and let it go anyway and keep looking forward.
So in morning , what you think .... Scale were looking at me and I swear I saw it rolling its eyes - " had candy last night, didnt you ?? … "
Oh , back to 112,2 ....
So what do I do when I gain ? I blame the hubby. Ofc
had a speech for him how he should not hide candy from me and in place I know. Asked him not to buy any sweets from now until Im under 100 kg. He agreed.
So thats done , I had a breakfast and Im back on SP. I need to get this weight moving down again.
Breakfast
Piri piri chicken sw with salad and cottage cheese. Coffee 1syn.
Lunch
Chicken and bean stew with broccoli. Did not take photo tho for some reason.
Dinner
Strawberry salat. This is just amazing. The dressing is so so good. We all love it. Clients love it. I love it. I put 2 syn for it but will try it at home with sweetener. Maybe it will work then too
This will be my nr 1 salad dressing from now.
Something else happened today. I got text from my old boss back home. She is the head chef of estonian army and she was offering me a kitchen manager job in one of the army units. Again. I told her that Im coming home in march and she was hoping Im moving back so she would like to see me working with her again. We both we sad that this will not happen just yet. One day when I go back yes but not this year.
Made me feel so much better about my skills and either I want to keep working as chef or not. I sometimes forget that I am very good at what I do. I just havent found the right place for me in UK just yet. But I will.
Will count it as an happy moment of the day and will add the fact that it was /is snowing (kind of) and that I did my day 4 in AB and Butt challenge. Lol funny story about that. I was counting on rest day today as I remember that Ab challenge had 3 days workout and 1 rest. So i did open my app and can see I have rest. Yes
and then I open my butt challenge app - and it said 25 squats 10 back bridge and 15 ( cant remember how its called ). What !! Where is my rest. Lol - but I did it. Legs are little sore but it will pass
Timmi did you try KB ? Its amazing workout I love it a lot. But if you do try em, let someone explain you how to do swing correctly as it is easy to do it wrong way using only back and you dont want to do that.
Im not sure where Liverpool is but I can find it on map
and thats so awesome that you willing to join us for girls night out.
Im sure we find best place and time when in time , summertime - when we can wear nice dresses.
Cat - I know my plates are big and I do eat a lot but its the only way for me. I cannot be around food when Im hungry or even slightly hungry. I have to have full belly 24/7
and the insulin thing too
thats why Sw
Is the right thing for me. I can eat as much as I need to be full
I dont think so much about sugar tbh. But when Im upset I do like I said at the begging of this novel
what I cant live without is cottage cheese, meat, potatoes and tomatoes. Everything else I can live with. ( for some period of time at least )
I miss wine. Havent had wine since summer. I know i could have it but dont see the point.
Will try and catch up with diaries tomorrow
hope everyone are well and happy
Smiles to all