day 90 - am overwhelmed by all the messages of support on here! really really touched. Thanks to all my friends on here, i could not have done any of this without you.
well, i got through yesterday (just!) but i was SO hungry at night i struggled to sleep at all. it was the hardest day i have had since the first 4 days and i think its becuase all the nibbling i did all week made me hungrier and hungrier. I weighed today and i have lost 1lbs. am pleased with that as feel as this has been a massive and mammoth week for me to overcome. I have now lost 30lbs. chuffed with that.
however, I am having a few days off plan now for easter and because i do feel mentally i have hit a wall with CD. I need to re-think and refocus and come back here on sunday raring to go again. I am 5lbs from my goal and feel i have achieved enough to stop mentally torturing myself all the time and telling myself i have failed another day. I want to take some time out to feel ok with myself and to understand that i have done really well (albeit slowly). I simply could not bear the thought of another day like yesterday. I hope you understand my reason for a a couple of days off, i need to re-energize and am losing my love for CD a bit. hopefully i will not gain too much over these days and will be back on sunday for week 14!!
again, cant believe how many of you came out to support me, it means a lot. i know my way is not the 100% way but it is MY WAY. i dont want to influence anyone to take this road but i hope it shows some people that CD is a battle and hard and although most people cant tweak it to suit themselves, some people like me learn to live with it their way.
have a great weekend girls and seeya on sunday!!