My journey

[Ch3rrie]

I've been writing in the food diary part of this forum and think I should be in Here instead as I ramble a bit too
So starting today here again!

Weigh in today was fantastic
I lost 2lb, won slimmer of the week and slimmer of the month! My first time for both. I am so pleased with myself. Total loss is 1st 2lb
This has given me the will power to not overeat when we go to Blackpool this weekend and also showed me controlling what I eat when going out works (Chinese buffet last week)
I did have a cupcake today though. My sister made them just for me and thankfully just bought me one to try. It really filled me up which felt very strange.

B- hifi bar
L - cupcake and a bit of potato and salad
D - potato, quorn sausage, green beans and brown sauce

I have a bag of fruit from winning slimmer of the week so I'll dig into that if I want to munch.
I of course had to share with my 2 children when I got the basket lol they helped themselves before I could see what was in it! My daughter saw the only banana and kept changing 'Narna, narna, narna' until it was opened for her !

 

[Ch3rrie]

I should also probably talk about myself too as its a new diary!
I am 26, live with my partner and our 2 beautiful children.
Our son, the oldest is 4 and autistic which can be challenging and full of stress but I wouldn't change him for anything.
Our daughter has just turned 2 and her devil personality comes out a lot now! Just today at our sw meeting she was giving everyone who looked at her evil stares. She is lovely too lol very vocal and happy.
My partner is lovely. He lacks emotion which makes me want to kick him really hard sometimes, but he's so supportive and positive to me when I need it. He also makes coffee and tea without moaning which makes me love him more

More about me... I have always been bigger. The first time I was called fat was in year 3. Family life was not great at times and made me keep myself closed to everything, food made me happy, tasted good, took my mind of things. It got bad when I used to steal crisps, I knew I'd get in trouble but I still did it.
I had a crappy time as a teen and hated myself and my eating. I did stupid things, starved myself and made myself sick were regular ones. Never enough to do anything to me thankfully.
I moved in with my partner and eventually saw how I should be eating but couldn't do it. Junk food was too easy to grab.
Our son was very premature and we both nearly died. No one said, but I know my weight caused it. I followed Atkins but the lack of crabs was a nightmare. I followed weight watchers but then was pregnant with our daughter and all I ate was chip sandwiches and haribo.
After the pregnancy I gained what I lost on Atkins and ww. Nothing more thankfully!
Since then I've binged and controlled myself but binged again.
I finally joined sw as I needed to try and see if group meetings were for me as nothing else is.
Well, group meetings are for me and so far work so well. I have lost 1st 2lb in 4 or 5 weeks. I love sw so much. I love eating loads of potato and not eating junk. Cooked meals are amazing. I've never been a cook and found it boring but now, I love to make a meal.

This wasn't supposed to turn into a life story lol, just a brief bit about me. Writing this has made me feel good.
I feel so positive about the future

 

[Ch3rrie]

So far today its been OK.
I've stupidly skipped lunch but I had stomach ache.
Breakfast was hexb bread, spaghetti and eggs with a latte.
I'm so tired today and snappy. My kids have driven me mental and its only 2.30!
Dinner later is peri potatoes. If I get hungry later I'll munch on fruit or make tuna Mayo pasta salad.

 

[xTxJxCx]

Just read your thread, I love you positivity and determination this time, just like me! I've always wanted to lose weight but never done anything about it! But now its like a light has switched on and I've got a complete different outlook on life now

I always find a good rambling on about things lifts a weight and helps with positive thoughts, hope it helped you too!

Good luck! I'll happily lend an ear to listen or lend a foot to kick you up the bum on a bad day and would love a foot lent to me on bad days! lol! just shout! Hehe!

Gem

xxxx

 

[Ch3rrie]

Hi Gem
I have spare feet for you if you ever need it!!
The ramblings have helped me, it also feels good to give myself 10 minutes to reflect on my day.

I've not written for a few days as we have been away in Blackpool and before that was insanely busy. It was lovely, just me and my partner!
Eating didn't go so great, but I did well.
The day we went I didn't have to hunt for SW friendly food until dinner time. By that time, places were closing and the pubs were getting loud as it was a Saturday night so we couldn't go there comfortably!!! It was a bit of a nightmare and we eventually had to give in and go to a chippy. We had chips, fish and mushy peas with bread. I didn't eat the bread we got, took the batter of the fish and give my partner some chips. I must of had 100 grams of chips or so. I ate some of my partners mushy peas as I think they are free. I tried to check but couldn't find anything saying for sure!
I didn't eat much and 3 hours later was STARVING. I had to give in and we went to a Chinese restaurant It was the best Chinese I've ever had so I am so glad we went. We had this amazing set meal. Soup. I had beef and tomato. It wasn't what I was expecting but was lovely, starter was a mix of Spring rolls, prawn toast, rib in honey and pickled cabbage. We got one each and a small bit of cabbage. Then we had crispy duck. I am in love with hoisin sauce and couldn't hold back on that Main was beef and black bean sauce and pork and schezwan sauce. With special fried rice. Desert was a little bit of ice cream.
I don't even what to guess the syns!
The next day which is today, we went home. The hotel had a breakfast buffet and I had a ton of beans and tomato. I also had 2 sausages and some fried mushrooms. I knew it would be high in syns which is why I had a lot of beans and tomato so I could get something free and superfree. I passed on orange juice, toast, fried toast, hasbrowns, etc!
Lunch was decided days ago. Taco Bell! We never go to Manchester so HAD to go as we were passing through. I gain don't want to guess the syns
Partner wanted Krispy creme dooughnuts as we were going through Sheffield so I let him. I wasn't having one but saw the new Almond one and couldn't resist I gave 1/4 to my partner and didn't have any of his 2. We have been known to have a full double dozen within a day so having just 1 is amazing for me.
I also had a hifi bar after breakfast as I was still hungry which I thought would be my HexB (milk was HexA) so I could stay on plan as much I could.
Home now sitting with a cup of tea.
Lovely weekend, shame eating was hard but it's such a rare thing that we do. If I gain I will loose it again

 

[Ch3rrie]

Today's been good! Making up for the weekend
Breakfast was a jelly pot and plum.
Lunch, spaghetti and mushrooms on toast. Bread HexB.
And I've just had diet coke chicken for dinner.
Hopefully a photo of this yummy dinner is attached. This was not today's, today I had sw chips and green beans with it.

Today has been fine, draining as I'm full of cold and have no energy. Our son woke at 3.30am last night and didn't sleep for a while and then woke at 7am so he came home from school tired. He had a huge meltdown at dinner time so he drained all his remaining energy! 6pm bed time for him. He is calm now listening to music and playing.
Our Daughter had a big 3 hour nap in the day so she'll be awake for longer than her usual bed time, but the 3 hour nap was needed for her and me to rest!

The dreaded evening looms, my stupid brain already wants to snack and I KNOW I am not hungry so I'll get some water down and sit with an apple near me. I'll sweet talk my partner into serving me tea later too

 

[Ch3rrie]

Its been a few days. I've been either too busy or too tired.
I lost 2lb this week which was a very nice shock
I also tried syn free pizza and it was so nice, I need to make it!
Food wise, its been good. I have gone over my syns so can't have more this week, but it was good because I never felt out of control eating. Me and my sister got stuck in Buxton for 2 hours at dinner time so we went to have dinner. I wasn't paying nearly £5 for a jacket potato when I usually spend £2.50! So I had chicken, chips and salad. Just had to syn the chips and BBQ sauce it came with.
Then I saw their desert and they had Churros. I've never seen churros on a menus before and I have always wanted to try them. 35 syns though
Everything else has been good so I should be OK. We will see on Wednesday.
My week hasn't been good though, I've been too busy to finish my uni assignment which isn't good. The worst is that we've had to give our cats up. My uncle is a cat man so they are in a much better place, but I am so heartbroken and upset. I feel so guilty. They just couldn't be here though.
I just have to make sure I eat normal so I don't go out of control and binge now :-/

 

[Ch3rrie]

Good day today.
Me and my daughter have baked cakes today and I didn't have one! I'm not even tempted
A few days ago I Bought a pineapple corer and cutter and it is the most coolest thing I own In less than a minute I have pineapple to eat. It's great as I love pineapple but don't have it much because I can't be bothered to cut it up.
Its a shame it rained here as I'd of loved to of sat in the sun.
I've felt OK today, I miss my cats like crazy and want them back with me so much. A part of me has gone with them and even though I know they are going to have a better life with my uncle, I can't help but wish they were here to cuddle.
Food was fine
Spaghetti on toast for brekkie
Salad for lunch
Kebab lamb for dinner.
Pineapple and plum as a snack.

 

[Ch3rrie]

I know its been a while. I've not felt good so didn't want to write.
Food didn't go great, I've given in to temptations of gummy sweets. They must be the only thing I find impossible to resist.
I had chip shop last week too . I didn't eat properly at all last week.
So I was surprised when I lose 2.5lb today at weigh in and won slimmer of the week! Completely not deserved. I feel guilty.
So far I've lost 1 stone 10.5 lb which I am happy about. 3.5 lb till my 10%

So today I am back to eating properly.
I'm trying a scan bran cake later. 8 syns for it all so I hope its nice!