Hello ladies,
Thank you all for the lovely comments. I feel a bit embarrassed now, moaning on here...lol. I had an early night yesterday and I ended up only eating the portion of chips all day..so when I went on the scales this morning to see what the damage was (I have had a few odd days with the syns) I had STS. So I think someone is watching over me! So new weigh in day is going to be Tuesday next week. I really want to see if I can lose 3 lbs..I have a big chemistry exam next week but Im determined not to let my work plans make me gain. The reason why I am this size is because I am a serial comfort eater but Im glad that I feel stronger in myself to reign it in. I mean yesterday I had a yoghurt a banana and a portion of chips but before I wouldnt stop there I would have chips, burgers, mcdonalds later, sweets, chocolate and booze as well. Its awful looking back at it now. It looks like I had a serious problem! But I didnt do that yesterday or any other day I have treated myself. I think thats the key if you are going to go off plan, do it in moderation! Also, most of the time when I feel like going off plan I can do a slimming world version of it anyway and it tastes just as good.
About the exam, well I found out today and my stomach is in knots so I doubt Ill eat today I found out at about 2. I still feel very unconfident but I know that I wont give up. I have wanted to be a doctor all my life. Its just a really difficult process, to the point it is soul destroying sometimes. I guess if I dont get in anywhere this year I will apply again next year as I will have completed my course then and got all the wonderful A grades across the board like these medical schools want. So, whatever the result I'll keep on going with my course as I finish in May. I have decided to pick myself back up and plan my revision schedule for next weeks Chemistry exam and If I find out that I am resitting my biology exam, Ill just get on with that too. I really hope one day being a doctor makes me very happy though! lol