Newbie with 4 stone to lose

[kimmi1982]

Loving the sound of the lamb - not had lamb for ages. love it but it's generally too ££££ for me!! Hubby always says I'm tight -(he's probably right but don't tell him I said that or his head will swell lol)

The house sounds lovely - fingers crossed it will still be available when you are ready to move or maybe you find something even better.

I never used to believe in fate but when we were looking to move I saw my dream house by chance one day. Unfortunately it was completely out of our reach and I was so down about it. We looked at other properties and ended up choosing another which was ok but just didn't measure up to my dream house.

Anyway with a month several things happened all at the right time (we were gazumped on the other house, seller of dream house suddenly had to dramatically reduce the price as they needed to move urgently for work, we suddenly found a cash buyer for hubby's house who wanted to complete asap and was willing to pay extra etc) and everything just fell into place meaning we could buy it - we couldnt believe our luck and I always think that it was obviously meant to be! Hopefully you will be just as lucky - you certainly deserve to be xx

I love lamb too and haven't had it for about 6 months because its sooo expensive. We were meant to go out last weekend which we didn't and then tonight but bf has to work. We worked out that buying the lamb and some other "luxury" goodies is still cheaper than going out for a nice meal!! Last month we spent £60 on a pizza express meal for our friends birthday!! I despise paying that much to eat out, and even more so when it's something as basic as a pizza!!!

I am also a true believe in fate! The way I met my bf and the way things have happened for us over the past year has to be fate. Physio jobs are rare to come by, jobs in the south west are even harder and then the perfect job in the right speciality at the right banding in the tiny little village the bf comes from came up and I got it!! Has to be fate!! Lets hope fate wants me to be thin also!!! xx

 

[Jonsgirl80]

I know, we used to eat out all the time but I got to the point of resenting the fact that I was spending £60+ on a single meal. Now I would rather spend £60 at tesco's and know I was getting so much more food for the money. It's nice to go out and have a treat but when you are trying to save ( we're still penny pinching to save for the IVF fund ) it's so hard to justify the cost for something that's over so quickly when you know the money could be much better used elsewhere!

I really really hope fate wants us to be thin!! If she does then it is bound to happen - i am such a huge believer now as fate played in huge part in me meeting my hubby too but that is a story for another day lol xx

 

[ladyfelsham]

Big believer in fate here too

 

[kimmi1982]

Well I went a little off plan last night........ Had a lovely home cooked 3 course meal at home to celebrate out first year down in Bristol. Scallops and chorizo to start, lamb with green veg for main and Eton mess for pud, all good I hear you say ....... And then a bottle of red wine!!! Was amazing!!!!!! I've got a bit of a heavy head this morning but had a wonderful night!!! Back on track this morning, sausage, egg, mushrooms and bacon for breakkie, have walked the dog and now going Xmas shopping!!!! We like to start early to spread the cost so off to the outlet village we go!!! More good news, I'm meeting a mum tomorrow who wants some help looking after her son who has muscular dystrophy. Hopefully she will like me and I can make a difference in helping her for a few hours a week, it may not make up full time hours but every penny counts xx

 

[meg38]

Your meal sounds yummy x and not the worst of plan menu!! X fingers crossed with the few extra hours, every little def helps x

 

[ladyfelsham]

Good luck with the potential new client! And how did the shopping go?

 

[kimmi1982]

Busy busy busy couple of days!! I have a spare 10 mins before hydro so taking time out (sat in the car eating pork scratchings!!)

Xmas shopping was a no go, nothing we wanted to buy really, came home with some Xmas wrapping paper!! Tried a coat on in next and was reminded that despite losing 15 lbs I'm still very much overweight and still have a massive jelly belly!! Bad mood!!

Mum attempted to highlight my hair, it didn't take very well so now look like a tabby cat!! Can't really afford to spend 80 odd pound at the hairdressers!!

Had a 12 hour day yesterday at work, lots of driving round to different appointments. I'm getting a bit frustrated that I can't get full time hours! I am clearly doing a full time role but squeezed Into 4 days.

I met the lady who wanted some care for her son. Was a very strange meeting and it felt like I was her counsellor for an hour!! Her son has a life limiting condition and basically opened up everything to me!!! She could offer me any specific times or hours so I'm thinking
Going to decline the offer. I don't want to work an hour here and then an hour there!! I know I'm picky, I don't think anything will be right unless its an extra day as a Physio!!

So I'm feeling tired and very low, went to the baking cupboard last night to eat some cooking chocolate but the bf has hidden it!! He knew I would reach for the chocolate. Scales also have t moved this week yet so just feeling crappy!!

Anyway off to hydro now, xx

 

[Jonsgirl80]

Sorry to hear you're feeling a bit low.

i know what it's like to do more than a full time job but only get the pay n perks for a part time one - it stinks!

the meeting with the lady sounds very odd so i think you're probably right to follow your your instincts on that one.

have you thought about looking at pa work. Don't know about the situation in your area but up here there are always loads of adverts in the paper from people who have the personal budgets wanting to employ an assistant for a few hours to help them go out or whatever. Not at lot of people want the jobs because it tends to be like six hours one day a week which for someone who is unemployed isn't worth taking but for someone like you who is looking to fit it in around your "day job " could be worth a look. The rates of pay generally look pretty good too. It might not be for you but it's just a thought.

Sometimes for me the scales don't move for several days then i get a sudden whoosh so try not to worry about it until official weigh day xx

 

[kimmi1982]

Sorry to hear you're feeling a bit low.

i know what it's like to do more than a full time job but only get the pay n perks for a part time one - it stinks!

the meeting with the lady sounds very odd so i think you're probably right to follow your your instincts on that one.

have you thought about looking at pa work. Don't know about the situation in your area but up here there are always loads of adverts in the paper from people who have the personal budgets wanting to employ an assistant for a few hours to help them go out or whatever. Not at lot of people want the jobs because it tends to be like six hours one day a week which for someone who is unemployed isn't worth taking but for someone like you who is looking to fit it in around your "day job " could be worth a look. The rates of pay generally look pretty good too. It might not be for you but it's just a thought.

Sometimes for me the scales don't move for several days then i get a sudden whoosh so try not to worry about it until official weigh day xx

Hi Jonsgirl,

The jobs I have been looking at are pa's/ carers jobs. Your right, people get direct payments and have so many hours a week to buy in their care. What I'm finding is there's lots of people out there that have small amounts of hours ie 7 a week but want one hour per day to get them up or bathed! This is difficult for me as I am already working Tuesday - Friday. Ideally I want to work on a Monday so I still have the weekend to visit family and have me time!! A days wage a week makes the world of difference at the en of the month!!

I sent my boss an email today to say how busy I am in my area, I have a large caseload and now a heavy waiting list and its starting to get ontop of me now!

And when I get stressed........ I eat!!!

Xx

 

[Jonsgirl80]

You are right that days wages makes all the difference I used to work full time but when I had my boy I dropped to 30 hrs per week and it made a big difference.

up here a lot of people with the personal budgets seem to lump their hours together to have a full day and use them more for assistance with social activities rather than personal care. I guess it's down to the individual person and how they want to arrange it.

Good idea to e mail your boss and make her aware of everything you're doing - I know you said there were no more hours at the moment but things can always change.

I also eat when I'm stressed, or sad, or happy or whatever, i've had to accept that it's like an addiction to me but it's a quick fix that leaves me even more unhappy in the long run so I'm working really hard to find things other than eating that will cheer me up but it's a constant battle. Try to stay strong, you've been doing so well recently and just think how proud you will be when you resist and the weight continues to drop off xx

 

[kimmi1982]

I'm still here...... Just having a shocker of a week!!! Have read back my posts and all I do is moan!!! Grrr! Scales won't be kind to me tomorrow, that's a definite!! X

 

[Kat1e]

Hi Kimmi, hope your weekend going well. All you can do is hang in there, draw a line and take one step at a time! Xx

 

[kimmi1982]

Thanks!

-1lb again this week, maybe the snail wins the race!!! So where did I go wrong this week?
- too many tomatoes
- not enough water
- drinking sugar free lemonade
- no exercise
- not tracking on mfp

So this week, I'm going to post my daily menu's to keep me on track, get that water down me and take the pooch out for a walk after walk!! Hopefully that'll et those scales moving!!

 

[Kat1e]

Well done on the pound. Doesn't sounds like much went "wrong" this week. Maybe opportunities to improve but those little 1 pounders add up quite nicely

 

[ladyfelsham]

Yes it does all add up - but post menus too, amazing what others can spot

 

[kimmi1982]

Well I've had two days off plan.... I don't know why...... I don't know what triggered it....... I just went off plan. All I wanted was sweets! No potatoes or pasta just sweets and squash!!! So I've ploughed through three bags of haring this weekend. Pulled myself together today, it's so much easier to be on plan when I'm working, weekends are so difficult.

Friends wedding this Sunday and I'm 16lb down. I've been really disappointed with the 1lb losses but they all add up and 16lbs is a brill loss for me. If I didn't keep cheating I think I would have lost more, just need to keep at it. I' don't think I've been in ketosis for weeks so have ordered some new ketostix. I know there's huge discussions about these but they work for me, they keep me motivated and on track!!

Exciting news is that the family is going on a 2 week holiday to Florida in April 2014. Despite all the saving for our,future were debating on spending a bit and going along with them. How can we not??!!! So the diet really has to stick!! Even 1lb a loss over the next 30 weeks will take me down to 14stone which I would be happy about!!!

So a few goals/ milestones for me:
- get to those pesky 15's
- get under 100kg
-get into my size 16 skinny jeans
-next friend wedding is 23rd November- to be in low 15s

So, taking each day by day, starting again, induction all over again with the hope of metallic taste coming soon!! Today's menu:
B- hard boiled egg
L-chicken thigh meat with 4 florets of broccoli
D- beef mince meatballs fried in oil, 4 chopped cherry tomatoes with sliced courgette and cheese
S- boiled egg, only about 1 litre of water today :-(

 

[Spinoza]

That looks really good kimmi, and you sound really focussed now - sometimes a break from the diet makes you more determined, doesn't it?!

And definitely listen to your Auntie Kat1e - that woman lost a kazillion stone one little pound at a time!

 

[kimmi1982]

As long as I'm losing I'm going to be a happy bunny- but saying that I don't think I will get away with my haring binge over the weekend. I'm preparing myself for a gain this weekend!! Ketostix have arrived today so hopefully I'll get a pink stick in a couple of days. I do have a bad headache today which is normally a sign for me but not sure, I'm pretty stressed too and haven't drank enough water so could be any of those 3!!

Menu for today:
B- hard boiled egg
L- cheese salad ( watercress, 3 cherry tomatoes, cucumber and spring onion)
S- sugar free jelly with a splash of cream
D- gammon with mushrooms and green veg

 

[ladyfelsham]

Well done on the loss so far hun, it's always great to take stock of how far you have come! xxx

 

[Spinoza]

Arrrrgh - why didn't I think of sugar-free jelly today? Was desperate for something sweet and went and ate a damn Atkins bar. Filthy things. Must read more menus. Your looks great today K.