Okay...I was going to avoid here this evening - but have decided that it wouldn't be good for me to. I had an addictive eating moment today, and know in my head I blamed it on feeling pants.
Breakfast (10ish): Choc Shake
Snack(2ish): Jelly with yoghurt.
Dinner: (was supposed to be around 2pm hence no lunch - ended up being 6pm) roast lamb with brocoli and cauliflower. Was nice, but not filling..
Now here comes the confession. When clearing the plates I steal a left-over bit of lamb off the OH plate, a bit of brocoli...and the one I'm most annoyed about with myself - some of the bits of stuffing left in the bottom of the tin.
I know I used to have a problem of having leftovers and the remnants of the roasting tin on a Sunday - but while on abstinence I never found it a problem. Now its happened and I need to address it - so I just went and made myself stand out in the kitchin with the pots and the pans so I can see that I DON'T HAVE TO. I have control, and yes lost it for a moment but I gained it back - which is the most important thing I feel....
I also thought it was important that I still had my planned "pudding" afterwards as it is still in my allowance.. so:
Pudding: baked rhubarb and apple with 1/4 peanut bar and yoghurt.
I feel good for having it - I also had a late evening bowl of fruit pencilled in, and the rest of my bar - but I am taking this off my list of today to compensate for the hiccup. I know it won't really compensate for it, but for me its a good lesson that I need to take something away if I'm going to lose control.
I don't know...
It didn't help that I expected to eat at 2 and didn't for another four hours.....even with the jelly and yoghurt I did get pretty hungry and I think this was one of the contributing factors. Don't let yourself get too hungry as this leads to overeating!
I have been extremely light-headed and dizzy the past few days, and have blacked out on a couple of occasions having to be caught by the OH. I've been kind ill for a couple weeks now, and I know that all it is is that I've had a sofa weekend which has let the exhaustion creep up on me - but still I think I used it as my justification for the mishap after the fact ("I'm obviously not getting enough - so this didn't hurt").
I'm not going to try and justify it - I lost the control for a moment, I gained it back, and ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD AS LONG AS I ADDRESS IT NOW.
Bottom line - address it and its been nothing less than a great lesson.