Really messed up!!!!

[irish molly]

Liz, you sound more postitve in yourself today so hope all is going a little better for you.

 

[Scotsmist]

The first 4 weeks or so of re feed, I didn't feel deprived of foods. I said when I was on LT I would steer clear of the 'bad' foods thinking I had survived without them for this long, I didn't need them. This last week all I have been thinking about is the 'bad'(nice) foods!!!

I am doing the 2 shakes/ 1 meal until next Friday (I love the shakes lol), but also to get rid of the excess shakes, and also to spend the next week or so re evaluating where I have gone wrong, and trying to come up with a plan to avoid it in the future.

What are you having for your evening meal? Are you steering clear of carbs, and just having protein, or you still having carbs?? I don't want to go into ketosis (I do, but I am out next sat with work so will be drinking, so I know this will be dangerous)

Thanks again for your kind words, I do have a lot to look forward to, like you reminded me,and want to be able to enjoy it being thin!!!!

If you do find that magic wand, send it my way too, and to everybody else who is struggling xx

Hi Liz
You sound a bit more together from your posts. I was the same after re-feed, in fact I went on holiday and couldnt wait to get back to LT at the time. It is just the fact the control has been taken away and it is a time of readjustment...read Jan and Mary's posts (which I am sure you have)....they have off days, but they have maintained within a particular window.....I believe (even for me) it is achievable.

I understand about the "naughty" food and not eating in front of people, but once you learn to think like a thin person, it will maybe come together. My thin friends dont think twice about eating a choc bar; it isnt naughty...they fancy it and it is nice and they can stop at that....and then just eat healthily thereafter! It is amazing, so maybe your goal is to stop thinking it is naughy. For instance, I have always been frightened to eat olives/white cheese, because it was high fat!! But on low carb, Atkins it is good for you!! We all think differently, think that is what I am trying to say. We have been trained in our mind to think certain food is bad!! It is too much of something that becomes bad for us, but it isnt bad persay.

I am on a bit of a learning curve as I went off the boil. I needed the shakes to give me a little stability, but I dont want to rely on them. I am going to the gym right after work, so wasnt eating till way after 10pm and this was contributing to me gaining weight and overeating too...so, I now have a shake for brekkie, my main meal around 3pm which has been chicken/ham salad and a shake when I get in from the gym.

It isnt sufficient, I know that, but I have said to myself if I can learn a few things about myself over the next few weeks to help me understand why I went backwards, it will be worth it.

I think you are at the stage most people that have done LT suffer to be honest. The newness of being thin, getting the compliments kinda slips off a little, and then we get comfortable a little around food and then it just snowballs from there. Hopefully, nipping it in the bud will help and I think just posting helps too.

I removed myself a lot the past week,not to be anti social, but I didnt feel I had anything to give, but your post kinda tugged at my heart cause I felt for you and I knew how you were feeling and justed to offer a little hope I suppose.

I am sure you will get through this, like you have with everything else this past year....but just accept you may have seasons of not eating so good,and then eating well...so long as you balance it out.

Try not to cut out the carbs!! (I know, pot, kettle, black come to mind), but dont get obsessed like me. It isnt good. Maybe once you lose what you gained, which shouldnt take too long, start introducing the carbs..I know I will and I am determined to make them my friend again Oh, if you are planning a night out, and you are exercising too, you will be fine with your carbs....maybe have wholemeal bread, wraps or pasta/rice...at least have something, then you wont be in ketosis.

Sorry for the waffle...but hope you are feeling a bit better.

Helps to bring it to the open..

Take care

 

[A Better Me]

Aww liz ((hugs))
i havent been on in a while, and have only just seen your post hun, so sorry your having a difficult time at the moment hun, but if you put it all together of what youv been through the last 6 months you know you`ll get through this, youv shown so much determination whilst on LT its still gotta be there somewhere.. at least youv brought your bingeing out in the open, and so it isnt a secret no more you should feel better about that.. thers no harm in having a treat just try limiting yourself to maybe 1 a night...
please stop the throwing up after it tho as you know what a slippery slope that one is hun...
hope your feeling better soon, and i would go and see your gp in the meantime to arrange some counselling as you have been through a lot of change and maybe just need a little help to readjust xxxx

 

[JanD]

Hey Liz!
Sorry I haven't been around to offer you some support during your tough time

It's all been said really. Personally I would recommend NLP counselling if you can possibly access it as it will really help you get to the bottom of WHY you're doing what you're doing. I mean - if you think about it you already know that no amount of calories is going to actually make you FEEL better about anything. In fact you know logically that adding binging and purging to what's going on for you is going to make you feel worse - but you (we!) do it anyway ..... Why????
Then - when we understand why, NLP helps you identify & develop strategies to cope with what's going on that actually DO work!

Hope you're feeling better anyway ... ***hugs*** xxx

 

[liz0703]

Thank you so much for all your kind words and support. Sorry not been round for a few days, just been so fed up. Got an appointment at GP so hopefully that will help