RubyMoss's Weight Loss Diary!

dudette2001uk said:
Yeah, it was good! That's what holidays are for is my way of thinking ;) It was just a bit of a quiet one down the local, but I had a couple of nice compliments from people so I felt all puffed up like a peacock all night! :8855: xxx
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That's brilliant! Really happy for you!

I myself am about to go to the pub!
Just for coke though... pfft.

How much do you ladies bet I'll stick to coke/end up on cider?!

xxxxx
 
RubyMoss said:
That's brilliant! Really happy for you!

I myself am about to go to the pub!
Just for coke though... pfft.

How much do you ladies bet I'll stick to coke/end up on cider?!

xxxxx
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I'm not much of a gambler...but I don't like the odds on you sticking to coke lovey ;) Have a good time hun, it's a weekend!!! xxx
 
Well!
I literally only went out for an hour, and had a pint of Diet Coke!

I'm clearly just an angel... however, sat in the back garden at the parents and a cold glass of something alcoholic is SO tempting... xxx
 
This is going to be one of those rare moments where I am serious.

I've been sat listening to my (obviously) favourite band, Coheed and Cambria when their song 'The Light & The Glass' came on. It's a beautiful song, and it's one of the few songs that really moves me - gives me goosebumps! However, it's the lyrics that really got me thinking tonight:



Slowly the pen touches paper
In the guidance of the words that you write
Memories roll in of the things you once did
And who you had shared them with
Is somebody thinking of you?

Did I bother telling you this
With the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words in wanting to tell you anything
But words don't come with ease
They're forever my hurt

Would it really matter
If you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left well
Smiles staged in photographs here until


I think these lyrics actually mean something to me.


It's got me thinking about friends I've lost, and friends I thought I'd lost, but apparently haven't. It's made me think about me as a person, and my worth.
Since gaining weight I've really doubted myself in pretty much everything I do; University, relationships, work. I mean, I'm still a reasonably confident and outgoing person, but gaining weight kinda forced me to put up a barrier.

Talking to people over the past couple of years has kind of opened my eyes.

I've changed a LOT since leaving 6th Form. I'm still the same person, personality wise, but my appearance changed, not only weight wise (even though I started off really skinny at 19!) but also in the fact I've got piercings and stretched ears. A lot of the people who I was friends with found this weird (and a stupid ex was rather insulting about my choices!). Even customers at work have started making nasty comments about my lip piercings:

'I've got some Clearasil for those nasty spots in your lip'
'I'm not even going to ask why you'd do that to yourself'
'Do you know you've got something in your face?'
'Did you know you left your knife and fork in your face?' (This made me lol)
'They ruin your pretty face'

As you can see, unnecessary and unpleasant.
Some 'friends' commented on my weight-gain, saying 'You've put a lot of weight on you know - the worst part is, is that you KNOW you've put weight on, but you're not even doing anything about it!'

I mean, yeah I'm overweight - but I'm not even classed as obese! Who do they think they are?
Some people I'm friends with have actually started calling me for being a 'geek' (I collect a lot of comics & graphic novels) and for travelling around the UK (and world lol) to see Coheed. They make me feel shitty about myself.

But you know what. Sod them.
I'm losing weight; I've lost 12lbs that are never coming back.
And I tell you what, if there's one thing I've learnt about myself through talking to you lot on here, and for generally coming on this site, it's that you have to love yourself for who you are.

And I really am starting to love me. Yes, I am a huge geek. Yes I am probably far too obsessed with Coheed. Yes, I have piercings that some people dislike. And yes, I am overweight. But I guarantee that I have a lot less issues than those haters out there. And that makes me happy.



Now, awfully long and boring rant over.

Love you guys xxxx
 
Hiiii,
How have you been doing?? toaday i had a sunday dinner and icecream, fairy cakes topped off with jam and toast!!:eek:

But for the past few days I have not ate as had really bad insommnia and could'ntface food!!!

I have been invited to Paris in January and if I aint skinnier I aint going!!!!!

So im trying extra harder from now on - Good luck with the WI - il let you know how I go on.

P.S if the target meet-up party is after Paris i dont care if im not target the next day!!!!:p
 
Hey you!
It's been going okay, had a little bit of a rant, hence the above ramble of a post!

Oooh, Paris? How exciting! I LOVE France!
Definitely let me know how you do! xxxxxx
 
Love you too hun, so so so much!

Your post was one that will forever remain an insight into your heart, it's so nice that you shared it with us. I really like the positivity in the last two paragraphs - it sums you up entirely.

A few random songs that have really touched me in the past for a few different reasons:
My Immortal - Evanescence
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One

Hope you have a lovely sleep and I'll be on here the moment I wake up to see how you are xxx
 
Thank you <33
I love those songs too :) There's a fair few songs that resonate with me, but they're mainly all Coheed ones lol :)

Check you out with an avatar! <3
Beautiful much? xxxx
 
RubyMoss said:
This is going to be one of those rare moments where I am serious.

I've been sat listening to my (obviously) favourite band, Coheed and Cambria when their song 'The Light & The Glass' came on. It's a beautiful song, and it's one of the few songs that really moves me - gives me goosebumps! However, it's the lyrics that really got me thinking tonight:



Slowly the pen touches paper
In the guidance of the words that you write
Memories roll in of the things you once did
And who you had shared them with
Is somebody thinking of you?

Did I bother telling you this
With the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words in wanting to tell you anything
But words don't come with ease
They're forever my hurt

Would it really matter
If you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left well
Smiles staged in photographs here until


I think these lyrics actually mean something to me.


It's got me thinking about friends I've lost, and friends I thought I'd lost, but apparently haven't. It's made me think about me as a person, and my worth.
Since gaining weight I've really doubted myself in pretty much everything I do; University, relationships, work. I mean, I'm still a reasonably confident and outgoing person, but gaining weight kinda forced me to put up a barrier.

Talking to people over the past couple of years has kind of opened my eyes.

I've changed a LOT since leaving 6th Form. I'm still the same person, personality wise, but my appearance changed, not only weight wise (even though I started off really skinny at 19!) but also in the fact I've got piercings and stretched ears. A lot of the people who I was friends with found this weird (and a stupid ex was rather insulting about my choices!). Even customers at work have started making nasty comments about my lip piercings:

'I've got some Clearasil for those nasty spots in your lip'
'I'm not even going to ask why you'd do that to yourself'
'Do you know you've got something in your face?'
'Did you know you left your knife and fork in your face?' (This made me lol)
'They ruin your pretty face'

As you can see, unnecessary and unpleasant.
Some 'friends' commented on my weight-gain, saying 'You've put a lot of weight on you know - the worst part is, is that you KNOW you've put weight on, but you're not even doing anything about it!'

I mean, yeah I'm overweight - but I'm not even classed as obese! Who do they think they are?
Some people I'm friends with have actually started calling me for being a 'geek' (I collect a lot of comics & graphic novels) and for travelling around the UK (and world lol) to see Coheed. They make me feel shitty about myself.

But you know what. Sod them.
I'm losing weight; I've lost 12lbs that are never coming back.
And I tell you what, if there's one thing I've learnt about myself through talking to you lot on here, and for generally coming on this site, it's that you have to love yourself for who you are.

And I really am starting to love me. Yes, I am a huge geek. Yes I am probably far too obsessed with Coheed. Yes, I have piercings that some people dislike. And yes, I am overweight. But I guarantee that I have a lot less issues than those haters out there. And that makes me happy.



Now, awfully long and boring rant over.

Love you guys xxxx
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We love you too hun!! :grouphugg:

I read this post and felt really sad, as it's just such a shame that someone who is as lovely, and pretty, and obviously passionate about life as you are could be lacking in so much confidence :( It's terrible that we feel like that, or are made to feel like that by our supposed friends. They're the people who know us best, and yet are often the ones whose stupid comments do the most damage when we're already feeling fragile.

It's great to hear that you're starting to love yourself hun. Who cares if you're a geek (personally I don't think you are!! I'm a Chemistry teacher - now if that's not geeky I don't know what is! ;)), or whether you have unusual piercings, or whether you're obsessed with Coheed (again, it shows that you're passionate - obsessed is such a negative word!)? At the end of the day, you are who you are, and it's these things that make you the great person you are!! If your friends can't see that, then they're not really worth worrying about. Remember, be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind :)

In terms of your weight hun...it's great to hear that you're proud of your weight loss hun, you should be! You've lost 12lb, which is a fabulous amount! :D:D:D Just be smug in the knowledge that you can lose weight, but the people who make these nasty comments will always be nothing more than vacuous and vapid people!!!

Love you lots blodyn!!!! xxxxx
 
dudette2001uk said:
We love you too hun!! :grouphugg:

I read this post and felt really sad, as it's just such a shame that someone who is as lovely, and pretty, and obviously passionate about life as you are could be lacking in so much confidence :( It's terrible that we feel like that, or are made to feel like that by our supposed friends. They're the people who know us best, and yet are often the ones whose stupid comments do the most damage when we're already feeling fragile.

It's great to hear that you're starting to love yourself hun. Who cares if you're a geek (personally I don't think you are!! I'm a Chemistry teacher - now if that's not geeky I don't know what is! ;)), or whether you have unusual piercings, or whether you're obsessed with Coheed (again, it shows that you're passionate - obsessed is such a negative word!)? At the end of the day, you are who you are, and it's these things that make you the great person you are!! If your friends can't see that, then they're not really worth worrying about. Remember, be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind :)

In terms of your weight hun...it's great to hear that you're proud of your weight loss hun, you should be! You've lost 12lb, which is a fabulous amount! :D:D:D Just be smug in the knowledge that you can lose weight, but the people who make these nasty comments will always be nothing more than vacuous and vapid people!!!

Love you lots blodyn!!!! xxxxx
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Thank you! :D

You girlies make me smile! :D
You're right about it being our friends whose comments hurt the most, but from now on, I'm literally letting nothing get me down! :D

I'm glad I've got you guys who will listen to me even when I'm rambling like a woman possessed!

Aaaaand, today, I have officially lost 1 stone! :D

I don't think I've ever lost that much weight before! (Apart from when I stopped eating completely...) - really positive today! :D

xxxxxxxxxx
 
Hey - i quickly posted that reply last night and I have just read in depth your post - OMG!!!
I cant believe people can be like that and put people down without a second thought unaware that they can mentally scar a person for life and cause the person to literally go into self distruction mode... You live once, this is not a practice run, you live for you, so what if you have different interests or do things different to other people - thats what makes the world interesting if everybody were the same what would be the point in getting to know people?? - it would be boring... The people who say things like that have nothing better to do then envy the people they make the comments too as they are to self absorbed and do not have the mentality or the courage to live there own lives and make there own decisions.
I can understand and relate to this, especially the ex!! - these ex's tend to be the controling, manipulative types who are not worth the time of day - but when we are vunerable they spot us in a crowd and home in on us as they know we are vunerable and they can use us.
Im glad you are starting to love yourself - it's a hard process when you have had confidence knocked out of you from every direction - im still trying to do it!!
keep up the good work you are doing fantastically - you are a intelligent young girl who has so much to look forward too.
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That's better than gaining! :D

I'm never good *cries*

I went out with my little brother last night, typical Tuesday night out! Had probably less than 40syns while out, which isn't too bad... but I literally don't remember getting in. I resisted takeaway, and apparently made Ryvita when I got in (I woke up with Primula all over me!) but I don't understand how I can't remember getting home - I wasn't actually that drunk. I worry about myself sometimes... xxxx
 
RubyMoss said:
That's better than gaining! :D

I'm never good *cries*

I went out with my little brother last night, typical Tuesday night out! Had probably less than 40syns while out, which isn't too bad... but I literally don't remember getting in. I resisted takeaway, and apparently made Ryvita when I got in (I woke up with Primula all over me!) but I don't understand how I can't remember getting home - I wasn't actually that drunk. I worry about myself sometimes... xxxx
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Afternoon lovey! I shouldn't laugh, but :8855: I couldn't help myself when I read about you waking up with Primula all over you! :D Sounds like the kind of thing I do! Memory loss on a night out is never a good thing...I have a total blank after about 10pm from the last time I went out! :eek: Oops! At least your ickle brother was with you to keep an eye on you!

Btw...kudos to you on resisting the takeaways and going for Ryvita and Primula! NSV alert! :D

xxx
 
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