Hi Mav
I can imagine it is very difficult for you my lovely, and to be honest that's why I never mentioned it before in any of my posts to you, I know you will have all sorts racing through your mind anyway and I didn't want to mention it, even though you'll see it on the news everyday you can never comprehend how massive it is to go out there until one of your own are there can you.
He didn't have to do what he did to save the others and in hindsight he would obviously have still been here but I guess that's what he trained to do and he chose to save 10 others rather than himself. He had everything planned down to the dot for if he didn't come back too which says a lot for someone so young, right down to where he wanted to be buried and headstone. He even had a large amount of money set aside for a huge party for him if this happened.
He'll be home before you know it and you can then look forward to your life together wherever he will be posted.
Big hugs to you and sorry if I've made you worry even more, didn't intend to.
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