Hi Everyone
Sorry not been around for the last few days a hell of alot has been going on.
Day Two Weds - started on a two day course - all went well and stuck to SS
Day Three Thurs - Son ill in the morning, not going to school, had to get him to my mother in law's forgot packs
On day two of the course and because so busy in the morning, didnt even have my first one at home.... Desperation, so had a light lunch of tuna flakes, turkey, lettuce, cucumber and tomatoe. Not too much, but then the apple cruble summoned me - and ate it:sigh: :sigh: . Felt soooo awful and the thought of it on my tummy, I chucked it up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know wrong thing to do and did feel better. That evening was my cousin going into the church for the funeral - very sad:tear_drop:, had soup before went and a hot chocolate with packs when got home, went to bed with a headache from crying.
Day Four - Funeral Day. Had pack before I went and was more prepared than previous day, had packs in the car with me. Funeral service was absolutely lovely, very moving and spiritual. Coped well for most of the day - didn't drink, although desperately wanted a glass of wine, kept to the water. I only had two slices of turkey from the buffet to keep me going until I had my soup at about 7pm ish. Had hot chocolate with pack went to bed absolutely drained from the day.
Day Five - Sat, well this morning I had colonic hydrotherapy, it was one of the goals I had put in before I started to keep me motivated on my first week. Well it was....... different!!
Feeling quite good, kept to my packs, and drinking plenty of water. Feeling hungry tonight, am tryping to keep those sabotaging thoughts away, I have got to keep going.
Sorry it's a long post, but had a few things to say, I have to go out now but I will try and catch up later.
Take care
Saksred.xx
