Thanks!
Bostik - I think I said before, we are almost the same height and weight, so yes it would be great to spur each other on!
I am just disappointed with myself - this time last year I had lost 3 stone in 5 months. Since then I have stayed the same weight. The same weight for a year!! That is not good.
I never want anyone to know my starting weight - I am totally embarrased about it, and to be honest, other than on here, I am sure no one will ever know my weight, even if I get to ten stone!
My boyfriend is gorgeous, (not that I am shallow!!) and has an amazing body. He is always going on about it though - how he needs to lose another inch, how he needs to build up muscle, blah blah blah. He talks about cals and fat etc as if I know nothing about it and I really want to say - you know what, I lost 3 stone, I know how it works!
But I would be embarrased for him to think I weighed 3 stone MORE than I do now, so I will not tell him! It is the same with my uni friends - none of them knew me at 18 stone, only now, so they will never know! Unless they look back at my old photos, where you can see a difference.
I want to do well with this running. My family has a charity set up for my uncle who died and I missed out on doing a half marathon this year (fitness) and a skydive (weight) - when these come around next year, I want to be able to do them. Maybe not the half marathon - but maybe a 10k. I NEED to lose the weight.
My problem is binges. My main meals are fine - I can eat healthily then. My issue is that I will find excuses for a binge - well I havent done great today, so I'll just go and buy a packet of biscuits and eat them all, or a multipack of chcolate bars and eat them until I feel sick.
WHY do I do it?!!?
I am proud of myself for what I have lost so far but I just need to keep going. Despite not losing, this is the longest, by well over a year, that I have kept to a diet in general, and so I need to carry it on before I lose it.
RANT OVER!
I am going to write out a plan for the next two weeks - bit OTT but this is more for my benefit!
Friday 2nd
B: Belvita breakfast biscuits. L: wrap, crisps and cereal bar. D: wrap, crisps and cereal bar (repetitive but it works!!). E: C25K - W3D1. Will be under calories.
Saturday 3rd
No plans for the day. Supposed to be a night out but I WILL NOT GO! Food will be the same as the day before. I will go for a walk.
Sunday 4th
Again, no plans. I will eat the same food and go for a run - C25K - W3D2.
Monday 5th
Working - same food as the previous days. Walk in the evening.
Tuesday 6th
Working - same food as the previous days. Run - C25K W3D3.
Wednesday 7th
Working - same food as previous days. Going to my bfs for the night. He'll be going to the gym. I can either walk at lunch or while he is at the gym - I think I'll go for when he is at the gym. He will want a few vodka diet cokes in the eve but I will say NO!
Thursday 8th
Day off from work. Hopefully not doing much with my bf. Probably will have no breakfast. Again, he is meant to be going to the gym - if he goes in the am then I will go for a walk, if he goes in the evening then I'll go home and go for a run - C25K - W4R1!! Foodwise, he is on a diet too so I'll probably have chicken with herbs and veg!
Friday 9th
Last day at work - will not take in cakes! Food will be standard work food - wrap etc. Exercise will be a walk in the evening.
Saturday 10th
Moving to uni - this is where the madness begins! From here onwards for the next two weeks at least my life will revolve around sleeping and drinking! I am going to make sure the only food I have in the house is healthy. I am going to make sure the only alcohol I have is vodka. That way, hopefully I will stick to healthy food throughout the day, and 'healthy'(!!) drink at night! I will dance LOADS! I will try to run 3 times a week.
I binge eat. If I fail with my diet, it is because of a binge. I am sure that anyone else who does this does the same as me - has to hide the rubbish from the food. I am hoping that living with 6 others will stop me doing this. Bit sad that I have this issue still.
I have a very addictive personality and I do think this contributes. I have never touched drugs or cigarettes - purely because I think if I do I will get hooked!
Right, essay over - this has helped me! Sorry to bore you all!
