Hi longwaytogo, I don't know if this might help...I read a book a while ago called the amazing adventures of dietgirl by Shauna Reid. Its her story and she is a fantastic funny writer and accurately tells it how it is. I think at the beginning of her journey (and it was a long one) she felt like the fattest woman in Australia. She's now 12 stone something and happily married. I found it hugely inspiring and reading it made me feel like I had a close friend, understanding exactly how I felt. Wonder if it might be some use to you? She also has a website now but worth reading the book first - fantastic read if nothing else. Wishing you all the best x