broadsbean
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not too bad that lily, must remember not to drink loads in the morning 
go have a nice restfull and relaxing evening xxxxxx
go have a nice restfull and relaxing evening xxxxxx
Sick of carrying 2 hitch hikers about, so this is my diary
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Lily42uk
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Thanks hun, feeling a lot better this morning thank you xx:hug99:xxx
1 lb isn't bad and sounds like the WEE gain is gone. Pun entirely intended BTW.
Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks hun, I feel ok this morning thanks, fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, not sure what time that was, think it was about 9.30pm and have just woken (5.25am), I am determined this week, had a really good long chat with Kelly yesterday...how did I get to have such a sensible child lol she kept pointing out that I have had a lot to contend with in my life and have managed to get through it all, not always smoothly and while I know this, it's sometimes good to be reminded of it...so I had a good cry, a good cuddle, Kirsty bless her bought me a bag of Marshmallows, my favourites cos she said sometimes you just have to have some comfort ....and I did so now I have a week to work them off ...but I swear I will and I am now back and back on it...even with my blotchy face lol :hug99: xxxx
not too bad that lily, must remember not to drink loads in the morning
go have a nice restfull and relaxing evening xxxxxx
Hey sweetie, I swear, it wasn't until I got about halfway through our class tonight that it suddenly hit me that I had drunk loads of water, while I do that on a daily basis anyway I tend to hold back a bit on WI day, but that just went out the window yesterday...on a plus I suppose it gives me a head start on WI next week, cos I intend to be super good this week, I need to get this ball rolling.
Thanks hun, I had a very restful evening, fast asleep :giggle: xxx:hug99: xxxx
Thanks hun, I feel a lot better this morning, amazing what a good sleep can do :hug99: xxxxx
awww my lovely lovely twin :bighug: I am so sorry to hear you are so down
Has your face come up again?
Here if you need me lovely anytime :bighug: x
Thank you my lovely twin, my face was a mess last night, it doesn't take too kindly to me crying, all that salt water makes it blister a bit, but it's okish now, a few days and they will be gone, ....I just needed to let go of some of the pressure I guess and it just blew yesterday....I know why and will fill you in in a mo...stupid me lol....I appreciate your offer and know you will always be there for me ..all of you and that's why I love you all so much, you really are the best, each and every one of you :hug99: xxxxxx
Thanks sweetie, I do already, it's the silliest things that set us off isn't it lol :hug99: xxxxxxxxx
Purple Patsy
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So glad you're feeling a bit better lovely Lily.
Lily42uk
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Good morning lovelies, thought I best come and explain myself after my little off day yesterday.
To explain yesterday, I have to explain me first .....I am the kind of person who looks like she doesn't have a care in the world (other than the fact that I have silver grey hair and have had for a number of years all covered by a gorgeous chocolate brown hair dye...you'd never know lol), but I, like a lot of people worry and fret over everything and yesterday was a culmination of everything that has worried and bothered me for a while....also I am the world's best at explaining myself on written paper or by email or in blogs etc, but when it comes to verbalising it, I get really tongue tied and things don't come out as I want them to and so I get frustrated and it builds up until something happens and I then blow a fuse (sound familiar??? I think a lot of us have the same problem)..Well what happened yesterday was my clumsiness ...again...although this wasn't entirely my fault.....as you all know I have had a series of silly little accidents, now whether yesterdays accident happened because I woke feeling a little low or stressed I don't know but it was the straw that broke this camels back....Mark had left my new, very heavy roasting tins from the night before on top of the bin (he'd taken them out of the oven and placed them on top of my bin rather than on one of my counters...god knows why but who can explain what and why men do things lol), now 1 of these roasting tins is heavy enough, but I have 2 which slot very nicely one inside the other, so I went to move them yesterday morning and dropped them on top of my foot, I won't repeat what I said but believe me the air was blue and it hurt like hell, I have a lovely big bruise right across the top of my left foot and while I can put my foot to the ground it bl00dy well hurts even now. Well that was my final straw, I just lost it, everything came flooding out, money worries, temptations thrown at me on a daily basis, my frustration over jobs I keep asking Mal to do, my weight was there too but not top of the list believe me, every little thing you could think of and boy did it make me feel low.....so sensible Kelly (her and my sis are 2 of the wisest people on this planet, I keep telling them they got the wisdom and I got the looks :giggle:, funny that they are both Scorpio's too eh?), who seems to have a 6th sense when it comes to me, rang just as I was going into melt down mode (said she felt an urge that I needed her ...how weird is that?) and took over, wouldn't take no for an answer and then drove over and got me...even though I hadn't at that point lost it with Mal I think I may well have done later and she saved that from happeneing.
So I got to Kelly's and we talked and so did her hubby Simon and I got everything out all my frustrations and dealt with them, then when i got home last night I had a really good chat with Mal about it and cos Kelly had helped me diffuse the situation, we actually talked sensibly and have dealt with most of the frustrations.
Money we can't do anything about, but after next month it will be a bit easier, thank god.
The things needing doing round the house, we have decided to do bit by bit, making the jobs like the tiles falling off the toilet wall a priority over the walls needing painting ..see all silly little frustrations.
But the biggest discussion was over temptations: Mal is 10st 5lb and 5ft 11ins tall...so like a stick insect and he stuffs his face with biscuits, crisps, cakes, sweets, chocolates, excessively on a regular even daily basis, in front of me. Now funnily enough the only thing amongst all that that doesn't bother me is the crisps (I was a crispaholic, anything up to 10 bags a day) and that's because he only eats the Sunbites and I don't actually like them phew lol, but the rest even the chocolate (now I'm not a big choccie fan) which wouldn't normally bother me, gets to me when he buys 4 of the biggest Aero bars a week and then sits and eats the lot right in front of me within a week, he also has 3-4 boxes of cakes, the latest being chocolate mallows and he has always had anything up to a dozen packets of biscuits a week....most mornings he prepares my breakfast and then sits down next to me with a pile of biscuits for his breakfast....so that's what I face on a daily basis and I can resist that 95% of the time...but all I need is a bad day and I find myself raiding his supplies and it's not right or fair, he doesn't even try and hide them...we have 2 computer desks in our living room, 1 mine 1 his and his has got 4 cubby holes of which about half is full of his chocolates and sweets, the rest of his goodies sit facing me in my kitchen.
So I had a really good chat with him yesterday said that even though he could eat them as he doesn't gain weight, even when he's trying to, it's not fair to me and really not healthy and not a good example to set our grandchildren and yes Kirsty too....so we have agreed that he will cut back immensely and will try to add more fruit (he wears dentures and finds some fruit impossible to eat, so need to find what he can cope with) and healthy substitutes and bless him the 1st thinge he did was go to the cupboard and get the packet of choclate mallows and throw them in the bin (he probably had his head in the bin retrieving them once I was out of sight :giggle
The other problem with me is I need structure in my life, so while Mal was working I had my day planned out, that has all fallen by the wayside cos we tend to pop out a lot and do stuff that I wasn't doing before, so we are sitting down today to work out a plan for the days ahead whereby I have more structure in my routine, especially with things like exercise, I always used to exercise from 12-2 since he has been home permanently for the last 4 months, that has gone by the wayside and I often find myself not being bothered to do it cos it interrupts his TV time or gets in his way...so again we need to work on a plan whereby I can do what I need to do so that it suits us both.
Anyways lovelies, sorry it's been such a long winded ramble, but I really felt I needed to explain yesterday.....hope you all have a lovely lovely day, I am off to have my brekkie (oh that's a new part of the plan too, I am going to break my meals down into 6 smaller meals and that way I hopefully won't feel the need to snack :fingerscrossed: ) :hug99: xxxx:bighug:xxxx:hug99:xxxx
To explain yesterday, I have to explain me first .....I am the kind of person who looks like she doesn't have a care in the world (other than the fact that I have silver grey hair and have had for a number of years all covered by a gorgeous chocolate brown hair dye...you'd never know lol), but I, like a lot of people worry and fret over everything and yesterday was a culmination of everything that has worried and bothered me for a while....also I am the world's best at explaining myself on written paper or by email or in blogs etc, but when it comes to verbalising it, I get really tongue tied and things don't come out as I want them to and so I get frustrated and it builds up until something happens and I then blow a fuse (sound familiar??? I think a lot of us have the same problem)..Well what happened yesterday was my clumsiness ...again...although this wasn't entirely my fault.....as you all know I have had a series of silly little accidents, now whether yesterdays accident happened because I woke feeling a little low or stressed I don't know but it was the straw that broke this camels back....Mark had left my new, very heavy roasting tins from the night before on top of the bin (he'd taken them out of the oven and placed them on top of my bin rather than on one of my counters...god knows why but who can explain what and why men do things lol), now 1 of these roasting tins is heavy enough, but I have 2 which slot very nicely one inside the other, so I went to move them yesterday morning and dropped them on top of my foot, I won't repeat what I said but believe me the air was blue and it hurt like hell, I have a lovely big bruise right across the top of my left foot and while I can put my foot to the ground it bl00dy well hurts even now. Well that was my final straw, I just lost it, everything came flooding out, money worries, temptations thrown at me on a daily basis, my frustration over jobs I keep asking Mal to do, my weight was there too but not top of the list believe me, every little thing you could think of and boy did it make me feel low.....so sensible Kelly (her and my sis are 2 of the wisest people on this planet, I keep telling them they got the wisdom and I got the looks :giggle:, funny that they are both Scorpio's too eh?), who seems to have a 6th sense when it comes to me, rang just as I was going into melt down mode (said she felt an urge that I needed her ...how weird is that?) and took over, wouldn't take no for an answer and then drove over and got me...even though I hadn't at that point lost it with Mal I think I may well have done later and she saved that from happeneing.
So I got to Kelly's and we talked and so did her hubby Simon and I got everything out all my frustrations and dealt with them, then when i got home last night I had a really good chat with Mal about it and cos Kelly had helped me diffuse the situation, we actually talked sensibly and have dealt with most of the frustrations.
Money we can't do anything about, but after next month it will be a bit easier, thank god.
The things needing doing round the house, we have decided to do bit by bit, making the jobs like the tiles falling off the toilet wall a priority over the walls needing painting ..see all silly little frustrations.
But the biggest discussion was over temptations: Mal is 10st 5lb and 5ft 11ins tall...so like a stick insect and he stuffs his face with biscuits, crisps, cakes, sweets, chocolates, excessively on a regular even daily basis, in front of me. Now funnily enough the only thing amongst all that that doesn't bother me is the crisps (I was a crispaholic, anything up to 10 bags a day) and that's because he only eats the Sunbites and I don't actually like them phew lol, but the rest even the chocolate (now I'm not a big choccie fan) which wouldn't normally bother me, gets to me when he buys 4 of the biggest Aero bars a week and then sits and eats the lot right in front of me within a week, he also has 3-4 boxes of cakes, the latest being chocolate mallows
and he has always had anything up to a dozen packets of biscuits a week....most mornings he prepares my breakfast and then sits down next to me with a pile of biscuits for his breakfast....so that's what I face on a daily basis and I can resist that 95% of the time...but all I need is a bad day and I find myself raiding his supplies and it's not right or fair, he doesn't even try and hide them...we have 2 computer desks in our living room, 1 mine 1 his and his has got 4 cubby holes of which about half is full of his chocolates and sweets, the rest of his goodies sit facing me in my kitchen.So I had a really good chat with him yesterday said that even though he could eat them as he doesn't gain weight, even when he's trying to, it's not fair to me and really not healthy and not a good example to set our grandchildren and yes Kirsty too....so we have agreed that he will cut back immensely and will try to add more fruit (he wears dentures and finds some fruit impossible to eat, so need to find what he can cope with) and healthy substitutes and bless him the 1st thinge he did was go to the cupboard and get the packet of choclate mallows and throw them in the bin (he probably had his head in the bin retrieving them once I was out of sight :giggle
The other problem with me is I need structure in my life, so while Mal was working I had my day planned out, that has all fallen by the wayside cos we tend to pop out a lot and do stuff that I wasn't doing before, so we are sitting down today to work out a plan for the days ahead whereby I have more structure in my routine, especially with things like exercise, I always used to exercise from 12-2 since he has been home permanently for the last 4 months, that has gone by the wayside and I often find myself not being bothered to do it cos it interrupts his TV time or gets in his way...so again we need to work on a plan whereby I can do what I need to do so that it suits us both.
Anyways lovelies, sorry it's been such a long winded ramble, but I really felt I needed to explain yesterday.....hope you all have a lovely lovely day, I am off to have my brekkie (oh that's a new part of the plan too, I am going to break my meals down into 6 smaller meals and that way I hopefully won't feel the need to snack :fingerscrossed: ) :hug99: xxxx:bighug:xxxx:hug99:xxxx
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Lily42uk
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Glad things are looking brighter for you today
Morning sweetie, thank you, yep a good cry and a cuddle will do it everytime :bighug: xxxx
So glad you're feeling a bit better lovely Lily.
Thanks sweetie, I do feel a lot better today, very tired still but got a bit more hope and :fingerscrossed: I'll get through today without a bl00dy accident too lol :hug99: xxxxxxx
And there was me thinking I'd be the only one up at this time in the morning :giggle: xxxxxxx
Lily42uk
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And a bit just writing all that down feels like weight has been lifted!
I was up but completely against my will and now plan to go to bed
Hey sweetie, I do feel like a real load has been lifted, always helps to write it down doesn't it xx
Hope you have a good sleep hunni :hug99: xxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you sweetie, I plan on having a really good day today, got a bit of planning to do but I reckon it'll be good
Hope you have a great day too hun :hug99: xxxxxxxxxxxx
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
Aw Lily your foot bet that hurt. Hopefully now you have all talked things will resolve. OH has never had a weight problem and leaves stuff lying around all the time that used to get to me. I'd then eat and replace it :giggle: they just don't think but they are men my lovely and their brains are in a different place to ours :giggle:
I hope you are okay now and have to dash to get dressed and take madam Charlie to school but I read your post and didn't want to dash off without a few of these :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
bet that hurt. Hopefully now you have all talked things will resolve. OH has never had a weight problem and leaves stuff lying around all the time that used to get to me. I'd then eat and replace it :giggle: they just don't think but they are men my lovely and their brains are in a different place to ours :giggle:I hope you are okay now and have to dash to get dressed and take madam Charlie to school but I read your post and didn't want to dash off without a few of these :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Lily42uk
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Aw Lily your foot
I hope you are okay now and have to dash to get dressed and take madam Charlie to school but I read your post and didn't want to dash off without a few of these :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you so much my lovely twin, omg my foot is black, thankfully it was across the middle of my foot and not on my toes so I can still walk about.....just
I really believe that the build of of stress is what has been causing me to have all these little accidents as I'm not normally that accident prone, I reckon my mind has been elsewhere and I lost concentration...oh well at the very least it will teach me to be a little more careful eh?
The funny thing is the food hasn't really bothered me since I started to lose weight (which is about 4 years now), it's just lately that I find myself picking at it when really really tired and to be honest, Mal really needs to work on eating a lot more sensibly, it's ridiculous the rubbish he puts in his body, it's gotten to the point where he is replacing meals with it, he rarely if ever has breakfast but will eat 5 or 6 biscuits instead, then he will have something like thick jam or peanut butter on toast for lunch followed by more biscuits and cakes and then he will eat about half his dinner and follow that with more biscuits, crisps and chocolate, he never eats fruit unless I make a fruit salad and actually serve it to him and even then he eats tons of cream with it (well he did until I started using the Total % Greek Yogurt and making cream with it ) and will eat as few vegetables as he can get away with. So like I said it's built up along with other things and just culminated in my mini melt down yesterday...all I can say is thank god for Kelly and you my lovely friends xxxx
Hope you have a fabulous day sweetie :hug99: xxxxx
Lily42uk
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Thanks hun, Kelly has her moments believe me, but she is a big Mummy's girl (Kirsty is a Daddy's girl) and can always sense when I need her, she was brilliant yesterday.....the sad thing with Kelly is she has had a lot of carp thrown at her over the years so puts on a tough front, not many people get to see the real Kelly and unfortunately they judge her by that...shame cos she really is a lovely lovely person, hopefully the barriers will drop as time goes on and people will get to see the real her, like I and only the people that are really close to her see.
I am feeling really good, really hungry and actually a little tired and cold ...so much for my early start to the day lol
OMG I have everything crossed for an accident free day lol
Hope you have a lovely day too hun :hug99: xxxxxxxxxxx
Lily42uk
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Omg isn't it the most painful thing, top of my left foot is totally black....I wouldn't mind but I only just bought these pans from Lakeland and they are twice as heavy as my old one ....I bet the air was blue in your house too or are you a lady unlike me :giggle:
Have a fabulous day hun :hug99: xxxx
Oh, the air was well and truly blue I can assure you!
And you have a good day too! xxx
