Tasha's Ramblings

[tashy100]

Well its day 7 and still going okay!!!

Keep dreaming about food - what is that all about - very vivid dreams - I had one where my food cupboard was actually out in the street by a busy road. I was feeling very hungry and went to the cupboard - it was full of yummy things like luxury chocolate biscuits, bread and cakes. I really wanted something but didnt have anything because I was too embarrassed to take anything with everyone being able to see, so I shut the door and walked away! Whats all that about

Last night I dreamt I had salmon fillets with cheesy mash and peas - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Woke up feeling very guilty and then very relieved when I realised that actually I hadn't!!!

Am going to read everyones diarys tonight - am at work and if I keep logging on Im going to get the sack This site is very addictive as well as being supportive

Have a great day everyone

Tasha

 

[tashy100]

Arghrghrghrghrgh Just drove home with the kids from their childminder - who true to form has given them a fab day including making some chocolate crispy cakes - TO BRING HOME!!!!! OMG the wonderful smell - also they both wanted to give me one - Bless

 

[kazz]

Well its day 7 and still going okay!!!

Keep dreaming about food - what is that all about - very vivid dreams - I had one where my food cupboard was actually out in the street by a busy road. I was feeling very hungry and went to the cupboard - it was full of yummy things like luxury chocolate biscuits, bread and cakes. I really wanted something but didnt have anything because I was too embarrassed to take anything with everyone being able to see, so I shut the door and walked away! Whats all that about

Last night I dreamt I had salmon fillets with cheesy mash and peas - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Woke up feeling very guilty and then very relieved when I realised that actually I hadn't!!!

Am going to read everyones diarys tonight - am at work and if I keep logging on Im going to get the sack This site is very addictive as well as being supportive

Have a great day everyone

Tasha

Arghrghrghrghrgh Just drove home with the kids from their childminder - who true to form has given them a fab day including making some chocolate crispy cakes - TO BRING HOME!!!!! OMG the wonderful smell - also they both wanted to give me one - Bless

I've had food dreams too.....mainly about dominos pizza or eddie rockets chicken tenders!!! oh, and cheesy fries!! Well doe on resisting the choc crispies.....but sure isnt it a sign of how wel we are bringin up our kids that they constantly want to share!! Chloe is constantly trying to give me stuff!!

 

[Mich]

Hi Tasha!

Glad to hear you are doing so well - keep it up girly and you'll soon be at target!

Kids eh.....cornflake cakes are just lush - I need to get mine to make some for eldest boys birthday on Friday - he will be 11! Can't believe I've an 11 year old son! I know I'm 41 but in my head I'm still about 20 - sometimes I feel I'm 'playing' at being a grown up....does that sound mad?

I'm glad your kids have a good time with the childminder - mine are all at school now and I only work term time but was lucky to have a good childminder/nursery when needed - it make life so much easier!

Anyway as you read on my thread things have gone a bit t*ts up the last couple of days but now I'm back on line you guys have given me loads of support and I'm feeling strong and determined again.....so tomorrow - back at it!

Hope you continue to do well!

Catch up tomorrow
Love

 

[tashy100]

Hi Tasha!

Glad to hear you are doing so well - keep it up girly and you'll soon be at target!

Kids eh.....cornflake cakes are just lush - I need to get mine to make some for eldest boys birthday on Friday - he will be 11! Can't believe I've an 11 year old son! I know I'm 41 but in my head I'm still about 20 - sometimes I feel I'm 'playing' at being a grown up....does that sound mad?

I'm glad your kids have a good time with the childminder - mine are all at school now and I only work term time but was lucky to have a good childminder/nursery when needed - it make life so much easier!

Anyway as you read on my thread things have gone a bit t*ts up the last couple of days but now I'm back on line you guys have given me loads of support and I'm feeling strong and determined again.....so tomorrow - back at it!

Hope you continue to do well!

Catch up tomorrow
Love

Nope - that doesnt sound mad at all!! My daughter is 10 - 11 in February and sometimes I feel that I am nowhere near mature enough to be parenting a near puberty girl
I have bigger tantrums that the kids do sometimes

It would be great to work termtime only - however I am at least able to work school hours so only have a problem in the holidays!

Glad you are feeling strong - hope it goes well for you today - and if it doesnt - dont beat yourself up!!

For the records Im bluddy starving!!!

Have a lovely day

Love Tasha

 

[tashy100]

Hi Folks

Well 1 week in and have lost 6lbs! I pretty happy with that. BMI now 24.4 but did body fat on scales this morning and says 39% - whats all that about - do you reckon thats correct?

Anyway - keep going on I guess - feeling pretty hungry yesterday and today but want to lose anoth 3 lbs this coming week so must keep at it!!

Have a good one

Tasha

 

[dizzy-n-mizzy]

Catching up with you.

Hi Diana

Thankyou Am pretty chuffed with myself I must say!!!

How are you doing - have looked for a diary thread for you and cant find one

Nope - have to work this week . My children are off next Mon and Tues too - and have booked Tuesday off - I only get 4 weeks hols and I always make sure I have Christmas off and 2 weeks in summer hols which doesnt leave much for anything else

Bummer STill - I have a GREAT childminder who is a real gem and also my Mum is having them tomorrow and Thursday so its not all bad Also hope to do something nice this weekend with them.

Hope things going well for you - are you off work?

Tasha

Hi Tasha

Just trying to catch up a little with you. Great that you have your Mum and a good childminder to rely on for the holidays means you can work without the worry and guilt. Do you enjoy your job?

I haven't gone out to work since I had children, that's 10 years now. My youngest has just started school so I am keen to get back to part time work before long but will need somehing to fit around the family including school holidays as I have no family nearby to help out. Part of my motivation for finally stopping putting on and losing the extra weight was that I didn't feel confident or fit enough to either get or hold down any kind of job. (Sad really but I guess 10 years out of the work force and reacting to stress by eating do that to you). Anyway I feel much more confident now but have been enjoying a little time through the day to suit myself.

Also you asked me about a diary thread but no I don't have one. This is the first forum I have been on and so have been learning how they work and the etiquette etc. I haven't started a diary partly because I was not at the beginning of the diet and didin't know where to start. I also haven't been reading others diarys as I felt they were more of a personal thing but as I developed a relationship early on with a couple of you I have started reading them and now realise that it is normal to read and comment on peoples diaries and not such a personal thing as I thought.

I am thinking of starting a deadly dull diary for myself mostly to record what I eat through the day as I am reintroducing foods and it is more tricky than SSing. i am not an organised eater and maybe it will help me be more organised. Also if I have to list all I eat that will be a control in itself as I would be mortified to have to list a binge.

You seem to be doing so well I'm sure you will be at target before you know it.

I have found the wet and cold weather has had an effect on me also a few late nights. i have been more low and tired the last few days and feel I need to dig out my reading glasses with all this reading on the computer which has been making my eyes tired.

True to form you haven't had a simple answer from me. I still have the rest of your diary to read so will probably drop by again in a while.

Until then

Diana x

 

[dizzy-n-mizzy]

Well its day 7 and still going okay!!!

Keep dreaming about food - what is that all about - very vivid dreams - I had one where my food cupboard was actually out in the street by a busy road. I was feeling very hungry and went to the cupboard - it was full of yummy things like luxury chocolate biscuits, bread and cakes. I really wanted something but didnt have anything because I was too embarrassed to take anything with everyone being able to see, so I shut the door and walked away! Whats all that about

Last night I dreamt I had salmon fillets with cheesy mash and peas - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Woke up feeling very guilty and then very relieved when I realised that actually I hadn't!!!

Am going to read everyones diarys tonight - am at work and if I keep logging on Im going to get the sack This site is very addictive as well as being supportive

Have a great day everyone

Tasha

Hi again Tasha

I had one diet related dream too and started a thread the next day about it. Naughty Charlie from Corrie was force feeding me chips to get me out of ketosis. In the end I realised I was so focused on the diet and sticking to it that I was still on guard and night too.

Dizzy x

 

[dizzy-n-mizzy]

Hi Folks

Well 1 week in and have lost 6lbs! I pretty happy with that. BMI now 24.4 but did body fat on scales this morning and says 39% - whats all that about - do you reckon thats correct?

Anyway - keep going on I guess - feeling pretty hungry yesterday and today but want to lose anoth 3 lbs this coming week so must keep at it!!

Have a good one

Tasha

Hi Tasha, Once more

6lb loss is great! I'm not sure about these bodyfatmonitor %tages as you know mine is high too. I think we need to take all these measurements and use our eyes and how we feel to find our correct weight in the end. I do know I need to tone and exercise I guess that will help get the bodyfatpercentage down some.

Speak to you again soon.

Dizzy x

 

[happygal]

Hi Tasha

You are doing really superb!! You will do fine, I have full faith in you. Plus you have all of us here to support you!!

 

[tashy100]

Hi Tasha

Just trying to catch up a little with you. Great that you have your Mum and a good childminder to rely on for the holidays means you can work without the worry and guilt. Do you enjoy your job?

I haven't gone out to work since I had children, that's 10 years now. My youngest has just started school so I am keen to get back to part time work before long but will need somehing to fit around the family including school holidays as I have no family nearby to help out. Part of my motivation for finally stopping putting on and losing the extra weight was that I didn't feel confident or fit enough to either get or hold down any kind of job. (Sad really but I guess 10 years out of the work force and reacting to stress by eating do that to you). Anyway I feel much more confident now but have been enjoying a little time through the day to suit myself.

Also you asked me about a diary thread but no I don't have one. This is the first forum I have been on and so have been learning how they work and the etiquette etc. I haven't started a diary partly because I was not at the beginning of the diet and didin't know where to start. I also haven't been reading others diarys as I felt they were more of a personal thing but as I developed a relationship early on with a couple of you I have started reading them and now realise that it is normal to read and comment on peoples diaries and not such a personal thing as I thought.

I am thinking of starting a deadly dull diary for myself mostly to record what I eat through the day as I am reintroducing foods and it is more tricky than SSing. i am not an organised eater and maybe it will help me be more organised. Also if I have to list all I eat that will be a control in itself as I would be mortified to have to list a binge.

You seem to be doing so well I'm sure you will be at target before you know it.

I have found the wet and cold weather has had an effect on me also a few late nights. i have been more low and tired the last few days and feel I need to dig out my reading glasses with all this reading on the computer which has been making my eyes tired.

True to form you haven't had a simple answer from me. I still have the rest of your diary to read so will probably drop by again in a while.

Until then

Diana x

Hi Diana

Hope you have had a good weekend. I have been away this weekend - a spur of the moment trip to Brighton (my other half comes from there). So have been eating Im afraid although not out of control at all - so hope to have only put on 2ish pounds and back to it now!! Will weigh myself tomorrow and find out .

Yes I am lucky to have a great child minder and my Mum is great . I do enjoy my job - but if I had the choice I wouldnt work - I dont enjoy it that much!!! and if I had my time again I would not have gone back to work because once you do it is hard to then take the salary cut - (impossible now as am divorced!)

Must have been nice to be totally with your kids whilst they are young (not easy though I bet!! ). Hope you find something that fits in work-wise and something that you enjoy - it seems much easier these days as employers appear to be far more flexible than they were.

I am positive that your diary would not be dull!!! I love reading your posts and from comments Ive seen so do lots of others!!!

I know what you mean about the weather - it is so gloomy outside whilst am typing this - makes you want to curl up and hiberate (with lots of comfort food !!)

Anyway - must go and tackle the washing/lunch boxes/bedtime etc

Love

Tasha

 

[tashy100]

Hi Tasha, Once more

6lb loss is great! I'm not sure about these bodyfatmonitor %tages as you know mine is high too. I think we need to take all these measurements and use our eyes and how we feel to find our correct weight in the end. I do know I need to tone and exercise I guess that will help get the bodyfatpercentage down some.

Speak to you again soon.

Dizzy x

Thanks!!!! Might be less by now though!!

I agree - use the mirror and how clothes feel - you can get too wrapped up in the statistics of it all if you arnt careful!!

 

[tashy100]

Hi Tasha

You are doing really superb!! You will do fine, I have full faith in you. Plus you have all of us here to support you!!

Thanks so much Claire

 

[dizzy-n-mizzy]

Hi Tasha

Glad you had a good weekend. I think it's fine that you ate sensibly as you are not overweight or have far to go. Like we've mentioned many times before eating sensibly is a greater achievement that sticking to the SSing. Hope you are still doing well now back to routine. Not bad to have the other halfs parents in Brighton, bet the kids like to visit them especially in the summer.

Shame you don't like your job too much. I know what you mean about having to work once you go back. We have always felt we would just manage and then when I go back it really will be extra. I am lucky that my husband does have a good job but it still spreads thinly when it is supporting the five of us. We do OK really but would love a bigger house.

Thanks for your kind words re Me starting a diary. I really may start one as I really felt like it was a whole new start for me yesterday when I suddenly realised that I want this diet over ASAP!!!!

Speak to you soon.

Dizzy x

 

[tashy100]

Well weighed myself this morning and have stayed the same 11/6 . I suppose thats not too bad considering I stopped ssing last Wednesday - ate really well over the weekend (prob arouns 1800 cal per day average) and since then have been eating around 1200 per day. At least I havent regained any - also is TOTM this weekend and I guess am retaining a 1lb or 2.

My BMI is now under 25 and so I think that from now on am going to have 2 packs and then food to give a total cal per day of 1000-1100. Reckon should lose about 1.5 lbs per week that way. By Christmas that should be me down to 10/10 and then end Jan for goal . Could do it quicker but I think that is would not be so good for my body to continue to SS.

My OH proposed on Sunday I said yes and we are planning to get married next summer some time. SO want to be lovely and slim for then.

Love to all!!

Tasha

 

[dizzy-n-mizzy]

CONGRATULATIONS TASHA ON BEING A NEW BRIDE TO BE!

How exciting. You will definitely be lovely and slim for him.

Glad your being so sensible with your eating and dieting plans.

You really seem very calm and happy with how things are going.

Congratulations on not gaining too after the weekend but you certainly do seem to be have everything under control at the moment.

Dizzy x

 

[kazz]

Oh Tasha, congrats on the engagment!!! I'm sure by then you will be feeling & looking fantastic!!

 

[Mich]

Hi Tasha!

How's it going hun? Hope your doing OK - not seen you around for a while - although that said I am not posting daily either!

Wonderful news about the proposal - you will make a stunning bride I have no doubts about that

Hope to hear from you soon.

Love

 

[tashy100]

Thanks folks!!

Havent posted for a while - has been pretty stressful in Tashyland. As I said - my OH proposed and we plan to get married in June - finances dependant.

Reason life has been stressful is that last weekend (I knew things were not good) my ex husband and his wife announced that they were seperating. My kids go there every other weekend and come back with stories of screaming rows and name calling it makes them upset and worried for their Dad (even though I am SURE its 50/50).

They have only been married 22 months and have a 1 year old baby girl who is absolutely lovely. I still get on well with my Ex and also very well with his wife (we split over 4 years ago - my choice). It is very hard - for my kids and for hers and theirs. It also brings back the feelings of guilt for me - even though I know that this time its not my fault!!!

Its also having a knock on effect into my relationship - my OH is feeling very insecure and resentful that we seem to be focussing and talking about their marriage breakdown instead of our impending marriage - but its not that simple - I cannot just ignore a major event in the kids lives AND it also saddens me personally.

Bum bum bum

Also - my OH is a compulsive gambler - really bad - he owes so much money to so many people that it makes me feel sick. He owes me 30K (I know I know - dont say it). However for the last 6 months he has made a huge effort - he made me a promise that he wouldnt go to the casino (roulette is his thing - I have watched him lose 8500 in one night ) until he paid me back what he owes me. He now has a good job and has been making repayments - it is now down to around 25000. However on Friday he dealt me a real blow saying that he couldnt stay the course any longer - that he knew he had made me a promise but that he could no longer stick to it. I have had a couple of extremely stressful days trying to make him see how much this breaks down the trust he has built up over the last few months and how much it bloody hurts that he is willing to put gambling before my feelings and his promise.

He has now said that he will stick to his promise - but am not too hopeful - I feel like the demon is now out there and I am back to watching every move and scared of what each day might bring

Just so I give the full picture - other than this addiction and the fact that I am financially on my own he is a wonderful man - loving and caring and absolutely brilliant with my 2 kids - as if they were his own.

So - feeling quite anxious at the moment - although on the plus side now weigh 11/4 BMI 24.1 - woohoo

Sorry to rant - think I needed to get that all out - havent anyone to talk to except my OH and unfortunately he isnt exactly unbiased!!

Tasha

 

[kazz]

Hi Tasha, so sorry to see your having a hard time hun....Its always going to be hard for your OH to understand why you are concerned about your ex's relationship...even thought its about the kids, because hes insecure anyway he probably thinks this is a signal you'll go running back to your ex now that the coast is clear...men are strange creatures!!

And the gambling....wow....thats a lot of money, just to you!! Has he tried joining a group like gamblers anon? Maybe being surrounded by people with similar experiences will help him...

I dont envy you hun....hope things get better real soon!!