TBSx LL Journey...

[ReezieJay]

Hey

No didnt hurt at all on my wrist one little spot where it jolted a bit but nothing major at all

I have put in for a new name change. Nothing exciting just what my mum calls me. Reezie

It is a very lovely day today. Im tempted to go to the Beach tomorrow but its a long way and im skint so ill save that for when the weather is even nicer

Hope your having a lovely day with your horsies xxx

x

 

[sexychick]

Great news about your son hun,and fab for getting to size 12's,that's what I am now,jeans still a little snug though,but will soon be there.
Well done to you!
Sexy xx

 

[gracielou09]

Thats fantastic news about your son huni. Sounds like you and he have been through a lot.

Hope you had a good day with the horses ........sooo envious, you lucky lady you!

xxxxxxxxx

 

[LadyT]

Hey ladies, thank you for your kind words. My son is amazing in my eyes and deals with his condition so well xx

 

[LadyT]

Day 59

Not a lot to say today really, not drank enough water though, I always struggle when I am busy to get it in. Still got another litre to go tonight.

Had a lovely day with Charlie (the horse) he can be a handful, the funniest thing was my dughter rang me to check I was ok with him lol

Right dilema time, I have known a guy for over a year now and had irregular contact with him via text. We have gine out for a drink a couple of times, but he is weird in an irratating way. Basically this week we have been in contact again and he asked me out for a drink almost every day. I said no, partly because I am not interested in him and partly because ordering water isnt that exciting when out. Finally last night I agreed to go out with him next Thursday, got to be honest I think I will duck out of it before then. Anyway i told him about LL and said I wouldnt be much fun, he then text back saying how about a night at the casino, so I agreed! I just dont know if its right to go out with him because I am really NOT intrested in him. Oddly enough when I was a little larger I would find myself going for bigger blokes, he is a little chubby so maybe my taste is changing as my weight reduces.

Hope you have all had a lovely day in the sunshine xx

 

[weebles]

Question: why did you agree to go to the casino? Just to keep him quiet and not ask anymore?
You sound like a person who doesn't want to hurt anyone. THIS is where we differ in our paths.
Nah...not really, I don't like to upset anyone either and have gone on a few sympathy dates in the past.
If he is really an irritating guy then....why bother? Ain't going anywhere is it?

BTW, i just read about your son - GREAT news!! Very happy and pleased for him.

Oh..as for the smells that bother me and are my trigger? Gonna try this Paul McKenna thing a try and TAP my body. I have his book and some tapes here that I got off Ebay for pennies, so best but it to good use.

Hope you are well my lovely.

 

[MagdaX]

Go and enjoy yourself Hun! Just because you don't fancy him doesn't mean you can't hang out with him. A night in the casino sounds like fun to me! A perfect excuse to doll up and be glamourous for the night ( not that you aren't anyway but you know what I mean )
Just don't put to much pressure on yourself and have fun! You never know you might even hit the jackpot!
X

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[LadyT]

Question: why did you agree to go to the casino? Just to keep him quiet and not ask anymore?
You sound like a person who doesn't want to hurt anyone. THIS is where we differ in our paths.
Nah...not really, I don't like to upset anyone either and have gone on a few sympathy dates in the past.
If he is really an irritating guy then....why bother? Ain't going anywhere is it?

BTW, i just read about your son - GREAT news!! Very happy and pleased for him.

Oh..as for the smells that bother me and are my trigger? Gonna try this Paul McKenna thing a try and TAP my body. I have his book and some tapes here that I got off Ebay for pennies, so best but it to good use.

Hope you are well my lovely.

Well the honest truth is that I sit in every night, thats how sad my life is, I am lucky if I get out once a month with friends. I'm a sad singleton! So the reason I agreed to go out was because I thought it woud be nice to get out for an evening.

Let me explain the irratating thing, he dismisses my comments and makes me feel pretty rubbish sometimes, but basically he has let me down a number of times, stood me up and ignored texts along with all sorts of other things. He always has an excuse, he isnt my type but I think I must like the attention because I havent had that much since I have been single. I asked my friend what to do and she said its nice to go out with different people even if you know they arent your type. This isnt something I would normally do to be honest and I woud rather throw myself under a bus than hurt someone I learnt that lesson with the one true love I ever had.:cry:Maybe you have helped me see sense, I think I am going to make my excuses. Thank you!

Loving the EFT tapping idea, I have tried it but not sure I understand it well enough to make it work for me. Let me know how you get on with it.

I am good hunny, hope you are too. xx

 

[Gembritney]

Its a womans perogative to chop and change her mind about men lol! Id say go out and have fun a mates... but ur diary seems to be feeling uncomfortable about going to hang out with him, so maybe just make some excuse.... jus say your washing your hair

 

[LadyT]

Ladies, sorry this is me all over my relationships with men since being a child have been disasterous and dating has been an absolute no no since I hurt the one man that I ever really loved in my life. I am lucky that he still wants me in his life, albeit in a different way now. We will always love each other and totally believe if it was meant to be then we will find ourselves back in each others arms and if not then he has taught me a lot about myself. We both need time to heal and I need to find that inner self that he saw and start to love myself. Part f the reason for losing weight is to gain control of my life and learn to love ME!

I just feel that everyone I ever loved has left me for one reason or another. A difficult sentence to come to terms with so imagine how I dealt with it in person. I locked myself away and ate my way to happiness, or so I thought. The reality was a million miles away!

I find it hard to say no to people and just want to make everyone else happy because if they are I dont need to be! I know how silly that statement is but cant help it! Which is why I am anabsolute fan of CBT I knw will help fix and heal me inside. So I agreed to go out with him for that reasn alone, I am not attracted to him, he is intriguing partly because he doesnt pamper to my needs like others have, he doesnt treat me like that princess like I have been in the past. Even as I am writing all of this I am having lightbulb moments!!

I have decided to leave it until the middle of next week see how I feel and go from there, after al you can never have too many friends. I could probably count mine on one hand becuase of the life I lived previously.

Thanks for your support and advice ladies I really appreciate it and love the fact that there has been both positive and negative style comments because it forced me to think about me in all of this, so again thank you.

Sorry this is a bit deep, luv to you all and have a great day! xxx

 

[LadyT]

Day 60

Who would have thought I would last this long, not only that lose weight every week, what a bonus!

Its amazing that I hardly ever have any foody thoughts whlst on this diet. I guess I am lukcy, I also find it easy to say no when I am offered something to eat.

Had a nice relaxing day today, weather was rubbish and coldnt ride my friends horse he is still lame bless him. Hope he is better soon!

Visited my sister to hand over all my clothes that I no longer want, her friends love it when I empty the wardrobe lol.

Went to town and bought some new make up brushes and a few other bits and pieces I needed.

Had some fabulous news today, my son had an appointment with his neurosurgeon this afternoon who has told him on the last MRI scan the mass showing on his brain has actually reduced and is almost invisible, so no surgery required. It does mean he will need to stay on the medication for life, but I can cope with that and mores to the point so can he. Cant tell you the relief I have had from that news. So happy!!

Hope everyone had a great day xx

 

[LadyT]

Day 61

What a dull & boring day, its all I can do NOT to eat something. The thing is I actually dont want anything nd know it would absolutely devastate me if I did eat.

Rubbish on TV, so went shopping with my daughter rally wanted some maxi dresses for the holiday, but I dont like the patterns, so annoying, so I bought nothing and she had lots.

I bumped into a friend who I used to work in the same office as but I have sinced moved to another. She said I looked really good and asked what I had been up to, told her it was LL her reaction was well what about when you eat. Why do people say that!!

Just feel so miserable today argh!!! Which is not me at all, I'm going to read some of the diaries on her to hopefully distract me and inspire me. xx

 

[Gembritney]

Oh im sorry ur feeling rubbish today LadyT. YOU ave had such good news aswell..... about ur son and also on the compliment from your old work friend. I hope u wake feeling brighter tomorrow.... Hugs xxxx

 

[LadyT]

Oh im sorry ur feeling rubbish today LadyT. YOU ave had such good news aswell..... about ur son and also on the compliment from your old work friend. I hope u wake feeling brighter tomorrow.... Hugs xxxx

Hey lovely, thanks for the kind words

I think its Sundays, I really dont like them, they are full of people going for sunday lunch etc, normally I would do something like that, think I was feeling sorry for myself with everyine deciding where to go to eat and lucky old me had a LL foodpack. I just kept telling myself I will get there SOON!

I am over the moon about my son!

Hope you are ok xx

 

[gracielou09]

Fantastic news about your son hun, You must be so relieved.

Just reading your dilema You do what you think is right, you know deep down in your heart how you feel. If you fancy a night out then go, let him spend his money on you, have a laugh and then say "thanks for a lovely evening, Bye". No harm in having men that are friends who you go out with. Although sounds to me he's maybe the sort of bloke if if you back off he may become more persistent, men do like a chase lol!

But, I'll just say, it's time to start making you happy and not other's ....yes you may feel a little selfish but you have to sometimes huni, there's nothing wrong with it

xxxxxx

 

[LadyT]

Fantastic news about your son hun, You must be so relieved.

Just reading your dilema You do what you think is right, you know deep down in your heart how you feel. If you fancy a night out then go, let him spend his money on you, have a laugh and then say "thanks for a lovely evening, Bye". No harm in having men that are friends who you go out with. Although sounds to me he's maybe the sort of bloke if if you back off he may become more persistent, men do like a chase lol!

But, I'll just say, it's time to start making you happy and not other's ....yes you may feel a little selfish but you have to sometimes huni, there's nothing wrong with it

xxxxxx

Thanks, I am still floating on cloud 9!

I am not sure I i'll bother in true 'him' style he was pestering me to go out Saturday night but I turned him down flat, havent herd from him since, so decision made as far as I am concerned now.

You are so right, its all about me now!

Hope you're ok and getting on alright with LL xx

 

[LadyT]

Day 62

So back to work today, well working from home that is! Didnt bother me too much as the weather was hit and miss most of the day.

No foody thoughts as I was too busy catching up on e mails, a far cry from yesterday! Seriously thought I would cave yesterday, thank goodness I didnt that was more down to my daughter telling me it wouldnt be long before I could eat again, but in moderation. When did she get so sensible lol

Watched a lad who used to work for me on deal or no deal today, it was lovely to see him win some money that can really benefit him and his young family.

Just got back from Bodyjam, I actually really njoy doing it but seriously I thought I was pretty good t throwing shapes around the dancefloor this class tells me different, but I do enjoy it so going to stick with it and give Zumba a miss that wasnt for me unfortunately. Feel shattered now.

I am off work again tomorrow, got loads of holiday to take before May, but I have been planning my clothes for Wed & Thurs as I am going into th office. It will be interesting to see if I get any comments, I think I am going to wear the new size 12 dress I bought off the internet one day and maybe a nice pencil skirt the following day. How exciting I never normally plan my clothes just chuck them on in the morning!

One more pack tonight then off to bed. Got my WI tomorrow, bring on another 3(or more) xx

 

[weebles]

Hi Lady!

I watched Deal or no Deal as well today. I felt for that man and what he is going through. He seems so nice and genuine. Brought tears to my eyes on his story.

Good luck in your outfit, I am SURE you will get a few comments

Bravo for listening to your daughter. So happy you didn't cave either.
Tempations...UGH.
Found some recipes on the net for these foodpacks - bananoffee pie anyone? LOL, seriously...got the recipe. I am doing a chili burger and chips on friday.

Listen chickie - tc and will talk with you later. Good luck on the WI!

 

[LadyT]

Hi Lady!

I watched Deal or no Deal as well today. I felt for that man and what he is going through. He seems so nice and genuine. Brought tears to my eyes on his story.

Good luck in your outfit, I am SURE you will get a few comments

Bravo for listening to your daughter. So happy you didn't cave either.
Tempations...UGH.
Found some recipes on the net for these foodpacks - bananoffee pie anyone? LOL, seriously...got the recipe. I am doing a chili burger and chips on friday.

Listen chickie - tc and will talk with you later. Good luck on the WI!

Andy is such a lovely guy, both him and his partner Clare worked for me. They are such lovely people everyone loves him! I was worried he would not win much, he wasnt allowed to tell anyone, so pleased they had a decent amount.

I am not adventurous with the packs and wish you loads of luck, I tried making crisps(I think) once they didnt work out well and I went hungry :sigh:

Thanks for the good luck, I'm hoping for a biggee but anything is a bonus! xx

 

[Gembritney]

Hey lovely, thanks for the kind words

I think its Sundays, I really dont like them, they are full of people going for sunday lunch etc, normally I would do something like that, think I was feeling sorry for myself with everyine deciding where to go to eat and lucky old me had a LL foodpack. I just kept telling myself I will get there SOON!

I am over the moon about my son!

Hope you are ok xx

My sister classes sundays as "suicide sundays" i also find sundays depressing xxx