Step 1 Sole Source The Last Re-start!

[Beverley75]

oh yes i did!!! and you should get started - even if its just a short story for us minimin folk...

Ooooh scary thought! Okay. Ideas for genres welcome

Hope you had another 100% Dukan day sweets x

 

[Bonkers]

Ooooh scary thought! Okay. Ideas for genres welcome

Hope you had another 100% Dukan day sweets x

A nice detective story with a bit of romance thrown in and a serious twist to the tale (Jeffrey Archer or James Patterson style!)

 

[Beverley75]

Blimey! Don't ask for much do you pet? Those are some of my favourite authors! I better get my creative cap on then and get cracking

I'm still waiting to hear back on that job..... The recruitment manager is on leave until Thursday but "has my cv" - I've still got everything crossed :cross: it would be so ideal!!!! At least it's helped me focus on what industry to really target in my search.

I feel so drained and off my game today courtesy of TOTM the worst part is the mental discipline required yesterday has weirdly left me physically exhausted. Here's the problem, my cat looked like this : ...... My son looked like this : ........ The postman looked like this : .....…............. My own left hand looked like this : ........... Seriously, what is it about TOTM that turns us into ravening food beasts? The mental battle from 8pm to bedtime was phenomenal. I was trapped in a Tom and Jerry cartoon and it was flipping exhausting! But I survived (barely) and lived to fight another day

So here's me raising a metaphorical glass to the good ship Aunty Flo and all who've sailed in the biatch

Have a great day xx

 

[skydragon]

afraid it taps into our animalistic urges, it comes from a time when we were all hanging around in trees throwing **** at each other! may its reign be short and normality return cause the process is quite hard enough without adding the call of the wild from our more primitive selves

if you must if you must gnaw on somebody at least make it king twat, george, sunshine and i ll give the postie the benefit of the doubt are too good to lose

hope all good in da hood otherwise
jxx

 

[Beverley75]

Lol all's good in da hood Just feel flipping shattered! I hope you had a great day xx

 

[Bonkers]

Blimey! Don't ask for much do you pet? Those are some of my favourite authors! I better get my creative cap on then and get cracking

I'm still waiting to hear back on that job..... The recruitment manager is on leave until Thursday but "has my cv" - I've still got everything crossed :cross: it would be so ideal!!!! At least it's helped me focus on what industry to really target in my search.

I feel so drained and off my game today courtesy of TOTM the worst part is the mental discipline required yesterday has weirdly left me physically exhausted. Here's the problem, my cat looked like this : ...... My son looked like this : ........ The postman looked like this : .....…............. My own left hand looked like this : ........... Seriously, what is it about TOTM that turns us into ravening food beasts? The mental battle from 8pm to bedtime was phenomenal. I was trapped in a Tom and Jerry cartoon and it was flipping exhausting! But I survived (barely) and lived to fight another day

So here's me raising a metaphorical glass to the good ship Aunty Flo and all who've sailed in the biatch

Have a great day xx

hahahaha !!!! just great!

oh you will hear back on the job front dont worry. it is the holiday season and i find everything just moves that much slower...

hope you have great day today xx

 

[Beverley75]

Thanks Bonkers I 'm feeling a bit wretched today - nausea to go with sore tummy and bloated feeling.... ahhh the gift of TOTM, it just keeps giving

In other news, is it just me? I'm starting to think I have some kind of body dysmorphic disorder - I still feel fat. Now admittedly the full length mirror in my room is so bad it's almost a fun house mirror, it makes even my skinniest size 8 friend look size 16 (!!???), it's awful! But the mirror by the front door does show me looking A LOT slimmer (so do plate glass windows when I walk past shops - I'm not vain, but you've got to look don't you? ) - BUT I still feel like a fatty, like I'm one drumstick away from waking up a size 24 again ....... I say all that to preface the good news: I realised while I was in the bath that I had more room to lie back and move around, and was actually fully submerged under the water . Pathetic much? But I take my victories where I can find them lol

Now if I could just get rid of this tummy.... Although to be fair it's been quite flat recently (what with being empty) so it's just bloating, but still. D@mn Aunty Flo .

Anywhooooo, next shake at 12pm, and almost can't be bothered, but I know the drill so I'll have it. I just realised it might be quite helpful to list my weekly losses for posterity, or at least so I can track patterns in loss, but can't be arsed to wrestle with my stupid laptop right now.... I'll update later. I'm off to job hunt xx I hope you have a really good day too xx

 

[skydragon]

Thanks Bonkers I 'm feeling a bit wretched today - nausea to go with sore tummy and bloated feeling.... ahhh the gift of TOTM, it just keeps giving

In other news, is it just me? I'm starting to think I have some kind of body dysmorphic disorder - I still feel fat. Now admittedly the full length mirror in my room is so bad it's almost a fun house mirror, it makes even my skinniest size 8 friend look size 16 (!!???), it's awful! But the mirror by the front door does show me looking A LOT slimmer (so do plate glass windows when I walk past shops - I'm not vain, but you've got to look don't you? ) - BUT I still feel like a fatty, like I'm one drumstick away from waking up a size 24 again ....... I say all that to preface the good news: I realised while I was in the bath that I had more room to lie back and move around, and was actually fully submerged under the water . Pathetic much? But I take my victories where I can find them lol

Now if I could just get rid of this tummy.... Although to be fair it's been quite flat recently (what with being empty) so it's just bloating, but still. D@mn Aunty Flo .

Anywhooooo, next shake at 12pm, and almost can't be bothered, but I know the drill so I'll have it. I just realised it might be quite helpful to list my weekly losses for posterity, or at least so I can track patterns in loss, but can't be arsed to wrestle with my stupid laptop right now.... I'll update later. I'm off to job hunt xx I hope you have a really good day too xx

not loving aunt flo s work sounds tres rubbish.


on the body dysmorphia front i hate to be the bear of bad tidings but it s a strange thing that you may not see the difference your self, we have a bad habit of focusing on that which displeases us. when i lost 7st originally i knew by the clothes that i could wear i was so much slimmer but when looking at the mirror i still could see all the imperfections. it s the same when folks who aren t needing to diet go on about this part or that part in disgusting tones and i remember thinking i would kill to look like you. but the blemishes are as real to them as the x amount of stone is to you. really if i only had the mirror to go by i would think that the 2 st i ve just lost barely showed but as i have photographic proof i can see it. this is one of the main reason i go on about it being a game of two halves. its not just the physical shift but you may have to counteract your own eye s as well. you ll probably have seen a lot of folks on here get to goal and then want more as when im x or y then it ll be perfect, eh WRONG! you must come to a state where you are happy in your own skin before the battle is truelty won. i can remember one of the girls at work who was only ever 11st ish and she lost a good bit of weight and keeps it off to this day but she said to me " you never stop seeing the fat girl" not sure if that has tangented off and there will be some who do see themselves as slim now but for most of us its a hard one. sorry not a very uplifting post but forewarned is forearmed
jxx

 

[Beverley75]

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[Beverley75]

"It s a strange thing that you may not see the difference your self, we have a bad habit of focusing on that which displeases us. when i lost 7st originally i knew by the clothes that i could wear i was so much slimmer but when looking at the mirror i still could see all the imperfections."


Exactly!!!! Such a relief that it's not just me! It doesn't help that I really only take a good look at myself when I'm in my underwear, right?

And you are absolutely spot on that this is a game of two halves. It's the mental strategies that I need help with so that's why I'm thinking of starting some NLP counseling in the new year. As I go through this weight plan my priorities have changed. I'm no longer moving away from being fat.... I'm moving towards being healthy and not only loving myself (which I do) but appreciating the whole of myself. Yes, I know I have a keen mind and a good heart.... But there's absolutely nothing wrong with realizing that I'm kind of cute too. That I can and do look just that good. This needs to be a conscious choice and action everyday. We're taught how to play nice and get along with others, but we're not taught how to play nice and get along with ourselves.

I fully believe in our own ability to consciously (and subconsciously) convince ourselves of any truth so I will have to employ the mantra that I am slimmer, I am healthier, I am stronger and I look good. If not me, then who? If not now, then when? xx

 

[Bonkers]

and i remember thinking i would kill to look like you.

jxx

oh - how i feel you! all my skinny friends going on about that paunch that no one can see!!!! while im trying to hide the cushion im lugging around

"It s a strange thing that you may not see the difference your self, we have a bad habit of focusing on that which displeases us. when i lost 7st originally i knew by the clothes that i could wear i was so much slimmer but when looking at the mirror i still could see all the imperfections."


Exactly!!!! Such a relief that it's not just me! It doesn't help that I really only take a good look at myself when I'm in my underwear, right?

And you are absolutely spot on that this is a game of two halves. It's the mental strategies that I need help with so that's why I'm thinking of starting some NLP counseling in the new year. As I go through this weight plan my priorities have changed. I'm no longer moving away from being fat.... I'm moving towards being healthy and not only loving myself (which I do) but appreciating the whole of myself. Yes, I know I have a keen mind and a good heart.... But there's absolutely nothing wrong with realizing that I'm kind of cute too. That I can and do look just that good. This needs to be a conscious choice and action everyday. We're taught how to play nice and get along with others, but we're not taught how to play nice and get along with ourselves.

I fully believe in our own ability to consciously (and subconsciously) convince ourselves of any truth so I will have to employ the mantra that I am slimmer, I am healthier, I am stronger and I look good. If not me, then who? If not now, then when? xx

What is NLP counselling?

And Bev, same here. I can feel the difference in how my clothes fit and things like steering wheel not as close, airplane seats and belts not cutting into my thighs and tummy. But then i look in a mirror and cannot see it! Even in the pics I've been talking (in my underwear) I cannot see it on my body at all!

I have to remember that the reason I got on this diet train again was to get healthy and be able to play with my niece everyday. I'm keeping that in mind and not letting the mirror dictate how I feel.

Hope you had a good night and have a lovely day ahead xx

 

[Beverley75]

Ugh, I'm still battling it out with TOTM, but hanging on to the diet with a death grip lol

As for NLP, it's a branch/technique in counselling and I found this brief explanation:

"NLP means Neuro Linguistic Programming. In other words, it is the way we communicate with ourselves. Neuro means “of the mind”. Linguistic is the study of language. Therefore NLP simply means that you can programme the language of your mind. By doing so, you can get far better results in your life."

My sister (middle child, the one who lost loads of weight on LighterLife and kept it off) is a qualified NLP Counsellor, among other things, and I went to some NLP counselling in 2009 with my then Cambridge consultant (Lawrence) and had a major breakthrough in why I kept getting nearly to goal then panicking and piling the weight back on. Really, really useful way to find answers to your own thinking, and ways to reprogramme your own limiting thoughts. Wow. I sound like an ad

So. Pretty sure I'll have another good 100% day today, but can't wait for my medication to start tomorrow to banish Aunty Flo for another month.

I hope you have a lovely day too hon xx

 

[skydragon]

that sounds like a good plan once we bring out our bad habits to the light and really think about why we do things makes it all easier to break the cycle

keep the diet grasped firmly in your paws thats a battle in its self
jxx

 

[Bonkers]

NLP sounds interesting. I wonder if they have that here or similar. Must research...

I saw you honked a 100% day today. So a big yay!!!!

(big hug) and hopefully we send aunty flo packing tomm!

 

[Beverley75]

Aunty Flo has left the building!!!!! Whoooohooo arty0011:

What a flaming relief!

I genuinely can't believe I've made it to day 71..... It's been YEARS since I've felt this positive and the best part is I bought a new size 18 top that looked fabulous (the 16 looked ok-ish, but I'll give it a couple of weeks before I chance it) Hark at me: ok-ish is no longer good enough..... I want to look sexxxxy lol

And guess what? I've got an interview for that 'ideal' job next Wednesday!!!!!! All prayers, fingers crossed, are welcome! Wish me luck :cross:

How's your day been? xx

 

[Beverley75]

72 days and 10 weeks in, and another 100% day .

The best part is while getting the Christmas tree from the loft I decided to vacuum pack all my summer clothes ( which I couldn't fit into this past summer mind you!) to store up there ..... And decided to try some on.... I'm thrilled to report I'm firmly in size 16 Next and Dorothy Perkins Skirts Ooooh yeah!!!!!!

I also tried on a very unforgiving denim skirt which is more a stiff size 14..... And it could do up! I can't wear it out (not a flattering fit by any means), but I could do it up!
Plus my gorgeous Sunshine Boy asked me to write him my Christmas list..... aww. How sweet is he!?!

All in all: a great day..... Weigh in tomorrow, wish me luck (it's been ever so hard to avoid a sneak peek. D@mn TOTM!) xx

 

[Cee]

Hi Beverley,

Just wanted to let you know I'm still around kind of. Hope you're keeping we'll. I will get round to catching up with your diary soon. I'm off to bed now. Shattered. Night Hun x

 

[Bonkers]

72 days and 10 weeks in, and another 100% day .

The best part is while getting the Christmas tree from the loft I decided to vacuum pack all my summer clothes ( which I couldn't fit into this past summer mind you!) to store up there ..... And decided to try some on.... I'm thrilled to report I'm firmly in size 16 Next and Dorothy Perkins Skirts Ooooh yeah!!!!!!

I also tried on a very unforgiving denim skirt which is more a stiff size 14..... And it could do up! I can't wear it out (not a flattering fit by any means), but I could do it up!
Plus my gorgeous Sunshine Boy asked me to write him my Christmas list..... aww. How sweet is he!?!

All in all: a great day..... Weigh in tomorrow, wish me luck (it's been ever so hard to avoid a sneak peek. D@mn TOTM!) xx

arty0011:arty0011:arty0011:

size 14 - awesome! and oh yeah - no just looking good - sexy it is!!!!!

How did the weigh in go?

 

[Beverley75]

16st 4lbs!!!!! 3lbs off.... Fingers crossed I get to my self imposed deadline of hitting the 15s by Christmas (looking promising!). I'm so, so happy xx

Ps: And I just realised: 3st 1lb off in 10 weeks

 

[Beverley75]

Hi Beverley,

Just wanted to let you know I'm still around kind of. Hope you're keeping we'll. I will get round to catching up with your diary soon. I'm off to bed now. Shattered. Night Hun x

Hiya Cee! I've missed you girlie I hope you're well, please let me know how it's going when you get a chance xx (and I mean life in general, not just with the diet!)