Please give me strength!!!
Well everyone, I am ashamed to say I'm back, but pleased to say I have truely missed you all!!
I have tried loads of diets in the time i have been away from milkshakes, dukan diet, calorie control, healthy eating etc etc!! I manage to have a great week 1 then a crap week 2 and then I get disheartened in week 3 and blow it all. This is a cycle that has happened for all of the above diets I tried. I need consistant great losses in order to keep me motivated.
So anyway, now I am back and I am guessing by the way I feel that I am actually at my heaviest weight that I have ever been!!
I have now bitten the bullet and I am starting Cambridge Diet as of Monday.
I hope you guys dont mind, but I would still like to stay on this board if I can as the support is always amazing and you all feel like friends and I am going to need all the help I can get.
I chose to go back to CD as I feel I need the added push of actually having someone come and weigh me every week. I am hoping this will keep me on the straight and narrow!
My first appointment with a counsellor is tomorrow evening at 18.15 which is when I will be weighed and measured. I have no idea how much I weigh right now as I am scared to look but I know it is going to be massive by the way I feel and I am ashamed to say also by the way I have been eating. I decided last week to go back to CD and this week I have had a week off work and obviously it has been a complete blow out. Its like I have been cramming all the food I am going to miss into 1 week....sick I know!! Wierdly, although I know I will be the heaviest EVER, I am surprisingly ok with that. Not sure why, maybe it is because I feel I might see better losses the bigger I am (typing that down just feels a bit warped, but I need to be honest with myself).
So, weigh in tomorrow evening and start of a new dawn from Monday......watch this space!!!
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