The new me diary....

I have been took aspirin and painkillers last night before bed and it seemed 2 work(ish) I did wake up with pain but got back 2 sleep within 15mins - much better than usual..
 
Aaaaaagh! Didn't sleep at all last night :( my legs are really getting I'm my nerves now!! Took aspirin and painkillers before bed, took another 2 painkillers about 1pm and never got back 2 sleep..

Anyway weighed this morning and only 1lb down - so I'm 10st 3 :(

Menu today
B- shake
L- bar
D- cod in parsley source and veg

Going to follow this kind of plan until my exante pack runs out..
Got a planned day off Saturday as I'm going out with Lee and his family for his dads birthday.
 
OH dear Sarah, poor you. I hope you can get some sort of relief for your legs soon.

Well done on the 1lb loss.....a loss is a loss hunni. xx
 
Sorry to hear about your leg hun- nothing worse when you can't sleep properly. Don't know much about what you have got but have you tried heat pads/hot water bottle on it? it really helps me knee when it is bad.
So happy for you that things are going well with Lee x
 
Aww sorry you're having trouble with your leg! :( but well done on the 1lbs loss - fab :) x
 
Well done on the loss . That leg problem sounds awful. There's nothing worse than losing sleep. Hope you can get some relief soon.
Try taking a teaspoon of salt for a few nights and see does it help. Years ago I was on a strict DIY diet. I started to get awful leg pains at night. A herbalist friend reckoned I was losing too much salt and not taking enough in. After a few nights of taking salt the problem settled, so I guess she was right.
Take care
 
Totally rubbish day yesterday - my boss decided we can no longer eat or drink at our desks - so was so busy yesterday I didn't get a chance 2 leave my desk 2 have my bar for breaky or my shake for lunch :(
Got home about 7 and went straight 2 Lee's Dads to give him a birthday card - so when I finally got home is was nearly 9pm and I'd not ate all day...... So I was naughty and got Foo young and curry sauce from the Chinese and had a couple of chips :(

Gonna have my bar on the bus today and make sure I take a lunch 2 have my shake - not sure what 2 have for tea yet?

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Had a good night sleep last night - only woke up once at 3am and went straight back 2 sleep... I took stronger tablets and was shattered so think I was knocked out lol...
 
What a horrible boss...........I wouldnt eat my bar on the bus, I would make sure I had my morning break and my lunch break........dont get me started on workers rights.......lol.
 
I've made sure I took breaks to have my bar and shake today Mary :)

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Just had a really weird moment - just got quiet upset about Tom? I know that he has got a new girlfriend as he went on a date with her at the end of Sept (last time I had contact with him) - this has not bothered me at all.... However I found out today that Tom and his new girlfriend took his son to see fireworks on Saturday! They have only been dating for a month and she gets to meet Thomas - I was with him 2 years and were only just getting to that point... I just feel so stupid that I wasted all that time and thought that he would change for me... Don’t know why this has upset me so much...

I feel like its given me a bit of a kick up the ass - I wasted so much time on Tom and was always trying to lose weight for him and to look nice for him - when really I should have done it for myself... I lost most of my weight before him and now I'm going to get to goal for me...

Like I mentioned I have a day out planned on Saturday with Lee and his family - so I will continue with 2 shakes and a meal until then as I want to have a drink - then I'm getting back to TFR I think.....

I'm so fed up of feeling so down on myself - I've got a lovely boyfriend who is so kind and supportive but I still don’t feel good enough - I've really lost my confidence and I think I can get that back....

Sorry for the long post I'm just having an emotional day lol
 
Oh hun! that is bound to be a kick in the balls (or the female equivalent!) Glad you are feeling positive after it all. I know if I hadn't dealt with so much crap I wouldn't appreciate N as much as I do!
The confidence will come and remember that Lee loves and supports you for who you are now and not who you feel you should be.
Glad you slept better.
Big hugs xxxx
 
Oh darling I'm only seeing this now!! I hope you're ok??? I bet it was like a kick in the teeth finding that out! Listen Tom clearly doesnt know his arse from his elbow, there is no point in even trying to understand his logic behind it because he obviously has none!

Just know you had a lucky escape from this passive aggressive twat and now have a wonderful guy who loves you for you! Chin up babe xxx
 
Well obviously it affected you so badly because you finally realised how badly he treated you!!!! Sorry but in the long run this can only be a good thing. Sorry you felt bad but in some ways it was necessary! You're worth sooo much more! xx
 
It was a jolt to realise that Tom just did not give you the respect you deserve. Chapter is closed now! You are into a new and exciting phase of life. Don't take it all too seriously and enjoy it! You are young and lovely. Losing the weight for yourself is a great idea and a sign of your confidence returning .
 
I agree with the others hun. Concentrate on your life now and how much better it is without someone like Tom :) x
 
So sorry to hear you're feeling down babes but it shows just how much he DOES NOT deserve you! He's a user, loser and I can come up with a few more words but am sure that they will be sensored. You DESERVE to be treated like a princess and with respect and it sounds that Lee does exactly that! Never doubt yourself, it wasn't you, it was him! Just think "good riddance" and chin up, you are a beautiful and wonderful girl and you are worth so much more than that piece of sh1te! x
 
Good on you for taking your breaks.


Aww Sarah Hun, just shows what an asshole Tom was, he says one thing, but means another, you really are well rid of him, close that chapter and move on to the next chapter, you deserve to find the happiness.

I am sure your confidence will come with being in a loving relationship and being with someone who loves Sarah, not what HEEEEE expects Sarah to be.

Carry on being your very own beautiful self chick, and enjoy your new life with your new love xxx
 
Thanks guys, I'm over it now - feel stupid for getting so upset yesterday.

Anyway - I've decided 2 keep my shakes until Sunday so I don't waist them and then I'm TFR from then... I really want 2 lose weight by Christmas - my clothes are a bit tight and I feel uncomfortable... Not gonna stress on the lb I just want the clothes to feel better.
 
Mary it's do hard isn't it... I know I said I would be back on TFR next week but if I'm honest I don't want 2 put my self through it again...
I hate that I can have what I think is a naughty week (but what is 2 most people a normal week) but put on half a stone.. I'm so fed up of battling with my weight - I don't think I'll ever be happy - I just want 2 get 2 9st and stay there :(
 
I think its definitely harder second/third or whatever time around to do TFR again.

Remember when I first done it, I found it a breeze and got right down to target - Oooh I wish I could have bottled it :)
 
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