Hi all! <waves>
I'm hoping to start LighterLife this month... I'm 28, currently weighing in at 16st.
I've always been overweight since childhood, and have yo-yo'd on half hearted diets before... but a barrage of steroids for medical reasons has seen things balloon over the past few years, and now I'm really really fed up with my weight, shape, body, looks...
I'm due to have brain surgery at Xmas, which naturally I don't want, and this is my final push to try and get my health back on an even keel... maybe even avoid the surgery?!
I'm also finding myself getting teary and depressed when I think about all the 'normal' clothes I'd love to be able to wear... down to posh suits and dresses to fit in with the job I'm now in which I've come to love... fed up of looking like the office frump...
So... this is my time to sort myself out... I realise that I use food as a tool against boredom, so my biggest goal is going to be finding lots of other things to do to keep me occupied, rather than automatically heading for the kitchen and the fridge... I'm thinking lots of walks with my dog, bubble baths, manicures... any ideas most welcome!!!!
I hope I'm welcome here... because of my lack of self-belief I'm afraid I tend to put on a 'cheery happy front' for everyone (work, family) etc but inside I'm really crying... I live alone, I have one friend whom I don't see that much, and it can often be that once I go home from work I don't speak to a single other person until the next day at work, same on a weekend - it can pass that I leave work on fri night and don't have anyone else to talk to until monday at work again... I know this is all through my own doing - I've felt so unworthy of maintaining friendships as I feel who'd want to go out drinking, socialising, with a fat ass like me... Plus I don't get how people could truly love a big chubby girl so I've never let any boyfriends get close as I don't get why they'd want to be with me really... so I do understand why I'm all alone, and why it's through my own fault, but feel this is the first step to overcoming and undoing (slowly) all of this... I'm admitting it, so *big sigh* fingers crossed I'm going to do ok...
Thank you in advance for any help you can give... and many thanks for everyone who's shared their photos and success stories - I've been lurking for a while and been reading through everything, your stories have made me cry and smile equally, but also spurred me on to add my own on here one day!
tinks xx