The Secret Diary Of A Fat Girl..Has Her Mojo Back.. And It's here To Stay!

[bunny_hops]

all sorted..there in nice sections now, what fits, what doesnt fit and what will fit soon lol

im using the drawers in my bed to keep my clothes in, theres a lot of room in them and theyre nice and deep...i cant wait ti fill them with new clothes in smaller sizes

 

[bunny_hops]

Cant believe its thursday already,where is the time going.ive not exercised at all for the last 2 days....feel like a slug

and its getting really cold now i get all snug and warm to go out, then the minute i step into a shop or heated classroom im cooking...hate that downside to being overweight

dont have long before ive got to get my youngest from nursery,will definitely do exercise when i get back

come on,pull yourself together woman!!

 

[bunny_hops]

JEEZ!!!

ive noticed my ticker....when did christmas start coming so quick!

 

[Kes]

Tell me about it.... I want another 10 weeks before Christmas.... need more time....

 

[bunny_hops]

Ive got some presents already but i still need to get my mums present and the rest of the kids presents.
im really stuck with my eldest,he'll be 8 just before xmas and i really dont know what to get him, he'll have puzzles,books, dvds,games for ds etc but big present wise i just dont know what to get.

i was thinking guitar hero,but i dont know whether its his thing really,hes not that into music... my youngest lad wants everything that come on the telly lol

im in a bit of a dilemma...i have 2 male cats,around 6 months old,someone i know needs to rehome their 4 year old cat...a lovely breed and ive always wanted one,so im just trying to make some decisions about whether to have her..

ive been good this week with my food, despite it being totm,ive hardly craved the usual sugary and chocolately goodness looking forward to mondays weigh in...zoinks,it comes round so quick!

 

[Kes]

good luck tomorrow!

 

[bunny_hops]

YAY! 9lbs off this week,makes up for the +1lb last week...damn totm!

so thats 26lbs off in total,2 more then ive hit 2 stone,so thats my goal for next week,at least 2lb to come off.

ive just had some weetabix minis, they quite nice for a change,ive got no ready made shakes left,and the powder goes way to thick,might try the slim fast powder see if thats better..better get doing something

 

[Kes]

i dont know what the asda one is like... but i dont think that the slim fast powders go as thick as the premade drinks.. add ice to them and they are really nice

 

[bunny_hops]

i think it could be the hand blender im using, its making it go really thick,almost spoonable thick...ive tried shaking it but it doesnt mix right,goes all lumpy..i'll definitely try the slim fast power

well today has gone really quick..

breakfast..weetabix bitesize
lunch..alpen fruit museli...really yum

for dinner ive got some lovely veg stew left from yesterday, might have that with a bit of rice to bulk out the cals for today

 

[Kes]

how are you today??? any more dizzy spells, could it have just been a bug or something? or is it still happening?

 

[bunny_hops]

i dont know whats happening...ive not felt dizzy and drunk while im walking since the other day,but when im sat still on the laptop,all of a sudden i'll come over all funny,just for a few seconds... like im a bit dizzy..

i think the other day couldve been down to my body wanting a bit of something (although i didnt feel hungry) and i was walking too... this im thinking could be something to do with the laptop screen and maybe my eyes need testing

 

[bunny_hops]

ive not been shopping yet,so didnt get the chance to get slim fast powder,and theres no way im blending up that other powder,its only nice in the ready made shakes so today ive had..

breakfast..2 ww yoghurts
a banana while walking down to the post office
lunch.. a bowl of alpen museli

wasnt hungry,but needed to have something.

im not sure what dinner will be yet..

i love soreen fruit loaf,its 50p at the co op for a small loaf so i got one after checking, its big with the cals but low in the fat...might treat myself to a slice later or tomorrow

 

[downsizeme]

Hope the dizzyness subsides.

I love maltloaf!

 

[bunny_hops]

So after reading whats happening on Alex's diary its made me think about my life and how i want my life to be.

my last proper serious relationship that was normal wouldve been a 4 year relationship i had when i was 16

my eldest childs dad was a nightmare relationship,it wasnt normal (it was him,he wasnt and still isnt right in the head)he was crackers and turned out to be quite nasty and cruel,i still have to see him at the weekend when i take my eldest lad to visit.i really wish i had listened to what people were telling me about him, but then i wouldnt have my gorgeous lad.
we had split up,but he still lived with me as he had no place to go...when he did eventually leave (he shacked up with my so called friend,we arent friends now, that ended badly too) i became friendly with a guy,we met in the pub...that wasnt a normal relationship either...

we never saw each other out of the pub, we never went on a date,we never spent time together during the day,we hardly had a conversation that didnt revolve around the pub or our friends in the pub.. not a good relationship at all.
he is the father to my other child and he has never seen him,we split up several months before i had him.that was 4 years ago now.

my life has changed sooo much since then,all those people i thought were my friends i dont see,we exchange a hello if our paths cross,i dont drink anymore i hardly socialise now.

i guess going from one aggressive relationship to a dysfunctional one knocked all my confidence out of me,and that with other things has just led me to spiral downwards and pile on so much weight and go into myself.

im not ready for a relationship,where i meet someone face to face and let someone enter my life,im not ready for that,i dont know if or when i will be but i do know that i want a partner eventually.

so after reading whats happening with Alex at the moment its made me think about things,and about changes i have to make..

 

[bunny_hops]

So after reading whats happening on Alex's diary its made me think about my life and how i want my life to be.

my last proper serious relationship that was normal wouldve been a 4 year relationship i had when i was 16

my eldest childs dad was a nightmare relationship,it wasnt normal (it was him,he wasnt and still isnt right in the head)he was crackers and turned out to be quite nasty and cruel,i still have to see him at the weekend when i take my eldest lad to visit.i really wish i had listened to what people were telling me about him, but then i wouldnt have my gorgeous lad.
we had split up,but he still lived with me as he had no place to go...when he did eventually leave (he shacked up with my so called friend,we arent friends now, that ended badly too) i became friendly with a guy,we met in the pub...that wasnt a normal relationship either...

we never saw each other out of the pub, we never went on a date,we never spent time together during the day,we hardly had a conversation that didnt revolve around the pub or our friends in the pub.. not a good relationship at all.
he is the father to my other child and he has never seen him,we split up several months before i had him.that was 4 years ago now.

my life has changed sooo much since then,all those people i thought were my friends i dont see,we exchange a hello if our paths cross,i dont drink anymore i hardly socialise now.

i guess going from one aggressive relationship to a dysfunctional one knocked all my confidence out of me,and that with other things has just led me to spiral downwards and pile on so much weight and go into myself.

im not ready for a relationship,where i meet someone face to face and let someone enter my life,im not ready for that,i dont know if or when i will be but i do know that i want a partner eventually.

so after reading whats happening with Alex at the moment its made me think about things,and about changes i have to make..

 

[bunny_hops]

Hope the dizzyness subsides.

I love maltloaf!

so do i,i could quite easily eat the whole thing!
what do you put on yours? ive not had butter or butter spread since taking the xenical

xoxo

 

[bunny_hops]

had a busy day today,did some shopping and got a few more christmas presents and seen a load of stuff that i want
asda have some lovely christmas things in, clothes etc...so hopefully if i can do it, im going to make the effort this year, to look a bit nicer and maybe get something new..i always get the kids christmas outfits so i think i deserve one too

breakfast was a ww yoghurt and a banana
lunch..i had a chocolate shake yum!

not sure what dinner is tonight,i picked up a good for you sweet and sour meal, that was quite low,so i may have that

 

[downsizeme]

I like it plain, don't really use butter/marg even before xenical.

Sounds like you have had a rough ride with men but as you say you have two gorgeous children. Hopefully losing weight will give you the confidence to find someone who deserves you!

 

[bunny_hops]

i love hot toast smothered in clover or lurpak :drool: or tiger bread yum i havent had any butter or spreads for 6 weeks, and ive hardly had any bread


Yeah,i have had a rough time,you're right i do have 2 gorgeous children and i wouldnt change it for the world.
i'll still be holding out for my own Mr Darcy

xoxo

 

[bunny_hops]

im watching the witches of eastwick... put me off cherries for life lol

breakie chocolate shake
lunch chocolate shake
dinner weight watchers meal with extra peas

have a huge banana and shape zero yoghurts

its half term now,so we pop to the pizza hut in the week,i like that i can still go and eat there,unlike mcdonalds